JustMarl

well for a start, who doesn’t kan?? so ive made myself a long list of things I planned to do this hols.sbb tiap kali abes cuti sem rase mcm bengang ngn diri sendiri sbb x gune btul2 mase ade. hmmm

sooo. so far, yg aku dah buat is, spend time with Naguto, buat Maybank card and the M2U, and setel paypal and BIMB. just bengang sbb BIMB nye online banking mcm lembab nk mampos. nk topap duit kt paypal pun susah!!!! lepas setel ni la baru boleh order barang and setel pasal kasut plak. till then I just can wait and wait.

just now I found out that I need to have an I-Access code. which hanye boleh didapati kt BIMB ATM!!!! demm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why everything gotta be so hard? okay. on the bright side, maybe alasan2 mcm ni la yg aku perlukan spaye aku actually KELUAR dr umah ni. sbb biasenye kalau x de sape ajak kua, aku leh duk dlm umah ni sbulan tanpe kluar at all. terer x? haa. jgn men2 k.

so arini aku blaja wat rendang. which was awesomeeeee. pedasssss. I loikee! pastu buat cake yg super-sweet smpai all the chocolate drools smpai tertumpah2 kt tepi cake tu sume. yummm. and aku stil belum ganti pose lagi 2 hari. haha. bile hati senang, sume mende aku tibai. org kate time stress je kite mkn x terkawal. haha.mane ade! time aku stress, aku takkan ade slere nk makan.

my rambut dah jadi extra extra long. smpai perut dah. wow. tgh consider nk potong short. hmm. tade sebab2 yg specific just yet. maybe just sbb I need a small change kot.emmmmm. so maybe mase cuti tu aku bjaye turun 1 kg, sbb suar tetibe longgar jap. balik uma mcm naik 4 kg. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

hidup aku terlalu mencabar, sbb umo2 camni aku kene busy pk cmne nk kurus and pk cmne nk kawal makan sbb nafsu aku yg membuak2 ni. darah mude katekann.

keje ngn marching band tu x jadi kot, sbbnye tade sape nk teman, and last2 minute cmni aku mcm dah figure out few things yg aku nk buat. I have found one, yg I actually love doing. so its good kot to find out that ade bende yg aku suke buat slain mkn and tido good job maliza!!

youtube been reallyy reallyyy helpful lately. hehe.rase sgt bersyukur lahir kt era ni.

emmm. so Ramadhan is just around the corner, so its gonna be my 2nd year of Ramadhan and  Raya, with just my family

I always knew Im this strong!kejap gile je dah 2 taun da. gile ah. scary. ni tande2 akhir zaman. tataw ape nk expect kt mase depan. mcm yg aku ckp, so much to do, so little time >.<. so harap2 kite sume dpt manage mase masing2 better.

all my best wishes to everyone

Assalamualaikum!

okay. this is gonna be ANOTHER speedy update. beberape hari ni aku sebok cube merealisasikan impian aku. which im not gonna blurt it just yet. not until it actually happens okeng? so sabaa. teehee.

Alhamdulillah. time kasih Abah sbb ‘sponsor’ duit utk aku pegi register ZheMarleey. so yeah. I theoretically have my own company now. haih. just sikit trkilan, dlm byk2 bulan, bulan JUNE jugak tarikh register tu. hmmm

Perasaan aku? mestila lagi smgt giler kot. smpai smlm aku stay up the wholeeee night cari supplier.

This is happening and its gonna happen just the way I wanted it to happened.

InsyaAllah.

hehe. even agak ketare gelojoh aku dlm berbisnes lately. salah ke im being too ambitious? hehe. and aku ade satu lagi project. tp aku tanak cite pasal tu jugak. not until it happened okay? so tunggu. I just hope everything went well with everyone!

