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so mcm yg stalker2 aku taw. *ade ke?*, aku slmt smpai Arau dlm kul 4.30AM kt Stesyen Bas Kangar. Hari tu 1st time aku balik mlm rasenye? I mean, balik malam ke Arau. Balik KL mlm2 da biase da. tp salunye smpai time Subuh. ni awal pulok. scaryy gile k.. anyway kene tambang RM25, hamek ko. tp tape. aku paham sbb time tu pun aku kire beruntung ade taxi gak. sbb ade just mcm 3 ketul taxi je. aku nmpk anjing2 berkeliaran. so mcm x kesah ape da. nk balik uma cpt je. And nasib baik la sorang budak umah ni x tido agi..so die tlg bukak pintu. Alhamdulillah. anyway yg penting aku slmt smpai kan? sbb ramai syg aku ni..haha.

kononnye balik 2 hari awal dr tarikh paper sbb nk pulun abes, mmg aku pulun abis, tp pulun tidoq. ape nk jadi wahai Mamaliza!

aku sikit kecewe ngn diri sendiri. tp cmne aku nk overcome perasaan malas yang berlipat2 kali ganda kuat dr kerajinan aku tu? arghh!

so ape aku buat untuk hilangkan tension? aku tidoq~ smlm dr smpai uma  kul 5AM tu, aku bantai tidoq smpai 5PM. biase je tuu. aku penah je tido almost 24 jam k. xyah makan tayah pe, tido je da cukup. haha, bezenye, tido sini tade sape nk larang *mama abah*, kua2 bilik, budak umah tanye, ko pengsan ke? hahaha. tersipu2 di situ.

aku skit happy sbb tadi tgk carrymark. yg penting carrymark eco je. sbb eco aku teruk sesangat2. but Alhamdulillah, luckily eco aku turn out surpisingly okay! so aku rase skit bsemangat nk pulun. smgt ke? padahal mate da nantok ni. Arau panas sgt la mama…otak cair taleh berfungsi…

badan rase x sihatt.

anyway. latest news, maybe aku x jadi pindah, sbb Allie mcm ade hal ngn budak rumah, and die pun nk pindah tempat lain. haisehh. mcm susah2 plak kan, so rasenye aku just stay umah ni kot. rumah ni okay jee. lagipun lagi satu sem je kan.. so yeah. most probably aku x jadi pindah.

harap2 decision aku btul.

tak saba sgt nk cuti. lagi 2 minggu je. 2 minggu tu mcm sehari je sbenanye. memandangkan aku leh tido almost 2 hari. hahaha. aku x saba nk start business balik. tp rasenye mmg kene register SSM dulu. just in case kan. malas la jumpe ngn customer kuangsam mcm tu lagi. really pissin me off.

anyway. maybe aku patut pertimbangkan bawak lagi satu kipas. sbb sini terlalu panass. emm.

Dear Allah, please look after Mama and Abah while Im not around. Give them strengths, determination and patience for whatever ahead of us. May we stick together as long as we can, cos You know it, I couldn’t do anything without them. Amin..

harap2nye kami sume lulus cemerlang exam ni. aku malas cite panjng sgt, sbb aku gap utk 1st paper which is tomorrow, and the next paper, just one day. so probably aku  x on9 pasni k! so bubbye~

take care ~

Hey everyone!

wasn’t feeling that well since yesterday. Woke up with terrible sore throat and body ache! Not complaining that my TOTO wasn’t thick enough. really. at least I have something to sleep on. Not just plain cool cemented floor. Alhamdulillah. Neway, this is my first fever in Arau. hehe

I really am missing my bestfriend. you know who you are. Been thinking bout how close we were before, but suddenly. Everything changed. Im not sure what went wrong. But clearly must be something to do with me la. Haih. I really tried to work things out. How?? well, kadang2 aku text dia, ckp good luck for upcoming test and all. tp die reply cold gila. pretty sad! Mcm tanak layan. but lepas tu he left me an offline messages, tanya what’s up with me lately, bla bla bla. MACAM hes interested. But I could not really tell. Well. What I COULD tell is just, I miss him. Really. as friend of course. He’s a great person and I was stupid not to hold on to the relationship that we used to have.

and I kinda miss my old beffyy Atika Azumi. Had to blocked her too. With heavy heart. Hopefully she understands why.

I might be saying that, IM CURED NOW. but well, who am I fooling? that’s one huge scar that he left me with. but Im not that sorry, because Ive been convincing myself that I have made the best decision. Its okay. I believe in FATE.

Today is the last class for Performance Management, gonna miss Sir Fazly, and hopefully xyah attend his class for the next sem! heheh.

Then borrowed Tia’s car, and went to the Kedai Borong Dinnh, really famous in Arau sebab ade jual hanger rm0.90 seikat. That was insane! so now aku dah banyak hanger dlm bilik. PUAS! sume bende pun nk gantung. haha.

tadi gi kt kedai jual bebear*gedik2 skit* kt Kangar. sedey sgt.. sbb tringat Umpa. Why am I so demm stupid for giving him up?! argh. rindu bau Umpa.. then tjumpe bebear harge RM149, tapi sumpah besa gile! like BESAR BESARR. HUGE, ENORMOUS! really!!!. mcm nak sgt2 beli, siap call mama suh bank in duit.. mama kate jgn nk ngade2 miintak mende pelik2. …sob2….

so tepakse la menahan hati ni.. siap tsrempak couple tgh plih bearr.untung la awek die! haha.

ok. x larat. later peeps. headache!

