JustMarl

Alhamdulillah. Im home now. selamat sampai around 9PM tadi. haih. balik sorang2, harini bas full. so it didnt stop kt kedah like it used to. yeaa. Im still sticking with Etika. hehe. sbb die bawak okay. x laju.cume the drivers now getting colder. dah x friendly. hmmmm. mase benti kt RR perak, aku beli 2 kopok. Bika and Cheezels. which aku rase sgt2 membazir. costs me RM4. kalau kt Arau, bleh beli Ayam besa seketul, nasik sebukit, hati, or telor mate. membazirnye…

its someone’s birthday today. I feel kinda bad. terrible. sbb bende yg aku paling nk igt, and janji tanak lupe la, aku akan lupe. maybe sbb same tarikh ngn aku balik. smlm hati riang je spnjng hari sbb due2 klas harini cancel.. so lege sgt,the report and the slides all done, we’re ready for the presentation, tp klas x jadi plak..so dlm mase sehari tu, with the bubbly feeling knowing you will balik tomorrow, buat mcm tgh terbang2. but yeah.. i know. tu bukan alasan..

but really.. I didnt mean to forget.. been waiting for today since last week…besides the terrible feeling Im having. aku tgh headache plak. not sure why. pastu rase tak gune. da la lupe. I couldnt really give him anything pun. nk wish??? sehari dah almost passed by. and aku baru nk wish birthday. okay aku agak segan tadi. tp aku wish jugak..

the touching part for me is that, spnjng mlm smlm we texted and even smpai harini pun text sume, tp die bleh wat mcm tade pe jadi. kalau aku? aku mesti grumpy and moody spjng hari..

so yeah. kinda make me sad in a way that, i wanted his 1st birthday with me to be special sgt. tp tak.

i wish i can be more like someone else..yg thoughtful and considerate. im really sorry that im not THAT.

anyway… the proper wish would be, I hope you'’ll be happy alwaysss, cheerful, emm, bjaye dlm study, get good grades and a good job, and a happy happy family :]

he has been there for me all this while. through my ups and downs. haih. im kinda dissapointed of myself. for being selfish again. rase mcm tak. tp sbenanye aku tersgt selfish. even when i didnt notice it. sorry.

em. moving on!

so i showed mama my bruise resulted from the bloody donation ive made last couple of days. and kene marah :[

mama x bagi derme dah.

tats my gigantic lengan. ignore the hanging fatt everywhere.

teruk rite? haha. x sakit pun. just kinda disappointed with the treatment they gave. they should consider that it might be my 1st time donating the blood. so shouldnt i be treated with care and gentle?? my housemates suh aku pi saman. haha. x sempat pun. this lebam jadi this bad lepas 2 days. org tu pun dah tade kt uitm. and i think this is my 2nd time derme with the lebam timbul after that. showing that the way they cucuk the jarum isnt right. because the previous time, tade lansung kesan. meaning the needle went in right. dah la spray je ubat bius tu. bukan inject. tp die cucuk jarum horizontally! like TIKAM. mygod. i feel the needle going in, and i felt the bedenyut2 lepas needle dlm tu.mmg rase kene tikam. seriously.

anyway. the good thing is that, for the 1st time in my life, my blood pressure punye result is NORMAL. thats kinda rare event considering that Im addicted to caffeine. baru teringat, that dah almost a week aku x  minum neslo because susu kt uma dah abes. so aku buat milo O je. WAH. x penah rase this healthy even the sad part is dpt taw ive gained 5 more KGS. ZZZ

i dont want to talk about tat.

Met this senior in the bus. luckily duk seblah perempuan. lain kali beli seat satu je okay! so sempat sembang2, and since aku tido je spnjng jalan, tade la sembang sgt pun. tapi sempat bagi busines card. hahaha.

and pagi ni spatutnye kua ngn Naguto, but tak jadi. and tibe2 Wani called, asking me tlg pickup Allie yg baru balik dr Indon tu kt KLIA. so okay. pinjam kete abah sbb nasib baik abah balik tgari tadi, rupenye2 kete wira tade sbb anta gi workshop. da pegi sane dgn smgtnye, bsame Iffa and Lalat. nasib baik aku x gi sorang. turn out kene tipu ngn Allie, cis!!die balik isnin kott. kuang asam punye Allie.

nt akan dicerite lebih lanjut for the next post okay! byebyee

PS/ oh. ade org tanye pasal why i deactivate FB.Marl Ahmad is temporary tak active. but ill be back. tade pape pun. just nk focus on Lolly :]

I wish you knew.