Mama ade sakit sikit lately. asik sakit je. hmmm.

neway. aku tableh tido lambat mcm smlm lagi. tgari baru tido kot. pastu bgn time magrib, yeah I missed zhor and Asar. so ape gune aku keje kuat2 cmtu tp lupe diri? Careful Maliza. jgn salah langkah k

dpt support sepenuhnye dr Abah. hope he knows how much it meant for me

hi, its 450AM. and aku terjage. from a reallyyyyyyyyyy weird dream. what a dream!!

em so we bebuke with er.as usual Macaroni. dem spicey, and cendol pulut buah! yea. they got few buah mcm nenas, laici inside the cendol. and some nata de coco. which is kinda nice. kenyang mkn cendol je! tp pastu aku mkn gak makaroni. hehe.

haih. duk sini, asik byk parut je tataw ape gigit tp doe jado bengkak merah. err more like lovebites really. but its really gatal and sakit. hmm.

and Abah sent this right after Magrib

lol. makaroni soup. err not realy MY favourite. but I guess right now, pape pun aku rindu gak masakan mama. wuuu.

I cant wait to get back. SO excited! OH OH. harini dpt Test2. hehe. guess what? All 5 of us, Me,Tia,Bella,Allie and Mira got fullmark!

oh man. rase mcm nk makan makaroni je..

ok bye nk gi mkn.

Alhamdulillah. hujan je 2 harini ni. which is great sbb kalau tak ujan, panasnye la haii. tikar buluh dalam blik tpakse buang sbb bawah die ade kulat. which aku x sure mane dtg air tu first place. ade kulat and ade semut. yekk. da la bau tikar tu busuk

and and, bangun tadi, terliur je terpk kan pasal ayam. da lame x mkn ayam.. so dgn tekad dan penuh harapan walaupun tunggu si tiarun tu nk siap haih! sejam jugak la. bgn kul 2, kul 3 camtu baru kua umah. kt sini mmg da taw la kalau kul 3 tu susah nk cari makanan lauk siang2 tu sbb salu sume abes da..gi cocok duit jap. pastu singgah SriWang, beli telo (byk sgt da mkn telo ni), pastu beli bawang and cili kering. sbb makaroni aritu x abes lagi. singgah kt gerai kecik tepi jalan on the way balik umah sewe. aku beli 2 ketul ayam, RM4. amek ko. tp x kesah la. mcm x saba nk lahap ayam tu time tu gak. haha. balik uma siap sempat gi rebus cili kering sume, tumbuk2 bawang and cili tu, (sume manual k!), perut da bunyi2 sbb da nk kul 5 tp x mkn2 agi. baik aku pose weh!

anyway, siap la akhirnye makaroni. makan ngn ayam kari and ayam masak cili api aku beli tadi. tp aku abeskan ayam kari je la. mlm baru mkn ayam lagi sketul tu. lapa nye pasal. x cukup ayam, mentang2 beli spapan telo tadi, terus goreng telo. so lauk aku agak mewah arini. makan ngn lajunye, tp sadly sungguh pedas.

tp kene abeskan gak. so sambil2 makan, tetibe teringat Mama. since the last text ngn Abah pasal nk donate organ, Abah kate nt nk call, tp tak call2 pung. so aku call Mama. tp line x clear. teruk betul line sini. putus2 je. pastu msg2, mama tanye la, ade duit tak, mcm da lame je tak mintak. hihihii. aku pun rase cmtu, nampaknye mmg jimat gile kot. sehari mkn skali je. puase la so tade la rase rugi sgt kan. even ade sikit je, rm30 je dlm bank. tp cukup la tu kot. aku takkan withdraw da. great plan, minggu depan baru suh mama bank in, mase nk balik tu. hehehehe.

x saba! rindu rendang. nt aku nk blaja wat rendang.  byk mende nk wat balik kang. hopefully tak lupe buat snarai. aku nk buang sume barang2 lame. adiah2, kenangan2 yg bagi sakit tu. eerr. tp nt aku nyesal tak agak2? hmm. tp dah niat aku mmg nk buang terus sume tu dr idup ak. kene buang la kot… cos theres nothing left. not even sikittttt skelumit syg. on behalf of him la. hmmm

pastu nk setel ZheMarleey cpt2. and back on business scpt yg bleh!yeah!! aku minat masak. maybe aku leh blaja mase cuti ni. pastu mane la taw kan kan, melebar sayap wat cake plak ke. pergh.

ok angan2 sume tu. diam x diam, minggu depan je dah nk final da. rase mcm kejap sgt plak. hahaha. siyes. aku mcm lost track of time. taw2 je da 12 june. wow. gile ah. test will be on the 20th. tp tak bgtaw mama lagi, sbb nk wat seprais balik

hopefully everything went well. Amin..

tu dah cukup utk buat hari aku terase begitulah muram and gloomy skali. harharhahr. tapi aku telah bjaye menyiapkannya tepat pade pukul 3.45AM bersamaan Ahad. janji nk kuar arini (kejap lagi) ngn Allie, Miera and Tia. Janji kul 9 bangun. tataw la jadi ke x. sbb da nk kul 4 tak tido2 lagi nih. hmmmm. tp lege sbb assignment dah siap.

