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bought the new book for RM50. tataw nape murah dr yg sblom ni even its the same book. igtkan lagi nipis cos rase mcm lagi nipis. tp same je :| ooo. mesti lecturer amek komisyen lebey ni!

met Miss Staffing for the meeting on this coming Seminar that we will held. Im the AJK for Peralatan, gotta buy the mineral water, gule2 and roti and files, pens. hhaha. tetibe ade makanan. >.<

anyway. kesimpulan dr sume crite ini adalah, amat penting untuk sy mempunyai kenderaan sendiri and if tade!! adalah teramat penting untuk kamu mempunyai backup plan mcm taw timing2 bus nk lalu kawasan umah kul bape so that kalau pape jadi, leh balik sindri tanpe bgantung kt org lain. seriously. aku pun tanak susa kan org kannnnn. really need to consider the car. and new rent house. :|

since i bought the new book already, harapan utame adalah utk x jumpe buku tu balik thank you. kalau jumpe, mmg tragik lagi sadis.

tapi yg penting it rains yesterday and today :]

felt like heaven~~

minggu depan test akan bersepah, tp aku akan cube x merungut and lalui ngn tabah. mcm sem lepas.  sgt x saba sem ni utk brakhir. it will! but wait. ade short sem lagi. haha. tape. susah2 skang utk senang2 nanti :]

a bad day. buku RM65 hilang. mane aku nk cekau duit?siap utang kt Allie RM50 sbb beli makanan2 skit. pastu plakk nk kene refund duit customer 2 org (around RM90) sbb barang tade and dorang tanak tunggu dah. terime kasih. duit kt cimb ade RM40 je.

even da terpakse msg Mama mintak duit banje tadi, mama maybe bagi RM150 je. meaning, sume aku akan gune skali gus. and tade baki lansung.

sakit nye hati..sakit hati sbb buku tu ilang. ok la fine buku ilang. tp notes? bkn sehari 2 aku spend time wat notes tu…

mane ade mase dah nk wat…

ok bleh blame mase2 tluang slame ni yg aku x buat pape.

okay fineee

sume salah aku.

ok. in a positive punye side. maybe jadi camni sbb nak aku lebih hati2 and alert next time spaye barang x ilang lg.

maybe mende ni jadi sbb nk aku kurus kot, pasni xdpt beli nasik salu dah..

mende ni jadi sbb nk bg aku kuat sbb aku nanges ari2 maybe Dia igt aku ngade2 sgt..

rase nk quit.. seriously.. nk quit sgt2…

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felt useless, devastated, torn, crushed.

on top of tat, arini aku still repeat one of the things yg aku dah janji tanak jadi..tp ter’jadi’ gak sbb x dpt kawal diri. so tu tambah lagi kekecewaan thadap diri sindri. mende kecik camtu pun taleh wat.

untung la kalau rapat ngn Mama/Ibu, watever ur called ur mother. sbb time2 cmni it’d be good to be able to share with someone :’]

tapelah. the less she know, the better.

the less i know the better.

its all fated this way. jgn putus ase kay? SHIT just happened. really. RANDOMLY, and tanpe belas kesian kt sape pun die nk kene. so tape. keep your head held high, and just accept it with open heart. Allah janjikan something yg lebih baik atas sesuatu kehilangan tu.

aku rase. mende ni jadi spaye aku rase kerdil and bersyukur. skurang2nye mungkin aku diingati.

Mule2 skali ak lapa. mane ade tanak makan or diet k..

hmm ade la sbb2 tetentu.

couldn’t call mama sbb aku tekad tunggu mama bank in sindri and aku xnk mintak2 dah

presentation for ptg tadi was a mess. not my presentation. tp sgt2 simpati kt kawan2 yg da present . adekah nasib aku akan same cmtu? waaaaaaaaaa

*xleh btaw kenape and sbject pe- kontroversi nt*

oaskdoakdaokmdkasdmaskd

starting tadi pun dah agak bad mood sbb smpai lambat. seriously. i need a car.