I love clothes. All of them. especially those in black or grey or dirt brown. and baju sume da sampai! Im quite surprise, harini sumeeee sampai. from 3 different suppliers punye barang. and so glad. and luckily the guy customer yg macam garang tu mcm x mara barang dy sampai lambat. well, 1st, bag die preorder, so aku assume die taw la mende tu bukan dpt cpt. yg penting aku da siap bungkus. siap bagi freegift utk sdapkan ati dy *free gift tu pun ak dpt free dr kenduri kawen. haha*

kt uma ni da byk sgt free mugs, Mama ley bukak kedai kot..

Mama warn me that nt da start study xyah nk bebisnes2. ye okay ma. I get it… zzzzzz

pastu die asek komplen pasal my weight. arghh. tensyen. time aku kurus dulu tanak makan die mara. gemok pun mara. haha. its either ur FAT or THIN. tade sedang2 k. hahaha. life’s so cruel >.<

soo now im adding 6packs to my things to do before i die list. haha.

tomorrow, aku igt nk gi anta beg the guy, pastu gi wat maybank2u ngn ATM card, pastu maybe pack my things for Arau.

hmm. Im kinda excited to start new sem actually tp ntah la.. mcm a so-so feeling. ah. gotta go tu TAR and beli tudung! I need those plain tudung, brown, purple and blue. aku byk sgt color merah and hitam of course. pape barang pun, color hitam mesti ade. haha.

and I need new eyeliner. penting k.

and gotta get new printer. haih.. if only I have all the money in the world.

i have to keep all the receipts. as a reminder brape byk Mama and Abah spent for me. Sabtu ni abah maybe nk gi visit umah sewe kt Arau tu. I dun wanna go yet :[ tp tataw la. mama macam insist. waaa. nk jmpe Isa…

kadang2 aku rase mcm nk stop je. but then. my passion for clothes. haha. hati berdebar2 tgk all the baju and rase mcm nk nangis. like nape baju tu cantik sgt!!!! warghhh. I CAN NEVER STOP! SOOOOOO, tpakse lah aku meneruskannye. zzz.

okay. i gotta go do some updating on Lolly’s. Buhhbyee!

omg,. that was freaking memalukan.

okay. got this call from this uncle, he’s a police dude and tanye ape ntah. aku mcm mamai2 mase tu. tanye pasal the police report I made. then, kul bape ntah, ade lady cop plak call suh datang. wanted to call Shaggy to teman. tp mcm tade mase dah. So i went to the police station at P11 and meet them.

So sesi interrogation bjalan. and guess what. lepas kene tanye btubi2. aku tibe2 nanges.

i know im innocent and that I didnt lie. tapi..

HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAA. no explanation on that crying part.

and now aku rase mcm tanak idup da. that was freaking memalukan.

so, THATS why the lady cop been giving me that suspicious look. and aku dtg dgn hati riangnye and mcm wondering jugak nape case aku x tutup2 lagi.*gosh, i take everything mcm so easy*

and lepas gi balai tadi baru mcm terpukul and mcm baru ade common sense dlm otak aku ni. dorang bebel2, and then aku baru mcm sedar how much trouble Im in.

and mcm baru sedar betape suci and naive nye aku ni.. tak terpk lansong they would terpk yg aku wat report palsu sbb nk elak bayar dende. :| kamon. baru smlm lepas wat IC tu aku taw kalau ade report police, IC xyah bayar dende okay. and aku tataw nape aku nangis. which makes everything worst. sbb urat otak aku mcm tputus and aku mcm cakap belit2. lagi la dorang x caye ckp aku. :[

tp aku cube tenang and cite sjujur2nye. aku tataw la dorang caye ke ape. tp aku tlepas la. cume die kate, next time jgn wat lagi. and dorang ckp teruk gile kalau dpt taw aku wat report palsu. patut laaaaaaa byk polis call aku. zzz

okay aku dah pandang rendah kt dorang. maybe dorang bukan goyang kaki je kt pjabat. haha *jk*

and aku wat lawak bodo plak mase polis tu call pagi2 bute tadi. teringat balik, wat aku rase 100 kali tanak hidup. mygod. i keep saying the wrong things, make the wrong jokes at a definitely wrong wrong time.

……………

nasib baik pakcik polis tu mcm sgt sgt reasonable, and die mcm paham aku ni mcm tataw pape. well its kinda obvious yg aku blur gile and wat muke x bsalah padahal dorang da syak aku mnipu lame da. zzzzzzzzz

not the best feeling you know. like ppl dont even know you yet dah judge macam2.

menggeletar aku duk situ. and it shows. sbb mase die bagi aku ketas, ketas tu like goyang2. so terrible! hahahaha.

okay aku takkan pergi balai polis lagi. and okay aku akan simpan baik2 IC ni mcm nyawe aku.

walau sesuci mane pun korang, try avoid pegi balai wat report pasal IC hilang k! sbb kesucian korang bleh tgugat lepas da masuk. bile kua, aku rse mcm aku bukan lagi the same Maliza yg happy and bubbly. hahaha. tetibe rase lame and useless.