Tadi aku menghadap Allah. stelah beberape lame jugak aku sombong dan lalai. AGAIN. bile aku rase susa hati sgt. baru aku cari Dia.

mmg la doa takkan termakbul kalau camni. but really. lepas cakap and luah sume. rase lege gilee even aku mcm ckp sorang. zzz. Its just that, sometimes aku rase aku cukup kuat. tp ade mase, aku just rase nk give up trying pun. kalau sakit hati ni tade, aku leh je idup happy gile nk mampus mcm dulu. tp sbb sakit ati tu tanak ilang. and sbb aku tak pecaye yg bende tu leh ilang pun. So tadi, aku berserah lagi skali.

please please,Ya Allah. anything. tp just aku tanak ade prasaan mcm ni; benci and dengki ats ksenangan org lain. nk rosakkan idup org, senang gile sbenanye. and to actually lawan diri aku dr jadi mcm tu la yg paling susa. mcm impossible nk buat.

so disebabkan aku ade masalah psychology tadi, aku tetibe message my old best friend. It goes like this.

‘Hi! Thank you. thank you for everything. you have been a great friend. Have I really lost my bestfriend or I still have the chance to fix things? I really miss the old times. ‘

 

*er specifically I should have said, the old us.  but tataw la nape aku x ckp cmtu. it was all random ok!

but die x reply. maybe dah tido. entahlah. just that rase mcm aku dah hilang die. hes really important sbenanye.. cume lately aku terase btul die tade.. aku rase mcm aku dah cube. aku ade ajak die kua jumpe sume. tp die mcm asek2 busy je. ntah la. maybe btul2 tanak jmpe aku? I mean. kalau tanak ckp jela. we’re adults. I can take it. cheh. maybe die underestimate kekuatan aku. hmmm!

xsabanye abes intersesi!

Oh. tadi Abah ade call. hmmm. cakap mama batuk. demam. teruk jugak smpai call taleh angkat sbb taleh ckp. Im kinda worried. hopefully Mama sihat cpt. aku risau sbb lately Mama macam asek demam je..

risau la. sbb aku jauh. and sbb sian kt Abah kene jage Mama and my aunt tu. hm.

and sembang2 sume. Abah ckp pasal ZheMarleey. haha. die kate activenyeee skang. So I said sbb byk masee~ he said, tape , Abah support. nanti balik kite gi register SSM. awh. there was tearss~~~ in my eye. hehehe. Told Abah bout buying the stuffs directly from China and he said, no problem! one at a time k!

so cite2 dah tinggi. hopefully everything went well jelah. Amin..

Maybe I should be off to bed. kang x bangun sok ngamok lak Allie.

KUNGFU PANDA ONDAWAY!!

Greetings everyone

well, I cant remember when was the last post been published. lama sgt. So Im so through with the final, and I went back home on the 11th? ah, Farahain followed me back home for the penangguhan and pengurangan MARA. and we did settled everything on the 1st day at home. the next day, took passport picture for my driving license, and sekejap gile my license dah siap!! awesome. and and, my passport picture is kindaaa prettyyy jugak. harharharharhar!

then the next next day, we went to Bukit P11, Saujana Hijau I think?, then went to the Pullman Lake for photoshoot session. this time with Tia. She came all the way from Ampang sbb nk hantar kunci rumah sewe cos Ill be returning earlier than her. The Broga plan tepakse dipostponed, but I kinda made a promise to myself that I will do it again next time when I have the chance.

