tu dah cukup utk buat hari aku terase begitulah muram and gloomy skali. harharhahr. tapi aku telah bjaye menyiapkannya tepat pade pukul 3.45AM bersamaan Ahad. janji nk kuar arini (kejap lagi) ngn Allie, Miera and Tia. Janji kul 9 bangun. tataw la jadi ke x. sbb da nk kul 4 tak tido2 lagi nih. hmmmm. tp lege sbb assignment dah siap.
Tadi aku menghadap Allah. stelah beberape lame jugak aku sombong dan lalai. AGAIN. bile aku rase susa hati sgt. baru aku cari Dia.
mmg la doa takkan termakbul kalau camni. but really. lepas cakap and luah sume. rase lege gilee even aku mcm ckp sorang. zzz. Its just that, sometimes aku rase aku cukup kuat. tp ade mase, aku just rase nk give up trying pun. kalau sakit hati ni tade, aku leh je idup happy gile nk mampus mcm dulu. tp sbb sakit ati tu tanak ilang. and sbb aku tak pecaye yg bende tu leh ilang pun. So tadi, aku berserah lagi skali.
please please,Ya Allah. anything. tp just aku tanak ade prasaan mcm ni; benci and dengki ats ksenangan org lain. nk rosakkan idup org, senang gile sbenanye. and to actually lawan diri aku dr jadi mcm tu la yg paling susa. mcm impossible nk buat.
so disebabkan aku ade masalah psychology tadi, aku tetibe message my old best friend. It goes like this.
‘Hi! Thank you. thank you for everything. you have been a great friend. Have I really lost my bestfriend or I still have the chance to fix things? I really miss the old times. ‘
*er specifically I should have said, the old us. but tataw la nape aku x ckp cmtu. it was all random ok!
but die x reply. maybe dah tido. entahlah. just that rase mcm aku dah hilang die. hes really important sbenanye.. cume lately aku terase btul die tade.. aku rase mcm aku dah cube. aku ade ajak die kua jumpe sume. tp die mcm asek2 busy je. ntah la. maybe btul2 tanak jmpe aku? I mean. kalau tanak ckp jela. we’re adults. I can take it. cheh. maybe die underestimate kekuatan aku. hmmm!
xsabanye abes intersesi!
Oh. tadi Abah ade call. hmmm. cakap mama batuk. demam. teruk jugak smpai call taleh angkat sbb taleh ckp. 
risau la. sbb aku jauh. and sbb sian kt Abah kene jage Mama and my aunt tu. hm.
and sembang2 sume. Abah ckp pasal ZheMarleey. haha. die kate activenyeee skang. So I said sbb byk masee~ he said, tape , Abah support. nanti balik kite gi register SSM. awh. there was tearss~~~ in my eye. hehehe. Told Abah bout buying the stuffs directly from China and he said, no problem! one at a time k!
so cite2 dah tinggi. hopefully everything went well jelah. Amin..
Maybe I should be off to bed. kang x bangun sok ngamok lak Allie.
KUNGFU PANDA ONDAWAY!!
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