At one point aku rase mcm I can do everything by myself. and aku sgt yakin aku sorang yg jujur. which mmg la aku jujur. tp aku mcm baru tersedar. padah MULUT ORG ni. bkn ape. org baik mane pun bleh teranaye sbb pembawakan mulut org. Ya Allah. smoge aku dijauhkan dr org2 mcm tu…

and its very very very very very so very obvious I cant live alone without mama and abah next to me. :’[

takutnye.. aku kene ready awl. not that Im asking dorang utk pergi. tapi I have to face that fact yg they’re not getting younger and that I will have to live alone someday. and betape ramai nye org yg tak ikhlas and ade niat jht kt sekeliling kite. hmmm

oh harini sgt sgt tragic bagi aku. tp yg penting. baju aku dah sampai. baju yg supplier lame gile tu. haha. tp at least duit aku x kene tipu and aku puas ati!

baju lalat pun da smpai, and now tgh tunggu bag. haih..aku nk gi post cpt ni.

and gosh. i want the eyeshadow palette so bad . waaaa.

and i need new tudung. hmm. harap2 minggu ni abah x jadi balik kg. pls pls. aku nk gi beli tudung kt tar. bleh jumpe Isa. hihihihi

*muke gatal*

so tinggal amek IC baru, CORRECT THINGS, pastu gi wat maybank2u online and ATM card and pegi try settle BIMB. hmm.

today is gonna be one of the most happiest one. Thank you Allah. Alhamdulillah. aku terselamat dr spend RM100 for new IC. hehe.

So it started off around 1.30PM? er, maybe lagi lambat sikit. hehe. Neway since last Friday aku mcm da booking Shaggy to teman me. Harini plan pegi Balai Polis to file a report bout my missing IC and then pergi JPN, Putrajaya to make new one. LOL LOL.

Tghari tadi x panas sangat. mendung je. the best weather selain hujan is mendung. sbb aku mmg sentiase ke arah kesejukan bebanding kepanasan :|

god. maliza focus! okay this is gonna be like quick update cos i plan to sleep early and its already 2.34AM.

zzzz.

okay. so off we went to Balai.kejap je buat report. and its my 1st time. so mcm agak nervous. hahaha. Customer service kt guard post entrance tu, excellent. tp kt balai itself tempat aku wat report tu. zzzzz. the lady cop macam … i dunno. x friendly. ah x kesah la. janji report aku da lepas. hihi.

then then, around 2.30PM kot?? park kt blakang JPN, and jalan kaki, and aku mcm tekejut and mule lemah smgt sbb tgk ramai gile org. turn out my angke giliran is 556. and aku kene tunggu like lagi sratus org?? zzz. okay tp lepas sembang2 and gelak2 mcm 2 makhluk ape ntah ngn shaggy, mase belalu bgitu pantas. haha. camtu la bile hati senang kan kan.

taw2 je lagi 2 org nk smpai kt number aku. nape ntah. aku tibe2 nervous. bak kate shaggy. kalau aku nervous logic la gak. die pun nervous skali tunggu number, i was like. waddehel! hahaha. okay shaggy ko mmg klaka.

pastu aku seret die gi kaunter. which aku rase kaunter tu da macam akunye sbb kitorang spend lame gak time kt situ bebanding org lain. :|

that friendly dude kt kaunter tnye if im still studying. and isi2 borang sikit, pastu mcm bos die ade kt situ kot. so die mcm ckp ape ntah. n bos dy cakap ngn aku. and tibe2 aku dpt taw aku xyah baya lansung utk my new IC tu, tp just kene smpan the police report betul2. die cite ape MUSIBAHnye kalau aku x simpan and he told me what might happen in the future. OMGGG. scary gile. please please harap2 bende tu x jadi kt aku.

die ckp org boleh beli rumah banglo, beli kete 10 bijik, mintak loan kt bank bjuta2, just by using my IC. *okay aku yg tambah statistik tu utk wat cite lagi mnarik*

so disebabkan aku sgt mengenali diriku yg sgt lah clumsy and cemerkap and takkan igt kt mane aku simpan barang penting. balik uma tadi aku cite kt mama everything *and mcm biase, mama dgn high-pitched note die tu, membebel sikitt, but then die nampak relieved sbb aku da setelkan sume mende*. yes! aku da besa k. even aku still mengharapkan org teman, *thanks shaggy!!*, kalau tpakse, aku ble je gi sorang. saje kan nk manje2 ngn shaggy. hahaha

andd so, mama simpankan report tu. simpan baik2 k ma. tu mase depan liz!

okay. lepas tu Shaggy da komplen2 lapa. zz. ktorang gi BK. ntah camne. tibe2 ktorang dpt 3 burger. hahaha. omg. seriously. petang harini rase mcm kejap je mase bjalan. i mean, everything macam tjadi cepat je. *tu tande2 nk dekat kiamat ye*

so abeskan burger, try gi Secret Recipe sbb dah lame bniat nk belikan Abah that Lamb Pie. tapi smpai harini x termakbul2 lagi. turn out SR kt Alamanda tutup. kinda weird. so ktorang headed to Presint Diplomatik tu sbb kt sane ade SR gak. tp tutup gak. and nasib baik la blakang tu ade like taman bukit2 lawa taw. so kitorang photoshoot kt sane. mule2 bdue je. pastu call Syahmi and Wanie dtg. well, i dont really expect mcm they both akan datang mule2. sbb it was mcm sudden and time tu pun da nk maghrib kan. thanks so much for ur time guys! especially SyahmiSuhaimi sbb tlg amekkan gmba kami.. die mcm xbrape cerie arini sbb baru baik demam.