OH!! kete x dpt dibawak ke Arau sbb aritu eksiden. taya kete meletopss. tapi it was cool sbb aku berjaye tuka taya tanpe bantuan sape2 ok!! tp last minute ade pakcik nek moto benti sbb kesian, tp aku dah nk siap tuka taya da. pandai pakcik tu wat2 nk tolong last2 minute.. mesti da skodeng dr jauh  

gmba aku tuka taya dgn cool gile ade kt tia, nanti aku da amek aku upload ok!

being with someone yg suke act like they know EVERYTHING, mmg agak membebankan at times. Lame2 jadi bosan and semakin hilang sabar. and clearly SORRY tu dah tade value for you, so xyah botherr sayin it nemore. cos next time I wont be stupid enafff to believe ur stupid lies okay! Hate it when people act like they care when in fact they don’t give a damn at all. Id rather have you being all selfish than pretentious taw tak? You thought you were doing good deeds and lies for the sake of not hurting my feelings. how so? well truth may hurt. but nothings worst than lies. you don’t like me being all fake and lies behind your back kan? So please, Id like you to do the same.

ah! a friend of mine just cite2 masalah peribadi beliau yg ofcos la aku takkan cite sini. cite die agak sedey, tp sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt smiliar ngn cite aku. wow. agak mendebarkan sbb aku taw the girl is about to make the mistake I did. and I wish she really knew how much I wanted to give up everything to do what I did, differently. haih…

Don’t make the same mistake ok!! nanti menyesal x kesudah.

It shud be my 2nd day of intersesi class, tp aku tpakse x dtg harini because tade transport. sob2.

Dunno what to expect, sbb mood tade nk gi klas and tgk buku balik. zzzz. and to face the final AGAIN? mcm. urgh. pengsan.

 

x saba nk pindah. sbb kalau bleh, I don’t want to be anywhere near Putrajaya. EVER.

its okay. the time will come. I should be glad I don’t really have to be there and tunggu mase tu dtg. aku just tunggu dr Arau. haha. zzz

bile aku nk ade perut mcm the bunch of girls from Hellcats tu? dem!!! too good too be true. trust me, its all fake. they used body spray ok.

I feel bad sbb letupkan taya kete, but hikmahnye, I get new tires and a radio! *yg aku nk sgt and dah tunggu like forever*. HARHARHAR

too bad kete tuka sume mase hari aku nk balik Arau. so x sempat rasmikan radio tu lagi. saba ea. tunggu I balik syg!

 

Ryan Star – Losing Your Memory

alhamdulillah. 1st paper dah lepas. err no comment! but rasenye aku berjaye jawab sume. happy jugak sbb kbykkan nye mmg aku bace smlm. so tade la rase bsalah sgt tido nk dekat 2 hari kemarin. haha.

time kasih ya Allah kerana permudahkan urusan ku.

2 3 hari ni pale asik pening2 je. pastu asik loya time pagi2. scary.. aku rase ni simptom2 tekanan exam kot.. ngn too much caffeine consumption.

neway. just nk update tu je. pale sakit bebona. so later ok!

havent really slept. sebab nervous kene balik Arau balik.

semalam sempat berjimba dgn SyahmiSuhaimi, Syazana Yahaya, adik die, and Syafiqah Zamri. hehe. Asalnye dtg ngn si momot tu. Had McD! well to be exact MEGA MAC. loikee. I lovee meatt~

 

kene letak LOTS of pepper and sauce. I like it that way. pedas smpai berhingushingusan.

Lepas tu ktorang pegi Karok. oh. cam biase, ktorang lepak2 ni kt Alamanda ler. and baru notice TGI da bukak kt situ. untung laa pasni momot tu gi lepak situ je. aku x mampu deer. haha.

So beli sejam then karok2 smpai la Syhmi ngn Lalat yg menyusul kmudiannye tu. Campo agi karok stgh jam then amek2 gmba skit. gonna miss them all >.<

alamek. lupe plak nk ckp. sblum tu ktorang gi Maybank sbb nk deposit duit Iffa ngn Lalat. *even akan jumpe lalat gak pastu. zz sometimes certain bende I just don’t have the explanation so don’t ask why!!

*muke nk seri je. ofcourse la. diva kan??