=[

past few days been tough. and rough.

AS I expected. harini berlalu dgn sgt cepat. I notice that alott recently. mcm cpt je mase berlalu. mcm baru je gi klas, tibe2 da balik. *okay i lied* time2 ari minggu je rase mcm mase blalu cpt. haha. dlm kelas rase mcm forever. especially subject kire2. zzzz

At least, aku bjaye basuh baju and cadar. lipat belum. er. notes belum. err.gosok baju belum.

OMG!! aku watpe je arini!!

….

bgn. makan. mandi. basuh baju. makan. pegi orange. beli ayam and nasik. kuah banjir. tp x sedap. sbb sambal tade. just a combination of sambal belacan and kuah kurma. emm. x sedap.

more like tawar. so x berape puas *even nasik licin* zzzz

Having trouble sleeping. sbb had too much coffee. aku pandang rendah kt kopi kapal api tu. color mcm x pekat pun mase buat. tp mmg KAWWW.

i need to sleep early sbb even Isa kejut subuh, aku x bgn pun. ….

PLEASE! tanak ade bad dream arini.

budak rumah da tido.

tadi dorang kua dinner kul 9 kot. kul 12am baru balik! aku risau gile. igt kene kidnap. call hp x dpt dihubungi ape sume. haha. dala aku sorang kt uma! Alhamdulillah, they went back home safee and soundd.

feels soo different without that loudddddd one around. rase lagi tenang. and at peace. we should do this more often.

haih..

Im avoiding few people lately. at times, rase rindu sgt. of course rindu. almost like siblings. but they seems so busy. mcm not sure nk kacau ke x. i know i know. probably they’re thinking the same bout me, sbb tu x nk kacau jugak kot…

ntah la.

>.<

i hope aku still diingati by few people, even aku tade la rase aku penting gile.

just , i hope they knew that aku sntiase igt dorang. and rindu!

and sntiase doakan dorang happy, and that sume urusan dipermudahkan.

amin..

Hey everyone! so last night was my 1st night without that 2 around. As I mentioned before, they went back to KL and JB.

It was crazyy night. abis SS ngn Isa, I still couldnt sleep. so teringat that 2mugs of coffee yg aku minum for dinner :|

sooooooooo, aku mcm notice ade byk those TINY BUGS color itam atas katil Tia, i guess it fell lepas kene spray and notice byk jugak kt katil ktorang..

goshthats why badan gatal2. so I decided, heyyyyyyyy!still aku taleh tido, why not aku gi basuh all the cadar and baju skali.and it was 2.50AM!!! so, bese jela. WAWA and Mira tido sbilik sbb dorang takut. aku tade la brani sgt, but id rather sleep on my own cadar and im sure my bantal busuk akan ganggu dorang. haha. lepas tu mase pegi kt dapo, tibe2 mcm 5 eko binatang yg hari2 sbelum ni ktorang asek try bunuh tapi it just wont die :|

even spray, die just mcm pening2 and pengsan tp idup lagi, up to 4 days!!! dem.

so bende tu mcm terbang secare brutal and just terbang like EVERYWHERE, so aku taleh expect die nk terbang mane, kang tibe2 die sesat dlm rambut aku, so dgn tgh pegang getah yg paip air tu, lari2 nk masuk bilik and tinggalkan kt tempat study. dgn sabun dah letak atas baju, tp x sempat nk basuh sume. haha. penakut..

then i had trouble sleeping.. pastu dpat the weirdesttttttttttt dream of all. aku mimpi i deliver 2 BABIES!! kt umah, atas lantai, sbb x sempat gi hospital. dah la baru taw aku ade 2 baby mase nk branak tu. so weird.

like mule2 kua sorang, then my mom cakap, oh wait! ade lagi sorang. :|

it was scary sbb aku tibe2 rase mcm ade byk baby dlm perot ak. mygod.

and tibe2 je tbgn sbb Isa call kejut subuh and aku rase mcm nk nanges sbb baru je deliver 2 babies. and I told him. die pun dgn mamai2, cakap, tape, tu baby kite.

WHAT!

aisjdaiosjdiasojdsianjdjiasncm

and aku bangun lewat gile arini. around 11.30AM. so made myself toasts and milo ais. hmm! agak2nye aku akan gi orange ke x? rindu nasik ngn ayam…tp malas mandi….

:|

so. we’ll see. zz