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minggu depan test hari2 tp rilek je. minggu ni baru start revise. haha. ape la nk jadi.

em. nantok. harap tido menghilangkan kelaparan. nt nk bgn awl skit sbb wat notes. lege sbb dah hari rabu :’]

PS/ bukan niat nk mengungkit, but it is hard for me as well sbb aku x reti la mende2 cmni.

now i have more time for myself. i should focus more. smgt skit!

maybe bile mase tu datang, aku akan taw sindri if it was meant for me. meantime, ill just try living moderately, treasure watever i already have rather than spend much time on things that i would never never get…

ah. living in moderation susah. tadi baru lepas shopping :|

tinggal rm50 dlm BIMB. okay RM50 tu kene simpan smpai mama bank in lain. takkan mintak duit. mama nk bagi, mama bagi la. i can do this!

i really miss it..

i love the rain. cos really. it could wash away all the pain.just for temporary. but. thats more than enaf. cos if it is up to me, bende tu takkan leh ilang lansung even kejap. ah. tp kt arau nk tunggu ujan. mmg x dpt ler. duk sorang lame2 dlm blik ni taleh gak.. mmg ak suke spend time sorang2. tp kalau lame sgt..mule pk bkn2. zzzzzzzz

can’t believe i let these things affects me so much and for soo long.

yg penting!!! aku tetap nk beli eyeshadow pallete tu. with the whole set of brushes. WOW!!!

installed a new cuteeee personas. malam ni rase mcm nk tuka mood. oh. its pretty sejuk mlm ni. kinda weird. Mira balik magrib tadi ckp ujan lebat kt Kangar. lagi weird sbb kt sini panas gileeeeeee even smpai die balik tu.

spnjng ari aku x wat pape :[

because its too hot i cant think. sejuk sgt pun taleh gak. rase nk tido je. luckily i had a kaww punye coffee earlier, so mmg xnantok lansung *or maybe sbb aku tido 14 jam arini*

oh! arini aku berjaye duduk dlm umah ni tak kuar2 smpai Mira dok peli2 aku sbb rupenye2 balak die bawak kawan skali tadi time gi dating. jadi x dating da la kot. so die mcm nyesal la, kalau taw die ajak aku. aku pun layan kan je. pastu die ckp elehh ajak mesti tnk kuar punye. gi mane2 pun tanak. hahaha. omgg. aku smpai camtu ke malasnye?? :| but seriously. kalau bukan sbb beli nasik, aku mmg xkn kuar kot.

so kirim kt die nasik paprik. die ckp xyah baya, balak die banje. aww. aku suke laki camtu. like bebaik2 ngn member. haha. so its my rezeki. aku x insist nk baya pun. hahhahaha. ok aku amek kesempatan skit. rezeki la kot kan kan.

tp tadi lapaaa teramat, aku tpakse amek telor eyda ngn tia pastu goreng. besok aku akan kluar beli pape patut and ganti balik telo2 mereke tanpe mereke ktahui. omgg. dah jadi pencuri :|

ak x ckp pon kt dorang sbb arap dpt ganti je besok and ak tnk dorang pk aku suke mintak2 or pinjam2 even aku mmg camtu :[

so yeah. tu salah satu mende yg aku nk ubah. ak tanak jadi org yg suke2 mintak dah pasni. ill try ok!

my new persona. the white sheep! comel kan kan

okay. arini igt nk tido tgari kang. buat notes dlu. chapter 2 HRD mcm 40page. byk gileee. wuuuuuuuuuuu

ok bye.

no one would noticed anyway. cheer up! :D

duit duit~

dgn bsungguh2nye aku jimat duit, dgn sdaye upaye cube mkn skali shari je, or mkn byk kali tp beli nasik lemak yg 60sen tu. cume sakit skit sbb nasik tu ade petang2 je. waaaaaaaaaaa. lapaaaqq

aku bjaye tahan spend rm50 je utk 2 minggu. susah k! tp tpakse kuakan lagi duit sbb bayar duit minyak member aku ni, ngn beli sabun2 basuh baju. sorry. tade kompromi kalau sabun tu. kene febreeze ngn softlan gak. hahaha. tu pun plih byk kali sbb banding2 yg lagi murah. >.<. time2 camni mestila kene ade bende lain yg abes, mcm perfume. argh. tpakse beli. so aku beli yg RM5.90 punye. haha. jimat gile. tp bau die wangi okeng. mcm coklet2 n bau candy2. kononnye inspired by Britney punye perfume. aku caye jela sbb murah kan. hahaha. so kalau cite kt org, ckp aku beli perfume britney k!

saba jela. ak akan cube menabahkan hati and beli bende mahal2 bile aku da keje nanti.

cume tkilan budak2 rumah ni suke shopping2 barang dapo, taw2 je kene bahagi tmasuk aku skali. tlg la. kadang2 tu jgn la wat kputusan sndri. sile pk org yg tade duit mcm aku ni yg tak plan nk kua duit. tibe2 kene bayar.