 

siblings :’)

we’ve been together for soo long. so hopefully that wouldn’t change.

the girlfriends =3

Lalat ade masalah hormon. so mnyebabkan die suke amek gmba smbil pgg2 tmpt x spatutnye

 

MY FAVORITE! tp sygnye gmba time ni blur. salah sape?

Shaggy the Momot or MariahCurry

Jelopez~ more like mcm tgh makan icecream. oh lucahnye lalat ni!

okay tu kaki aku. sile abaikan.

dapat ni bile beli sejam. like wth? xpenting kot sume ni! lepas tu charge rm23. patutnye rm18 je. *bak kate Momot

 

okay. so lepas tu ktorang shopping2 jap. aku dapat teeshirt free from Watson sbb dpt point tinggi. thanks to Syahmi. hehehe. dah try baju tu. okey ketat skit tp luckily kain die stretch . harharhar. jalan2 sume smpai umah just before Maghrib.

so harini hari terakhir aku kt rumah. gonna miss home so much. tp sikit2 excited dengan ape nk jadi mase depan. oh. please let me pass Eco. and the rest of the papers. mcm biase la, bile da nk ujung2 sem tu, tetibe x yakin nk dpt Dean. tape tape. niat tu murni dah. tp usehe tade susah gak. OUCH. ok bye!

selepas berusaha selama sehari suntuk meneka username and password. akhirnye sy berjaya!! … this is so lame. turn out username and password is my blogger’s.
so this is my 1st post using WLW 2011 okengg. advancedd gituu. walaupun nk masuk 2012 da.

Kt Malaysia boleh tuka name x? kalau bleh, aku nk tuka name jadi Marl Ahmad. or Marleey Ahmad. because I don’t like being Normaliza anymore. nak jadi new person with new spirit! okay, bole je nk jadi new person without changing the name, tp saje, mcm symbolic la konon utk tunjuk ade blakunye pertukaran tersebut. zzz
well, harini aku dpt taw satu bende yg sgt2 menyayat hati. emm. ade la bende tu. yg buat aku tringat balik kenangan lame. x penting pun actually. tp bende tu buat hati aku sebak. so aku tpakse buat ape yg aku dah buat tu. sorry. korang penah jadi penting, but rasenye yall don’t treat me the same. so better aku stay away from you guys, that’s for the best ! pape pun, aku tetap doakan sume akan jadi manusie brgune, and happy je slalu. aku lupekan pape permusuhan lame, or dendam, just aku tanak diigtkan again, or tanak tsrempak dgn mereke2 itu lagi. that’s all im asking. insyaAllah, I’ll do fine..

besok ade 2 test. ok  bye! later kkk

Alhamdulillah. baru pas makan nasik. lauk keli. total RM3.50. tak tau ape yg ditotalkan cos aku ambik nasik ngn  keli je pong. hmmmm. sbb banjir ke? anyway. quick updates!! nk tiru style Isa, update ikut kategory? hehe.

Lappy.
Thank you to mama and Abah, dpt laptop baru da.got a neww Dell lappy! lovee itt.huhuu. senang skit wat keje and yg paling penting, online!mama dtg sabtu pagi, and balik ahad tgari. rinduu. pegi padang besaq smlm, sopping2 skitt.

Banjir
Arau dilande banjir lagi. for the 2nd time. not as bad as the first, luckily cume sehari yg tade air. org lain sume balik, kcuali aku. aku tumpang umah Aini and Pika.

Test. 
This is 2nd last week before cuti study week. x sabaaa nk balik! em, test 1 eco sgt teruk sbb 98% of the class FAILED. and quality pun cukup2 makan je. hmmmmm. no comment. so minggu ni akan dihujani test sbb aritu cuti banjir dari rabu smpai ahad, hari dimane aku spend mase aku dgn begitu membazir skali.

Assignments
so far okay je. tp ade beberape org jenis x buat keje, next sem korang leh cari group lain thank you!

WLW
my wlw is not working anymore. sedey. x suke post gune blogger punye editor ni. nk wlw gak. tp die kate username or password aku yg sala :[ maybe kene wat blog baru. AGAIN. we'll see, tade mase sgt nk pk tang tu lagi.

DeLolly
at last, batch terakhir bjalan lancar, even baju tersgt lambat smpai, customer sgt memahami and they lovedd itt. mase cuti baru sambung balik.