so aku amek gmba, panjat2 bukit smpai bepeluh tpancut2 mcm ape ntah dlm baju. god.

so balik lah kami. mmg time tu pun baru Maghrib rasenye. oh! lupe lak. mase kitorang baru smpai BK Alamanda, aku dpt call, tapi nk call balik taleh sbb poor reception kt BK tu. mcm dlm utan.. zzz.

then dpt msg from my bag courier ckp nk anta barang. tp mase aku dpt call, die da odw gi KL da.. waa. sedey. tkilan sikit. tp besok pagi die kate die akan dtg lagi. emm, tapelah. aku yakin ade hikmah utk setiap kebetulan and kejadian.

Syukur gile2 aku save like RM150 harini. tu pasal gi makan besa pastu. haha.

no no. this is for my saving. tibe2 aku mcm nk sgt sgt sgt beli 120 eyeshadow pallete. ntah camne smlm tjumpe this one business page kt FB. and aku trus nk beli. demm!! you know, im that kind yg kalau aku bkenan, x kesa la ape, aku mesti nak and dptkan gak. despite the fact, aku mungkin akan bosan dgn bende tu lepas 2 kali gune or sumting. gosh. that one kene change ok maliza.

MAYBE aku akan beli. tp kalau nk beli. I wanna have that fox brushes also.*okay dah dtg da tamak dy* sooooo. skang tade budget for that lagi. sbb byk sgt bende nk beli utk masuk study ni. so just incase la kan.

okay. hopefully tomorrow is gonna be a better day for everyone. Im off to bed. nytee!

one of my Criminal Minds’  fav quote;

Sometimes, the best is not enough. But that doesn’t mean that you have to give anything less.

SO FRIGGINN TRUEE. ok goodnight :]

Sebelum tu, these are some of the photos that we took today,

hey i kinda like how my shawl looks like from behind!

Datin the Moy.

LOL! we look so retarded!

they make me panjat alone.

with Shazwani the Lawyer Lady. hehe

the Abg Kacak! thanks thanks !!

*the resized picture taleh upload kt FB. maybe too small? i dunno :|*

hey everyone. harini tarikh keramat sbb selain dpt result secare rasminye. harini gak tarikh buat kali pertame dlm hidup, aku kene saman.

haih.. I dont really wanna talk bout how it happened. yg penting IC aku pun hilang skali along the way.

and aku pun malas cite pe aku wat harini. because hati aku tgh terlampau remuk and berkecai2 mengenangkan duit aku rm250 bakal hilang dr akaun…

aku bleh beli 10 baju online kot…

I kinda miss my old bestfriends, tapi I decided not to give much thoughts bout them cos I know how things gonna end up. and my sensitive fragile heart just couldnt take anymore sadness or pain right now. Ill deal with that later kay.

Harini aku nk brazam utk x spend duit dah *YAAAAAAAAAAAA RITEEEEEEEE*. lepas kene saman, ak rase tkilan gile. ade byk bende aku nk wat ngn saving tu. mmg la its kinda mcm bonus sbb mama x mintak duit tu..tapi still.. Ive been wanting that new printer for so long. it’ll come really handy lagi2 bile nk masuk blaja ni.. da la aku taw Abah gonna need lots of money kalau nk repair the car so that aku bleh bawak gi Arau. and OF COURSE la aku takkan btaw mama abah pasal aku kene saman ni. aku gi setel sindri maybe slase ni. sbb Isnin im gonna be quite busy.

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sume mende aku wat x kene arini.

i guess the only thing yg ceriekan hati aku arini is Nandos :|

and I miss sore meme :[

meme i need youu…

byebye…...

I tink im gonna be quite emo for quite sometime. saba k

hey hope everyones doing fine and welllfed~ haha.

em. Still couldnt sleep. So semalam Anis dtg rumah tido sini. Kelmarin rehearsal utk convo. ntah la. not so much preparation actually. Im not even that excited macam org lain. Im not sure why. Maybe because I dont really feel happy macam tu. Oh god Im so desperate and lonely! LOL! Well at least Mama and Abah are still healthy and they’re always there for me..

Em. pasal Dslr. maybe I have to put that desire aside for a while.. I dont really have the money to get THE ONE that Ive been wanting. well, dulu aku tade la check2 price die ke ape because aku taw la mahal, and tanak macam nanti harge die wat aku ilang smgt nk kumpul. And even skang pun. Aku rase aku takkan mampu nak beli lansung. maybe bukan dlm 10 tahun pertame ni. wahahhaa.maybe it wasnt meant for me at all. or maybe someday je kot :]

So Im just gonna keep the money. maybe utk bile2 emergency in the future. or bile tibe2 aku rase nk gi bcuti kt Sri Lanka or sumting.

AH! Ive met my longggggggggggglostttttttchildhoooooooodbestie!! Afiqah Zahidi! Omg. shes so freakin talll and prettyyyy. I miss her. okay sbenanye pretty mcm kalut2 skit time jumpe tu but I really hope the next time things went well! haha. we hugged like lama jugak and she muah2 me. hahaha. oh my. Kasih syg trus masuk dlm my veins. haha.