…

aku sgt smgt ngn shortcourse nanti. sbbnye Puan Rozi yg baik gile tu aja. aku harap die bukan baik mase aku jumpe die tadi je. arap2 die baik time mengajar nanti. smoge aku ttp focus and x lemah smgt even budak2 lain da balik or da dpt gaji utk keje 2 bln, and aku baru abes blaja mase tu. untung la cuti 4bln!! mcm2 bleh wat.

so dgn 2 bln yg ade tu. hmm. ade x keje yg sbulan gaji 1500 ke. kalau ade. aku nak keje sbulan je. pastu gi bcuti mane2. mcm 2 ari ke. bestnye.

hmmmm! so Australia akan jadi the first tempat yg aku nk bawak mama and abah pegi. Semoge Allah panjangkan umur dorang and smoge aku sempat la berbakti skit2 ke ape. :[

nape la sjak 2 menjak ni aku rase dekat sgt2 masenye. aku x ready k. and aku takut nk pk aku dah ready, sbb aku mmg takkan ready. sbb aku tanak ready pun. :[[

so harap2 aku dpt tunaikan hasrat dorang, spaye aku lulus cmerlang utk degree ni and smoge hasrat aku nk keje and bawak dorang gi Australia and lepas tu nk same2 gi haji tcapai jugak..amin..

family aku bkn kaye leh nk gi mlancong oversea2 tiap2 bulan ni. so kalau dpt gi skali pun tapelah. nk gak tgk tempat org kan kan.

wuuu! bestnye!

ak rase aku da confirm yg aku ni jenis cpt bosan.

bosan kalau hari2 buat bende same. bosan kalau aku rase asek2 aku je yg nk kene wat kelainan. bosan sbb rase mcm aku je yg bagi effort tp org lain tak. ak bosan sbb even aku taw kite kadang2 perlukan ketaksamaan tu, mcm pendpt. kalau asek same2 je pun bosan gak. tp ni salu sgt x same. mmg tade yg same pun rasenye?

nape aku salu ade dlm situasi mcm ni? that same situation jugak. bosanla. really. bosan bosan bosan! the only thing yg aku x bosan buat is tido.

zzz

:|

oh. budak umah sume balik kcuali aku and mira. mira besok gi dating lak. untungg laa bf dtg amek kt uma gi jenjalan~

so ape aku akan wat esok? aku mungkin akan mati kelaparan. jauhnye nk gi bli nasik. zzz.malas nk tuka baju. malas nk pakai tudung. malas nk start kete. malas nk bawah kete gi beli nasik. malas nk parking. oh bape byk dah mase tbuang kt situ. tp aku akan merindui ayam gemok2 and ikan keli kt Oren tu. wuu. ngn sambal blacan die. pergh. okay aku rase die masak the best gulai cili api. ade ke? tp rasenye tu la kot name die. kuah die terbaik k. x masin, x manis, just the moderate combination of all!

ok dah lapa.

tadi segan cite kt mama pasal yuran shortsem RM400. mama cakap, x kesah la bape, kalau nk buat, and bleh buat, buat je.

:’]

they are ALWAYS like that. sntiase bg aku buat plihan sindri. okay aku mmg brsyukur gile. spnjng idup aku, sgalenye2 abah mama x penah rancangkan kot. i mean, mmg la dorang rancang aku gi skola bla3242. tp mcm dulu plih aliran. x kesah pun aku amek yg mane, dorang ckp, ikut je yg aku minat, pastu time masuk kptm mase nk plih course pun same. smpai la skang.

even aku x rapat ngn dorang. i miss the FEELING i had, having them around me.

you know. just the feeling that they’re there with you. mcm tu je dah cukup.

so yeah. of course aku takkan leh imagine how would i feel when they’re gone.

whos gonna be there for me then??

well..kalau tade sape pun.. i gotta always remember that Allah takkan turunkan ujian yg hambaNya x mampu nk lalu. so yeah. confident skit maliza!!

aku tade hati nk mengharapkan yg tinggi2. why? sbb aku taw tade sape mampu nk puaskan hati aku melainkan aku sindri.