Rumah Sewe.
emm, maybe confirm pindah, hopefully dapat bawak kete dtg sini. wuuu.

Short Sem
sem ni sem prtame aku wat short sem. so harap2 everything went well. insyaAllah.

tak taw dah bape kali end. tp for sure this time, its for good. I am pretty sure that this IS exactly what I always wanted. you know, it is not easy to pretend that everythings okay and that you care when the truth is you don't. why? because i've spent this whole time with him thinking bout someone else. I know I know. Not one of the things that Im proud of. But this is the truth. My heart was not with him cos someone else has it.

harsh fact. But thats something I have to live with the whole life.

BUT, no fear.. I can live, knowing hes okay and that hes happy. well, I certainly not sure if he is still happy cos I never stalk cos I know it'll hurt me in the end. But last time I know, die mmg happy sgt..and I want to live knowing just that. =) and keep praying that we don't have to ever meet again. I like it this way.

Yes at times, I'd feel so lonely and get jealous of others yang seems sooooo damn happy and in love. aww. I miss that feeling...that rindu2 and acting cute whenever you're around him like manje2. haha.
okay one of the good times.

things are roughhh and hardd at first, but Im sure I'll get through this. cos Im the MAN!
com'on!! almost a year already. this is mcm a hugee achievement. even okay aku admit, aku still trying to avoid my old friends from Cheras... mmg selalu rase mcm Im such a bad bad bad friend and mmg patut la tak ramai kawan pun kan.. tapi... I just hope they understand that, its my way of protecting myself. I could simply block them, but I dont want to. because Im denying the fact that they are that important sampai aku kene block plak..tak mati pun kalau ternampak, cume it would be better kalau aku just tataw pape, and live with my ownnn last impressions of them.okay okay. mmg aku ego skit.. haha. well, Im not like certain people, yang boleh act like nothing happen when something DID happened. especially when that something meant the world to you. ah luckily aku tak depend kt thatt one world only. hehe. So boleh dikatekan aku agak bijak disitu . bwek. Im sure I did the right thing by leaving.. cume aku just terkilan je.. because it could turn out differently if only he tried harder..

and agak sedih because the last memory of me that he remember, mesti die igt aku yg gilekan duit ni. haih...
if only he knows that, its NOT what Ive been looking for. kalau ye. really I would waste my whole 5 years mcm tu je?? kamon..Im better than that. but yeah yeah. x gune dikenang balik. cume well. as I said. terkilan yg thats the last thing that he gonna remember the most about me..

anyway. aku selamat smpai dirumah pagi semalam, lepas Subuh. Alhamdulillah.. Allah makbulkan doa aku yg mintak dpt smpai umah dgn slmatnye.. He always listen. :]

cume agak risau sgt2 yang mama sakit haritu. tp Alhamdulillah jugak.. mama selamat operate. malu sikit sbb aku mmg tak dpt tahan prasaan and nanges depan dorang mase cite yg mama masuk ward. siap dah packing barang sbb nk balik. tp Abah ngn Mama x bagi.. ='( aku risau sgt2..risau x sempat je. dan2 je lepas tu msg mama ckp i love you i love you. haha. tapi skang dah biase ckp dah. aku sedar, nape laa ngn bf laju je dok ckp rindu2 sume. ngn mama sindri segan nk ckp. segan x btempat namenye ni.. I promised myself that aku nk lebih hargai mase2 yg aku ade dgn Mama and Abah ni.. tak saba nye nk abes blaja. nk keje btul2,kumpul duit. nk bawak Mama pegi Aussie. hehehe. asalnye, plan nk pegi dgn someone yg disayangi sgt tu. tp org tu tade pulak. no no. bukan la nk ckp parent ni my second choice. cume tersedar, yg aku sbenarnye nk dorang yg ade disamping aku. because dorang la segalanye2..

mase kt Arau. aku risau sgt kalau tibe2 dpt message dlm klas, dpt taw ade something bad happen kt salah sorang. or worst, both of them. mcm yg jadi kt one of my classmate... yg dpt taw Ayah die meninggal kt ward.. mmg dah taw ayah die sakit.. tp btape kuatnye die pade aku.. utk bangun balik lepas 2 hari je. dah boleh dtg class sume.. emmm..