There are people in my humble and so not interesting life that I wanted to meet again someday but I just never does tapi the people that Id rather die than meeting? mesti salu je tsrempak kt mane2 dgn senang gile babai. and the more that I wanted certain people to stay in my life, the things yg dorang buat is alwayssss leave. Haha. lifes just cruel sometimes but thats okay. Life couldnt kill me. cos I died few times already. hmmmm

The last time I meet Najat, she said someones been texting her asking bout me. and shes like. HA. Remy been asking bout you. i was like.

Remy who? :| and tgk number tu mmg familiar. well yeah. aku sorang yg pelupe. but utk org yg aku penah sakitkan hati die, org sinned towards them, I wont forget their names. so yeah. I never kenal anyone with the name Remy. but my heart keep telling that its Nuar. Just like weekss ago aku mcm tertanye2 die watpela skang sume. of course aku takkan kcau idup die lagi. after all the things Ive done to him. men. gotta have guts to show up balik dlm hidup die.. and Najat buat bende btul by x layan and wat2 x kenal sape maliza. hahaha. nice one naguto! u bab2 wat2 x kenal i mmg terer :P jk.

okay. pastu since Im like eager myself nk taw skit2 pasal cmne idup die skang. well kalau sape2 taw ape aku penah wat kt die, mesti paham kot nape aku still kesah.. of course aku kesah. ktorang kawan lame kot. like almost same lame ngn the relationship I had with that person the name I refuse to mention. and he neverrrrrrrrrrrr take advantage kt aku bile2 pun. hes like. the real man kot. just too bad, hes more like a protector to me. like abang you know? and that wouldnt change.

So aku nyama jadi another bestfriend of maliza. *oh aku sedang melibatkan diri dgn drama*, and ckp najat cite pasal the text messages and that aku just cautious nak taw nape die tnye sal maliza sume. korek korek korek. so Nuar ckp die still nk kawan ngn MALIZA tu kalau bleh. mesti la x. demm nuar. I couldnt forgive myself if I ever hurt you again. So better macam ni je. so aku*yg nyama jadi bestfriend maliza tu* cakap kt die yg baik xyah kawan kot sbb maliza dah nk tunang pas die abes study.

i was like. WATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT am i doing! okay sgt ketare yg aku sgt bosan kt umah and got nothing better to do. :| and so he said. okay kalau camtu die tade pape nk ckp. harap aku happy ngn hidup aku. and babai.

:|

I really hope he finds someone yg btul2 ikhlas ngn die. and xkn sakitkan ati dy. hes really a nice guy. yep! i think im pretty lucky jugak sbb even ade la like few dumbasses yg aku jumpe, ade sikit2 tu yg memang bleh diharap and baikkkk gilerrr. just too bad. I dont deserve good guys. :|

still couldnt make up my mind what I want with who.

it touches me, like tgk the boyfriend dtg kt konvo the girlfriend, took pictures together, amek gmba with family dorang. tgk macam dorang tu dah mmg macam satu family pun, and the boyfriend sit next to the girlfriend, looking lebey2 lak excited than the girlfriend *which is cute gila* and tgk the girlfriend faces sbb dpt bunge and teddy bear..macam comel gile. yeah Im pretty jealous…

as happy as I am pun sbb Alhamdulillah. macam2 drama time kt college, tp sume tu bjaye dilalui same2 ngn member2 lain an.. cume this feeling.. not the feeling I expected I would feel..

Well, ksimpulannye, aku just harap everything went well with the event.. InsyaAllah.

and bile ntah. tgk cite the Buried Life. generally pasal a group of friends yg travel across Europe?? kot. sbb nk laksanekan sume to do things before they die. dorang like ade this list, and dorang try utk buat sume yg ade dlm list tu, at the same time, help people along the journey. bestnye jadi mcm tu.. So aku pun mcm inspired gile nk buat jugak my own to do things before I die and maybe ade beberape je buat mase ni, but Ill keep adding :] and let see brape yg aku mampu*or sempat buat. haha.

found my old diaries. HAHAH. x bace sume. bace sikit2. tp malu sgt dgn gaye penulisan bm aku tu. so aku mcm tanak bace and tanak igt. wahahahah!!

06.02.03

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okay goodnight!!

Tuesday Morning.

Naguto kejut around 630AM? okay. sbenanye die kejut lagi awal. tp time tu aku baru like 2 jam tido and halfway lene. and mcm dengar x dengar je the phone rings.Tp luckily aku tsedar! terus gi mandi. around 730AM kuar dr uma. and smpai UiTM Shah Alam at 8.40AM? LOL. my first time masuk sane. demm patut amek gamba! pastu tgk org konvo. rase mcm happy sgt! I dunno why. Kete kene park like jauh gile and then kene naik bas gi Business Fac. which is seblah Law Fac? and tibe2 tringat wani. hehe. and naik bas ngn sume mak bapak org which muke sume happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy je. ntah. I just feel good and mcm abit contemplated. Especially bile tgh the faces of their moms and dads. yeah. true what they say. precious!!

Harap2 everything went well with all my friends yg tgh mengharung konvo or da dpt scroll. Congrats!!