so aku tpakse la blaja idup dlm kesederhanaan. cube letak org lain lebih dr diri sindri. *omg ni paling susah*  nk letak org lain lebih2 dr diri sindri bole je. bkn aku x pna buat. tp letak org lebih2, pastu org tu backstabbed kite, haaa, tu yg buat kite nk jadi selfish je manjang.

yg penting, I REFUSE to be anything like them.

minggu ni agak burukk and huduh bg aku. sbb minggu ni byk mende yg aku tersilap buat. tersilap ckp. ntah la. mcm2. aku rase ‘dorang’ yg effect kot. sbb hati aku mcm x best je bile dorang ade. bile dorang tade, otometik happy and aman. so apekah tande2 itu? mampu lagi ke aku nk teruskan? :|

untuk mende2 lain. aku serahkan pada Allah. kalau nk jadi, jadi lah. tade, aku redha je. harap2 aku ade kekuatan tu utk lalui, even aku tpakse lalu sorang2 je. insyaAllah. mungkin sumenye bpunce dr perangai aku sindri. ntah la.

So much for all the positive talk. still ade air mate tergenang2 sbb kerinduan yg amat. hahaha. well! i had a longgggg conversation with mama smlm. the longest i tink? we never talk like tat before. Im really gonna miss this moment. Mama cite sal Abah ari2 bawak balik ikan die pancing. da bosan nk masak. da masak kari,asampedas,sambal,3rasa, smpai tataw nk masak ape dah ngn ikan same tu. haha. arini dorang makan maggie je. haha. pelik and kinda cute.

Tp mama cakap abah sakit lately. batuk2 da bape hari. even mama cite like not in a worry tones. die cite biase je. tp ntah la. aku rase mcm worry smcm. :[

papepun harap2 abah cpt sihat pls.

pastu told mama pasal if aku bjaye abeskan degree ni, ak nk sambung master terus. lagi 3 taunnnnnnnnnnnn je! mama ckp xyah laaa. bile nk tgk aku keje ni. waa. aku ckp la. ‘ala, lagi 3 taun je…skang pun rase mcm baru aritu reg, ni dah 2 sem kt sini’, mama ckp ‘yela..tp masalahnye tataw sempat ke x..’ trus sebak pastu mate da brair2. x suke la mama ckp cmtu :[[

so okay. I tink im gonna listen to mama, and kerje lepas degree, and maybe kumpul duit for a while, and baru sambung master :]

well if you haven’t notice, mase blalu tersgt lah cpt. really. dah beberape minggu aku rase mcm ni. mcm tibe2 da jumaat :| mcm harini la!! tibe2 da jumaat. maybe sbb arini klas satu je kot. klas HRD cancel.  what had happened well definitely taught me something. I am now able to live with the fact that we could NEVER always get what we want. haha. kinda tragic that I learnt the hard way. but well, better late than never kan?

Okay moving on! pasal study, hmm, so far sume okay kot. risau sikit pasal Eco and PD.ntah la. makin jauh plak tetibe :| Decided to amik shortcourse for 2 subjects for next  sem, so arap2 dpt kuatkan smgt to stay here for another 2 month or so?

well honestly it isn’t that bad sbenanye. hehe. as long as my family is okay back there, ill be fine here. sometimes rase mcm mase tu bjalan laju sgt. feel like i couldn’t keep up. >.<

just harap sume bjalan lancar. hihi. x saba nk keje tetibe! duit duit!!

okay. its preetttay hot in here. so aku nk gi bersun- bathing jap. haa. omputih patut dtg arau kalau nk wat tanning ni. sini kejap je. haha. ok bye!

guess what happened!

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harini aku rase agak tenteram and bahagie. even smlm hari yg tak berape nk baik. BUT BUT!!!!! the major presentation we’ve been anticipating for, dah lepas!! hoooray!

and why Im so happy is that because it went so well, i feel like crying. the satisfaction aku dpt mase habis present tu. thats something different. of course mende tu takkan jadi tanpe commitment from all of the group members. not sure what others think bout me, bout I tink ive gained lil bit of confidence when standing infront of the crowd. AT LAST. lepas 8taun blaja maliza. at last, something good came out of it.

Past few days. some people being really really pushy and sgt menguji kesabaran. argghh

really what ive been asking, is just to have someone yg matang. ok kematangan akan jadi top priority. wait. one of the top priorities. kematangan lps iman. I did few mistakess jugak. well, blom buat lagi. but currently thinking of doing it. yeahh.

