JustMarl

bought the new book for RM50. tataw nape murah dr yg sblom ni even its the same book. igtkan lagi nipis cos rase mcm lagi nipis. tp same je :| ooo. mesti lecturer amek komisyen lebey ni!

met Miss Staffing for the meeting on this coming Seminar that we will held. Im the AJK for Peralatan, gotta buy the mineral water, gule2 and roti and files, pens. hhaha. tetibe ade makanan. >.<

anyway. kesimpulan dr sume crite ini adalah, amat penting untuk sy mempunyai kenderaan sendiri and if tade!! adalah teramat penting untuk kamu mempunyai backup plan mcm taw timing2 bus nk lalu kawasan umah kul bape so that kalau pape jadi, leh balik sindri tanpe bgantung kt org lain. seriously. aku pun tanak susa kan org kannnnn. really need to consider the car. and new rent house. :|

since i bought the new book already, harapan utame adalah utk x jumpe buku tu balik thank you. kalau jumpe, mmg tragik lagi sadis.

tapi yg penting it rains yesterday and today :]

felt like heaven~~

minggu depan test akan bersepah, tp aku akan cube x merungut and lalui ngn tabah. mcm sem lepas.  sgt x saba sem ni utk brakhir. it will! but wait. ade short sem lagi. haha. tape. susah2 skang utk senang2 nanti :]

a bad day. buku RM65 hilang. mane aku nk cekau duit?siap utang kt Allie RM50 sbb beli makanan2 skit. pastu plakk nk kene refund duit customer 2 org (around RM90) sbb barang tade and dorang tanak tunggu dah. terime kasih. duit kt cimb ade RM40 je.

even da terpakse msg Mama mintak duit banje tadi, mama maybe bagi RM150 je. meaning, sume aku akan gune skali gus. and tade baki lansung.

sakit nye hati..sakit hati sbb buku tu ilang. ok la fine buku ilang. tp notes? bkn sehari 2 aku spend time wat notes tu…

mane ade mase dah nk wat…

ok bleh blame mase2 tluang slame ni yg aku x buat pape.

okay fineee

sume salah aku.

ok. in a positive punye side. maybe jadi camni sbb nak aku lebih hati2 and alert next time spaye barang x ilang lg.

maybe mende ni jadi sbb nk aku kurus kot, pasni xdpt beli nasik salu dah..

mende ni jadi sbb nk bg aku kuat sbb aku nanges ari2 maybe Dia igt aku ngade2 sgt..

rase nk quit.. seriously.. nk quit sgt2…

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felt useless, devastated, torn, crushed.

on top of tat, arini aku still repeat one of the things yg aku dah janji tanak jadi..tp ter’jadi’ gak sbb x dpt kawal diri. so tu tambah lagi kekecewaan thadap diri sindri. mende kecik camtu pun taleh wat.

untung la kalau rapat ngn Mama/Ibu, watever ur called ur mother. sbb time2 cmni it’d be good to be able to share with someone :’]

tapelah. the less she know, the better.

the less i know the better.

its all fated this way. jgn putus ase kay? SHIT just happened. really. RANDOMLY, and tanpe belas kesian kt sape pun die nk kene. so tape. keep your head held high, and just accept it with open heart. Allah janjikan something yg lebih baik atas sesuatu kehilangan tu.

aku rase. mende ni jadi spaye aku rase kerdil and bersyukur. skurang2nye mungkin aku diingati.

Mule2 skali ak lapa. mane ade tanak makan or diet k..

hmm ade la sbb2 tetentu.

couldn’t call mama sbb aku tekad tunggu mama bank in sindri and aku xnk mintak2 dah

presentation for ptg tadi was a mess. not my presentation. tp sgt2 simpati kt kawan2 yg da present . adekah nasib aku akan same cmtu? waaaaaaaaaa

*xleh btaw kenape and sbject pe- kontroversi nt*

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starting tadi pun dah agak bad mood sbb smpai lambat. seriously. i need a car.

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minggu depan test hari2 tp rilek je. minggu ni baru start revise. haha. ape la nk jadi.

em. nantok. harap tido menghilangkan kelaparan. nt nk bgn awl skit sbb wat notes. lege sbb dah hari rabu :’]

PS/ bukan niat nk mengungkit, but it is hard for me as well sbb aku x reti la mende2 cmni.

now i have more time for myself. i should focus more. smgt skit!

maybe bile mase tu datang, aku akan taw sindri if it was meant for me. meantime, ill just try living moderately, treasure watever i already have rather than spend much time on things that i would never never get…

ah. living in moderation susah. tadi baru lepas shopping :|

tinggal rm50 dlm BIMB. okay RM50 tu kene simpan smpai mama bank in lain. takkan mintak duit. mama nk bagi, mama bagi la. i can do this!

i really miss it..

i love the rain. cos really. it could wash away all the pain.just for temporary. but. thats more than enaf. cos if it is up to me, bende tu takkan leh ilang lansung even kejap. ah. tp kt arau nk tunggu ujan. mmg x dpt ler. duk sorang lame2 dlm blik ni taleh gak.. mmg ak suke spend time sorang2. tp kalau lame sgt..mule pk bkn2. zzzzzzzz

can’t believe i let these things affects me so much and for soo long.

yg penting!!! aku tetap nk beli eyeshadow pallete tu. with the whole set of brushes. WOW!!!