Aku tibe2 dpt idea, why nott Lalat ikut aku gi konvo? Gosh. Die kene gak ade gmba konvo no matter what. Tu mcm sekali seumur hidup! mesti kene ade! So aku ckp, you can borrow my jubah. pretend like ur in Dungun ke ape. or just pegi kt studio. x kesah la. then maybe aku borrow jubah sape2, and amek gmba same2! LOL! aku dpt rasekan tat day is gonna be fun !

and problem solved! sbbnye, budak business punye convo’s date mcm paling last skali. and probably yg lain bleh dtg? haha. sape2 yg sudi laa. Its gonna be antare hari bermakne yg aku dah x kongsi ngn sape2. but I tink aku dah halfway over it sbb aku bejaye lalui  my 1st birthday sorang je. and it wasnt that bad. hey aku patut bersyukur still dpt bgn pagi2 *or tgari* ari2 tu. part of me mcm rase, maybe its better macam ni, I mean, lagi less someone tu involved dlm hidup aku, the better. but bukan utk friends la kay! I love all my friends!

maybe ade some yg ade certain habit yg taleh change and it just drives u nuttsss at times kan. tp sape je yg perfect? next time, maybe you might want to remember dorangnye kebaikan, or kelebihan rather than pinpointing dekat flawless. mane ade org yg tade flaws..

well overall. aku happy harini. sbb aku rase mcm aku x menghampe kan sape2. *well i tried not to let anyone down* tp sorry x dpt jumpe wani mlm tadi…

Afternoon.

berdasarkan ape yg Najat cite, die mcm satisfied and happy pasal interview tu. aku rase die mesti dpatnye! hehe. kap khron kapp la pasni naguto! and Im happy that I was there. kalau x ntah bile nk jumpe die? like this cuti sem baru skali tu la jumpe die!

oh and thanks for that BigMac! hehe. aku sbenanye nantok gile2, pakai lense, pastu mate dah brair2. badddd combination. haha tp what to do. i hate wearing glasses! so sanggup smpai mate pedih2 pakai lense sbb tanak pakai spek. pastu pening2. lege smpai umah tgari tu. Balik trus mandi sbb it was prettyyy hot harini. and then terus tido!!

Evening.

I cant remember aku bgn kul bape. oh. maybe around 530PM?? sbb Kiki text. and sbb aku mcm terjage sbb denga bunyi hujan kt luar. Sejuk~ best tido! mcm tanak bgn tadi because aku tido like sooo damn lene. haha. tp teringat janji nk aja die bawak kete. so aku kuatkan kudrat aku. hahahahaa. kul 6 something baru aku kua and da smpai kt uma die. nk try jumpstart. tp guess what? I left the car key dlm kete. sempat amek the jumper*lalat called it-tp aku x igt ape org panggil. oh! aku rase tu cable. bukan jumper. :|

die byk tgk movie ni… okay!! sooooo, aku mcm. DEM!! rase dissapointed ngn diri aku. because I kinda know how important today is – aja die bawak kete, because he wanted it like so bad jugak. sbb hes someone with plans. solid plans. and die kate kene reti bawak kete before pegi Melake sbb sambung study. so.. I was like. man. I dont want to be the person yg ruin kan sume tu. so call la lalat. and she came to the rescue!!thank god! lepas magrib, mama dtg uma lalat anta kunci kete spare, and ktorang gi pasa malam dulu. dinner aku is paru sambal 2 batang. then pegi Alamanda sbb Kiki nk beli pasir kucing dy. then aku beli Lemonade *tibe2 mcm dah jadi favorite*, then ktorang pegi kt P11, tempat bukit org gi jogging. situ x byk kete lalu.  so prektis la kt bukit tu sbb rasenye Kiki da reti bawak kete kalau kt jalan. cume gotta polish sikit dekat bukit. hehehe.  At first mcm time aku dulu. nervous and mcm lame gile baru nk paham camne nk balance clutch ngn minyak. but rasenye die dah paham. just kene prektis lagi few times, mesti okay. I have faith in you!

oh! dah like bape minit kt sane practicing. Ade 2 guards tibe2 dtg ke kete and ktorang mcm. hmmmmmmmmm. taleh duk sini ke? haha. rupe2nye guard tu igt ktorang wat pape x snonoh. and better!!!, lalat kenal plak sala sorang guard tu, sbb guard tu dulu keje cashier. haha. untung laa lalat cable besaa. so die pun, oo tape la. then ktorang pun sambung la bawak kete. pk2 balik. thank god aku bukan like berdue je. x pasal2. org mesti xkn caye pun kan even mmg x wat pape.

Then pegi mapley sbb Abg lalat kirim roticanai, then ktorang lepak2 jap. tserempak Wanie ngn Epa. hahaha. pastu tegur2 jap. pastu gi kt kete aku yg tdampar kt uma Kiki. pastu try jumpstart. Abah mesti proud. sbb aku bjaye jumpstartkan kete. ehhehehe. around kul 11.30PM baru aku sampai umah.

lapa gile. pas mandi aku trus geledah dapo. cnfirm la tade beli pape makanan utk aku even mama kua tadi. sbb dorang expect aku da makan. nasib baik ade Maggie. hmmm. tpakse mkn meggie. tu je ade…

oh thanks Kiki banje kopi O ais! tadi x lapa lak mase kt mapley.

