JustMarl

its 7.00AM and I still have not slept. WHHHHHHH AAAAATTT??!!!

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Done updating Lolly’s. Hm. Kinda satisfied with Chef Al Khairi’s blog. haha. even just copy paste html. Taught lalat how to use this cool windows live writer. and it seems mcm she already get the hang of it. andd yeah. so every updates kt chef’s blog, sume lalat yg wat. hehe.

tetibe aku dah terorder 4cups of chicken pie. WHHHHHHHHHHHATTTTTTTTTT?!!!

pagi2 ni slere lain macam. aku mmg lapa dr tgh mlm bute tadi :[

kesian i.

this week and next week aku akan busy. i need to do lotsss of preparation for the next sem plak. dah nk dekat ni. gotta pack my bag and plan on what stuff to bring nanti. mama pun kene adjust cuti sume. my ic belum siap. gotta make sure minggu ni gak siap. and my maybank card. and bimb online banking. and maybank2u pun nk kene wat. hmm.

baddebt pun ade byk. aku hutang beberape org. omg. kalau mati dlm mase ni komfem x diterime bumi.

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so maliza. dont die now pls.

okay.

arap2 aku igt nk baya. wey! kalo korang igt, pls igtkan aku k. aku kadang2 lupe.kadang2 aku blakon lupe spaye xyah baya sbb aku taw korang pun lupe. wkakakak.

mate aku pedih. tp my brain lagi sakit. mcm bengkak. cmne aku nk stop drinking coffee. its in my vein already. caffeine is part of me. wuwuwuwuuu. i dont want to let go. not yet!

but I can feel that something isn’t right with my liver. maybe liver. maybe usus. aku x sure. tp sakit around situ. and past few days, sistem pencernaan aku mcm teruk gile. i wonder if its because of what i eat? aku rase. coffee consumption still the same dr balik arau tu. around 3-4mugs per day. tp salunye x sampai la 4. 3 je. haha.

zzzz. okay xyah bebel.

bilik pun dah kemas.

Im not sure why. aku asik rase mcm, my time dah nk dekat. maybe not dat dekat. tp I kinda senses that its gonna be me 1st. adekah sbb aku selalu mengharapkan mati?? atau, sbb aku terlampau rindu? atau, just sbb aku selalu teringatkan mati. hmm. igtkan mati is good. tp igt but do nothing bout it. BAD BAD.

harini and smlm and besok maybe. aku akan lagi teringatkan mati. sbb one of my college friend meninggal sbb accident.. Innalillah pade arwah. bulan ni dah 2 org yg aku kenal pergi. so, tade lah weird kalau aku rase dekat sgt ngn mati tu..

just that.. Im not ready. Ya Allah. I’m not ready. I promised Mama and Abah byk sgt. please please. at least, biarla aku sempat jage dorang.

give me that chance. I probably wont be happy doing anything selain tunaikan janji2 aku kt dorang. em. hanye Kau yg Maha Mengetahui…

… alangkah tragicnye kalau mati mase tgh surf *orns.

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em. sntiase beringat mati ye kawan2.. aku pun harap aku x cepat lupe..

oh nampak mcm ramai member2 dpt Arau. hehe. Welcome! and yg still x sure nk accept ke x, pk baik2 k.. kalau leh, accept jela..ade hikmah nape jauh2! hihihi