I realize that, someone you should be friend-ed  with spatutnye someone yang boleh guide or encourage you to do good deeds. not the other way around . but. since aku pun sgt lah benapsu kuat. susah jugak. ahhaha. Anyway, i will let my guts tell me what to do. sikit2 supported by the thinking brain. kalau aku x gune otak, mmg sume mende aku tibai je.

the FACT is. ade hati yg perlu dijage. and what matters most definitely Mama and Abah je. so yeah. sorry. i changed my mind. AGAIN. kalau aku buat, that would be demmmselfish!!! dah la aku mmg selfish pun, tp pas buat, aku akan jadi like trillions time more selfish. ada paham? so, kadang2 aku rase sgt matang bile berjaye kawal diri utk wat something yg aku sgt2 desire the most nk buat. but yeah. ade bende lagi penting dr kepuasan tu.

just i hope that i wont slipped and fall. mase tu menyesal x gune dah.

ah. didnt i tell u that the reason why aku dpt update blog harini is because no one is at home. sume pi Bukit Ayer? or Bukit Ayaq they called it. haha. aku x pegi. well, tade reason tertentu. just malas. and aku bukan anak org kaye nk bsukerie2 cmtu.

but really. aku harap sgt dpt bawak kete sini. its been hard. btul. sometimes i felt like im losing it.the only thing that kept myself apart is because i just cant let them win. :[

anyway. im having that good feeling, that everything will turn out just fine. just kene saba skitt je lagi okay! its gonna be over soon i hope. :D

heyho! greetings everyone! :]

Alhamdulillah. aku tersgt lah healthy even ade masalah tinge bengkak sikit. tp dah salu sgt kene so mcm biase je. cume tableh nk ckp or gelak or bukak mulut luas2 sbb rahang pun sakit.

jgn tanye cmne bleh kene k!

Cuti sminggu dah abes. seriously. rase mcm sekejap teramat2. Didnt spend much time with mama and abah as planned. Haih. nk pegi like on vacation tp susah ble makcik tu ade skali. :|

er. so ape je aku buat cuti sminggu tuh?

1. Balut buku
2. Visit UniKL and GMI for Quality

er. rasenye tu je kot bende bergune aku wat? lain2 just buang mase, tido, well I did main badminton 2 kali kot. and it was great. byk gak pluh kuar. emm

neway, aku balik on Saturday around 930PM. Alhamdulillah. tade delay pape mcm member2 aku yg len smpai arini x balik2. sbb tiket abes and delay smpai 5 6 jam. gile ah. Aku smpai umah sewe sorang2 je. Agak scary bukan ape. sbb byknye serangge liar di rumah ni. balik2 bukak lampu tade pun, lepas kua bilik 10min later, bsepah2 binatang!! tjumpe labah2 besar tapak tangan dlm gayung. nasib baik aku x wat mandi. yeeeecckkk! besar gile and hitam. Isa ckp tu labah2 tanah. but i dunno. pkul ngn gayong and buang.

pastu binatang yg still aku tataw ape namenye. yg besar and buzzing and terbang liar. geli. kulit keras. kalau pukul, die terpelanting sbb keras sgt. tp x mati. almost tpelanting kt muke aku mase pkul. pastu binatang tu kejar baldi aku tgh pgg. scary. tpakse lari tinggalkan baldi tu. haha

x la exactly mcm ni rupenye. tp similarity tu dah ade. pastu ulat bulu xyah cite laa. merate2. tiap kali nk pijak lantai pagi2. like kene betul2 sedar and mcm tgk dlu lantai. sbb the probablity nk bgn and tpijak ulat bulu sgt tinggi disini

err. okay. since aku sorang je kul 3AM ni kt living room. aku nk mengundur diri. later k! bybyeee

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one of the things that cheer me up when im so down.

Why do you keep making the same mistakes Maliza?

havent u learn anything from the past?

I’ve sinned.

I wanted to be a good friend. I want to be that someone, when I die, and theres people asking bout me, they would describe me as a great friend. the one you’d missed the most when that person no longer here.

and i wanna be that someone, who can change others. to the better of course. to be inspired by, just to be noticed..

it just wont work. not for me.

I was born selfish.

and trying to change that, is hypocrite.

looking myself in the mirror. haih…

im really dissapointed. with my self. with what ive become.

Im so lost. clueless. and im craving for that light, that someone, to come and guide me so bad. but I keep losing faith. It kept coming back. and.I keep losing it again. and again and thats just. tiring…

cos really. REALLY. I dont know what to do.