Aku harap aku pun sekuat tu. tapi sygnye.. haihhh.

rase kerdil sgt, sbb taw, byk bende diluar kawalan kite kan. bende mcm, nyawe.. aku takut nk happy2 sgt kt sane. takut nk pegi bsukerie mcm budak2 rumah lain. gi mandi2 sungai sume.. bukan tanak.. aku takut. aku tanak ade kt tempat2 mcm tu incase something happend to mama or abah. mmg la even duk uma pun patut pk camtu, tp sbbkan dekat.. rase lagi slmat sbb dorang ade depan mate kan..

pape pun.. aku yakin Allah ade rancangan utk sume org. and kalau pape pun jadi, aku mmg tade care lain pun tp kene tpakse jadi kuat gak. aku segan nk tegur org. aku rase tu antare masalah terbesar aku. aku mmg agak assertive kott, sbb rasenye aku skang dah smakin tegas and boleh say NO kt org lain. tp cume mcm bende2 mcm nasihat2 ni still tak mampu. sbb aku sedar aku sindri terlampau laa byknye kekurangan. patutnye tu takleh jadi alasan, sbb kite mmg kene tegur kalau taw org buat salah. cume taw2 je la kan konflik ngn kawan2. aku mcm rase baik avoid. sbb nt lagi besa je masala. tu jugak antare salah satu sbb nape kalau leh, aku diam je. lagi baik xyah rapat2 sgt sbb aku tanak terlalu emotionally attached.  you have no idea betape runtuh seruntuhnye rase hidup ni bile kite terlalu attach kt someone, and that someone, betrayed you.

but disini, sy ingin menggalakkan pemikiran yg positive ye rakan2. so marilah usehe same2.  rasenye, bile masenye dah tibe, aku akan taw sendiri kot... :]
kalau ade, ade lah okay? sbb byk lagi bende penting yg nk kene pk..

ha! aku happy harini. sbb arini dpt jubah aku yg pertame. hehehehehe. jubah color itam, with beaded detailing  yg aku dah lame nak sgt. mmg la x la sejibik yg mcm aku nak. tp dekat2 la. hihuhihu. baju tu pakai mase event nanti. tudung. nanti pk! kalau nk shopping tudung lawa2, satu tempat je. Jeddah!!

so tu kene pegi someday. zzz.byknye nk gune duit. hmmmm

terkilan ade ulcer time2 balik uma ni. nk makan mama masak sume susah. kene makan sikit, pastu kene telan besa2 sbb nk kunyah lame2 sakit :[ pastu taleh mkn pedas. wuuuu.

aku ade smgt baru. that is, aku nk start kumpul Abaya! sume color. WOW.

guess what happened!

hey hey! its pretty tiring today. Me, Allie, Miera and Allie’s anak buah went to UniKL. They called UniKL for appointment yesterday and they asked us to come over today. err. I thought no one was waiting for us, or mcm x kesah nk dtg kul bape. turn out ade org tunggu. and the guy ensem ok!then ckp2 dgn the friendly receptionist?? die ckp bos tade. so gotta wait smpai the bos abes class :|

so we went to Ayam Penyet and makan. since I brought my nasik lemak all the way from home, so i just eat the nasi lemak. just beli Mocha blended cos I feel like im sooo in need of huge dose of caffeine. RINDU!

oh wait. I think we went to GMI before makan. because we’re so worried that the bos tak available harini which die ckp pun die x sure kul bape abes klas and free. so off we went to GMI. hah. the jalan looks so familiar.patutla rase mcm penah pegi……….

mmg penah pun… even sekali dlm hidup. I can still remember crystal clear.hm…hate these kind of memories

but i realize that now i get tougher and tougher each time it pops out of my head. haha

ANYWAY, bjaye dptkan appointment dgn cepatnye. ha. kan senang kalau sume bkejesame. adoiyai. aku pun kurang pasti nape perlu begitu ketatt sesetengah U ni. padahal kami ni kire PELAWAT okay. and we deserve being treated the same, with respect mcm die sambut menteri dtg. :| or at the very least. treat us like people okay?

ade ke patut guard UniKL ckp ktorang amek pas plawat die satu. dorang bagi 3, ktorang pulangkan 2. waddehel.. bikin panas je. kamon laa. pas je kott. aku nk curi pun nk watpe jadah? siap ckp kalau amek kene dende nanti. prove us wrong la then. main ckp2 mulot je. sume org leh wat. wadddehel! geram aku tadi.