I notice dat my hair makin teruk plak condition dy. hmm. nk gi wat treatment ke? aku rase akan lagi rosak kalau tibe2 aku stop doing the treatment. kene find other ways. but good thing is my scar makin hilang :] ade sikit lagi. but Its gonna hilang bile aku da nk masuk study kot. hehe. oh nervous tibe2 pasal result. hmm.

moving on!!

besok SyahmiSuhaimi aka abg kacak nk konvo dah. Congrats!!

maybe aku x dpt nk pegi sane tgk die. pagi busy gi gym ngn lalat and epa and tgari maybe aku busy bedengkur kt uma. hehe. so yeah. dats all for today. I had a gooddd time :]

later peeps!

hey everyone! haha. ok my 2 days in PD been OKAY.I had tinyyy bitt of fun la jugak even we (me, abah and mama) don’t  really participate in any of the sports event. HAHAHAHA!

mama lagi pandai ngelat dr aku rupenye…we gave our names for the Balingan Kasih? eh. dat doesnt sounds right. em. Jalinan Kasih? lambungan Kasih? or something. ala. game yg mule2 baling telur antare 2 person dekat2. makin lame makin jauh. couple yg still dpt tngkap the eggs menang. haha. tgk2 ramai gile join,  and sume org yg join tu husband and wife. so aku ngn mama pun mcm segan kot nk masok. so ktorang wat2 busy main game kt pantai. hahahaha.

Its my first time main the so called banana boat. or pencil boat? sbb die x mcm banana dis one. haha. oh gmba ade kt mama. and I dont think will upload them sbb trust me. u dun want to see them k! haha. dtang2 acare, mekap tebal kott, dah tgari, da cair, pastu da masuk air, kua air tudung aku da senget2. hahahahaha. ok aku  mmg nampak mcm org gile terencat yg main air but who cares?! I had fun with Abah! haha. mama not the type yg suke mende2 cam tu. like bpusing2 dlm air and kene jatuh dlm laut. haha. mama ckp die takut air. and aku baru taw! aku takut gak. takut jaws :| but heck. Abah mcm excited sgt. because we both spend time with each other kan. I had fun. and thats one of the memories yg I will treasure. well nampak mcm family trip yg biase jee. tp meant something to me. because its been like yearsssssssssss we didnt go for trip mcm tu..

well. my family bukan like kaye. we dont have money kalau nk pegi vacation even stiap sem break. and mama jenis kumpul cuti for extra2 emergency cases. so she definitely takkan amik cuti just untuk trip2 mcm ni.. plus they’re both too busy kerja. mane ade mase..so x pelik la kot. lol.

oh. dem ! aku igt nk cite ikut chronology. hahaha. terlalut2 lak. okay tape. so lets start dr Saturday!

Saturday – 27th November 2010

I didnt get much sleep last nite. spent the whole morning til subuh online je sbb takut tade mase nk online bile smpai kt PD. nanti rindu!! Mama kejut kul 10AM suh kemas2 beg sume. and I had terrible headache! hm.. makin kerap lately.. nk kate stress. ape sgt je aku wat?

and kedit dah abis. taleh nk msg sape2 pun. dem bored. butt then I decided that maybe aku patut bawak lappy sbb mase check email, ade customer nk order barang. which gets me so excited. so aku rase penting ni. mesti kene bawak lappy. So ktorang bertolak around noon. and arrive dah late petang. Bukan lame sgt pun nk smpai PD tu kan. Neway, we stayed in the Regency Hotel? biase jee. yg penting ktorang dpt bilik besaaa gile. die mcm bilik, tp dlm die mcm rumah. ade 2 tingkat. 2 bilik kt ats, 2 blik kt bawah. sbenanye kitorang patut duduk 4 families, tapi lagi 2 x dtg and dah bayar. so ktorang nk duk sorang sblik pun bleh! haha.

My aunt mcm hilang akal kejap. die x biase umah besa2. dlm uma tu pun leh sesat. beg letak tmpt lain, die masuk blik org lain cari beg die. :| pastu toilet ade kt dlm sume blik, tp mlm2 die gi turun bawah sbb cari toilet.. ok malas cite sal die. spoil mood. Now aku dah taw reason sebenar nape sdare2 lain tanak jage die. LOL. and sorry to say, mende yg aku taw tu, membuatkan aku lagi hilang hormat kt die.

anyway!!smpai kt sane. tade plug. dem! so mase Abah gi bandar to get a hair cut. kirim kt Abah extension. pastu Abah balik, dgn segere aku online and settle sume payment kt supplier and yadayadaa. so just tinggal barang sampai :]

ouh I so cant wait for PC Fair! nk beli external andd new printer.

Malam tu dinner kt tepi pantai. I love the smell of the air masin and the sound of ombak.. sejuk sikit hati… just too bad x dpt bawak future DSLR tu skali.. so mcm tade mood nk ambek2 gmba pun.. plus sbb aku gain weight mendadak sgt, aku sindri dah mcm tade smgt nk amek gmba cos I dont feel pretty. hahahaaha.