Im crushed that I realize now that I can never change. I can never be good.or sweet. cos its not me.

I was born mean, heartless and cold.

Those people I threw out and far from my life..they are the lucky ones. I chose all these paths I thought was the right ones..and of course. I was dead wrong. I was never right. not even once. all that decisions Ive made. that steps I took. haih. sume salah.

I really want to correct things. but seems like, everything yg aku buat, sume nye x betul.

No one knew. and no one will.

I really miss it.

sakitnye. :[

I dont want to wake up. it’d be nice if I could sleep forever. heh.

tat’d help saving everyone’s pain and misery.

hey hey! its pretty tiring today. Me, Allie, Miera and Allie’s anak buah went to UniKL. They called UniKL for appointment yesterday and they asked us to come over today. err. I thought no one was waiting for us, or mcm x kesah nk dtg kul bape. turn out ade org tunggu. and the guy ensem ok!then ckp2 dgn the friendly receptionist?? die ckp bos tade. so gotta wait smpai the bos abes class :|

so we went to Ayam Penyet and makan. since I brought my nasik lemak all the way from home, so i just eat the nasi lemak. just beli Mocha blended cos I feel like im sooo in need of huge dose of caffeine. RINDU!

oh wait. I think we went to GMI before makan. because we’re so worried that the bos tak available harini which die ckp pun die x sure kul bape abes klas and free. so off we went to GMI. hah. the jalan looks so familiar.patutla rase mcm penah pegi……….

mmg penah pun… even sekali dlm hidup. I can still remember crystal clear.hm…hate these kind of memories

but i realize that now i get tougher and tougher each time it pops out of my head. haha

ANYWAY, bjaye dptkan appointment dgn cepatnye. ha. kan senang kalau sume bkejesame. adoiyai. aku pun kurang pasti nape perlu begitu ketatt sesetengah U ni. padahal kami ni kire PELAWAT okay. and we deserve being treated the same, with respect mcm die sambut menteri dtg. :| or at the very least. treat us like people okay?

ade ke patut guard UniKL ckp ktorang amek pas plawat die satu. dorang bagi 3, ktorang pulangkan 2. waddehel.. bikin panas je. kamon laa. pas je kott. aku nk curi pun nk watpe jadah? siap ckp kalau amek kene dende nanti. prove us wrong la then. main ckp2 mulot je. sume org leh wat. wadddehel! geram aku tadi.

haih! anyway yg kt GMI tu, we didnt get as much infos as the time we did our OSHA project. maybe sbb time OSHA tu, ayah Tia involved. so mcm senang dpt access kott.

ah tapelah. we really did our best and we really really merayu2 gile kot mintak nk dpt copies of any data or statistics ke ape. tp x dpt. wuwuw.

but tapelah. the cooperation sgt2 baik kot.

our cameraman of the day! haha

kontroversi. BUWEK

okay gak. ayam dy besa~

okay lepas tu setel sume. bla3242. around 4PM aku balik. benti tgh jalan sbb taya kete brasap. ade van tu hon and benti mcm tlg bgtaw. thanks pakcik!

err. im not sure ape sbb die berasap. but probably sbb aku lupe turunkan handbrake :|

okay bye.

pastu smpai uma. around 8PM, kuar ngn Abah and Mama, and we went to Pizza Hut and beli barang2 skit and the main reason sbenanye nk cari kasut aku. tp tade size :[

I like that one sooo bad. tp yg tu la yg tade size :[

so besok maybe pegi lagi kot kt tmpt len.

zzz. satu haprak keje aku x wat lagi. hm.

neway tiket balik da beli. aku balik on sabtu dgn Miera and Allie :]

spnjng hari pakai corset. but SERIOUSLY. ttibe aku realize one thing. pakai corset and then makan, mmg buat ur appetite jadi kurang. 1st sbb that thing to tight on stomach, ur tummy mcm tolak the food. so nk tanak. u dont feel like eating at all. sbb aku x abes pun nasik lemak *last2 abes gak, okay tp sbenanye mase tu prasaan dah sgt2 kenyang*, padahal aku x makan lagi pagi tu. which is kinda weird kenyang cpt considering aku x mkn lagi harini.

so ill definitely buy couple more corset so that i can wear them everyday. yeah!

and i kinda like the feeling of my perut in them. mcm sexy~ WAHAHA. okay bye