 

haih! anyway yg kt GMI tu, we didnt get as much infos as the time we did our OSHA project. maybe sbb time OSHA tu, ayah Tia involved. so mcm senang dpt access kott.

ah tapelah. we really did our best and we really really merayu2 gile kot mintak nk dpt copies of any data or statistics ke ape. tp x dpt. wuwuw.

but tapelah. the cooperation sgt2 baik kot.

 

 

our cameraman of the day! haha

 

kontroversi. BUWEK

okay gak. ayam dy besa~

okay lepas tu setel sume. bla3242. around 4PM aku balik. benti tgh jalan sbb taya kete brasap. ade van tu hon and benti mcm tlg bgtaw. thanks pakcik!

err. im not sure ape sbb die berasap. but probably sbb aku lupe turunkan handbrake :|

okay bye.

 

pastu smpai uma. around 8PM, kuar ngn Abah and Mama, and we went to Pizza Hut and beli barang2 skit and the main reason sbenanye nk cari kasut aku. tp tade size :[

I like that one sooo bad. tp yg tu la yg tade size :[

so besok maybe pegi lagi kot kt tmpt len.

zzz. satu haprak keje aku x wat lagi. hm.

neway tiket balik da beli. aku balik on sabtu dgn Miera and Allie :]

spnjng hari pakai corset. but SERIOUSLY. ttibe aku realize one thing. pakai corset and then makan, mmg buat ur appetite jadi kurang. 1st sbb that thing to tight on stomach, ur tummy mcm tolak the food. so nk tanak. u dont feel like eating at all. sbb aku x abes pun nasik lemak *last2 abes gak, okay tp sbenanye mase tu prasaan dah sgt2 kenyang*, padahal aku x makan lagi pagi tu. which is kinda weird kenyang cpt considering aku x mkn lagi harini.

so ill definitely buy couple more corset so that i can wear them everyday. yeah!

and i kinda like the feeling of my perut in them. mcm sexy~ WAHAHA. okay bye

AS I expected. harini berlalu dgn sgt cepat. I notice that alott recently. mcm cpt je mase berlalu. mcm baru je gi klas, tibe2 da balik. *okay i lied* time2 ari minggu je rase mcm mase blalu cpt. haha. dlm kelas rase mcm forever. especially subject kire2. zzzz

At least, aku bjaye basuh baju and cadar. lipat belum. er. notes belum. err.gosok baju belum.

OMG!! aku watpe je arini!!

….

bgn. makan. mandi. basuh baju. makan. pegi orange. beli ayam and nasik. kuah banjir. tp x sedap. sbb sambal tade. just a combination of sambal belacan and kuah kurma. emm. x sedap.

more like tawar. so x berape puas *even nasik licin* zzzz

Having trouble sleeping. sbb had too much coffee. aku pandang rendah kt kopi kapal api tu. color mcm x pekat pun mase buat. tp mmg KAWWW.

i need to sleep early sbb even Isa kejut subuh, aku x bgn pun. ….

PLEASE! tanak ade bad dream arini.

budak rumah da tido.

 

tadi dorang kua dinner kul 9 kot. kul 12am baru balik! aku risau gile. igt kene kidnap. call hp x dpt dihubungi ape sume. haha. dala aku sorang kt uma! Alhamdulillah, they went back home safee and soundd.

feels soo different without that loudddddd one around. rase lagi tenang. and at peace. we should do this more often.

 

haih..

Im avoiding few people lately. at times, rase rindu sgt. of course rindu. almost like siblings. but they seems so busy. mcm not sure nk kacau ke x. i know i know. probably they’re thinking the same bout me, sbb tu x nk kacau jugak kot…

ntah la.

>.<

i hope aku still diingati by few people, even aku tade la rase aku penting gile.

just , i hope they knew that aku sntiase igt dorang. and rindu!

and sntiase doakan dorang happy, and that sume urusan dipermudahkan.

amin..