Sunday – 28th November 2010

Even start at 7AM. tp ktorang pegi breakfast mase pukul 8.30AM dah kot. haha. ala, awal2 tu start dgn game budak dulu.. demm aku suke sgt tgk laki yg like dukung anak, and then tgk muke dorang mase anak dorang lari2 mase game smbil like jerit2 bagi support. haha. Pastu time ptandingan melukis. si bapak yg lebey2 smgt kale2 dr anak die. padahal ley tlg skit2 je. hahahaha. sonok tgk family org :]

and dulu2 penah rase like, I hate my parent because they never understand me. but luckily aku x de la wat mende extreme macam lari dr umah even aku dah penah try buat. and aku endup duk depan pintu the whole nite. brthan 30min je. pastu masuk umah sbb lapa. hahahahahaha! but … I tink Im pretty lucky.. than those yg dah hilang family members. Like, camne aku nk truskan idup without Mama and Abah with me? God.. I cant imagine.. Please please. make mama and abah live forever with me..

oh suke selitkan emo kt mende2 kecik. hahaha. sorry!

anyway. moving onnn! so dah nk dekat tgari tu la aku naik PENCIL BOAT and the other one maybe SOFA BOAT? dunno what its called, tp die bentuk bulat and mcm kerusi sofa. gosh bile die pusing2 tu. haha. thrillllingg!! and yeah. lagi extreme sikit dr banana boat. demm rase tkilan sgt tade gmba :[

oh!! I have awesome news!! Lepas bincang ngn mama and abah. hehehehe. they say they would tlg bayarkan half duit DSLR nanti. yay!!!!!! Im soooooooooo freakinggggggg excited. and dah suh Anees quotekan price DSLR utk aku. so aku da bagi mcm few models kt die. harap2 within budget… *Anees kate bos die leh beli DSLR murah sbb terus beli direct kt dealer, sbb tu aku mcm kirim kt dy

And da lepas penat , kitorang pack2 barang and terus balik! Mama dpt adiah cabutan bertuah, dpt shelf kt dinding yg aku nak sgt2. hehe. x saba nk letak kt blik baru!

Smpai umah around 5PM. and Lalat call few times, ajak kua. So we went to Alamanda, aku dah kate tanak makan. and stiap kali aku ckp cmtu aku taw aku akan beli Chocolate Dip *coklet die like byk gile. smpai menitis2! and guess wat. aku beli 2!!!!!!!!!!! arghhhh. and mesti beli ngn lemonade. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

so arini extremely ramai org. kamon la. ape yg best sgt Alamanda tu? and I hate walking among with the huge crowd. macam rimas. jalan pun sempit. and dahla ade org tu suke duk tgh2 jalan bersembang wat meeting. demm. so si Lalat makan LengCheeKang and Effa beli Cendol yg die mengidam sgt. tp sedap gak cendol tu.

So makan la kitorang kt meje tinggi tepi escalator nk gi GSC tu smbil tgk2 muke org lalu lalang and berangan. haha. so dah bosan kitorang balik aa!

:| camtu je spend mase. tak sihat lansung!!

anyway. nk cover balik 2coklet aku makan tadi. Petang ni InsyaAllah aku akan gi jogging ngn Lat. JOGINGG KEEE??? tp tataw la cmne kan. tgk keadaan. hehehe

Anyway. to my special friend; Farhaneez Ghaffar. Congrats babe!! die dpt UiTM Sri Iskandar rasnye. course Business Eco? hhehe. untung laa nanti jadi marketing assistant/accountant aku k!

and my close facebook friend, Inang Majmin. Harap2 your mom and your grandmom cepat sembuh.. and Sorry to hear bout your Atuk.. Semoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg beriman..Amin..

PS/ hm! Maybe I gotta do some updating on my TO-DO-LIST and wishlist.

harini bgn lambat even smlm tido mcm lame gile. even kt kampung, aku leh layan tido kt couch depan tmpt org lalu lalang smpai 5/6 jam. Tak tolong sape2 masak. haha. Abah suh drive but aku tpakse tolak sbb aku mmg x cukup tido the night before. Time nk lene je mama kejut suh Subuh and pack2 barang. arrrrgggh. and aku headache and mama x bawak minyak cekapak *minyak angin turun tmurun*

minyak tu aku kene bawak gi mane2 lagi2 kalau nk balik kg. sbb aku pening bile dlm kete. I dunno why. Gi KL ok je. hahaha

So aku rase its normal I have this MALAS feeling of nk bergaul mesre dgn sedare mare. Generasi Y (kot?) mcm kite mmg da hilang skit that sense of pentingkan sillaturrahim ngn sedare mare. Kecuali la dari kecik mmg da dididik mcm tu. In my case. Abah jenis mcm tu, tp aku mcm reluctant to ikut the perangai. HAHA

I dont like to remember names, like hafal name makcik2, name laki die, name anak2 die. pastu nk kene taw plak anak die blaja mane, sape yg da kawen, sape yg blom, siap taw yg mane dah cerai, mcm gossip2 ape sume. I dont find the kepentingan aku kene wat cmtu?

okay maybe mende tu akan jadi sgt penting bile sume kawan backstabb kite and we dont have anyone else left utk mintak tlg. last2, kite ttp akan turn back to our family kan? BUTTTTTT, I still like things how they are right now.. so biar la. aku rase kalau aku taw name singkat die like MAKCIK ADOM, cukup la kott. :|

Smlm my friend called. Which aku tgh busy bedengkur mase tu. so aku biar je. Die nk gtaw pasal da dpt umah sewe somewhere in Pauh? RM500. nt nk btaw mama. yeay!

Oh! and Atheo aja aku wat maggie goreng aritu. hey aku rase wat megi goreng susa ape. mmg x sesusah rendang. tp everytime aku wat, turn out masin sgtttttt. so aspek ketelitian dlm letak perise tu penting k!

so yeah. now aku reti wat megi goreng !!