Hey everyone! this is gonna be a quick update on what have been goin on for the past 2 weeks. So, lepas balik Arau tu. finals menanti. sem ni ade 5 papers and aku cume confident utk 2 papers je. the other 3? DEM!!! I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT.
mule2 aku sgt bsemangat even 1st paper tu mcm ape ntah. tp mungkin bleh la takat lulus kott. WAAA. so there goes impian aku nk dpt 3.5~~ byebye~
okay i know i probably dont deserve it because usehe tade pun. haha. neway!!! skipping the sad heart throbbing drama, the best part is now im HOME!!! yepp. back to my smellyyy messy bedroom that I miss so muchh. 
Abah and Mama dah arrived kt Perlis 2 hari dah but they stayed at the Hotel dulu. So sementare aku bergelut ngn last papers tu, dorang pegi bercuti2. amboi2. mule2 aku excited that they came. tp then aku baru taw yg makcik aku ade jugak. spoil gila.
I never have the chance to actually spend time with my FAMILY sahaje. excluded her. yea, shes part of the family. tp not for me. maybe Im being paranoid sbb slame ni kasih syg hanye dilempar2 kt aku je. tibe2 terase mcm kene kongsi. even im pretty sure die xkn dpt kasih syg mama. WAHAHAHA. ok im being extra mean harini sbb aku penat. Harini pretty bussy with my TONING UP PROGRAM. so yall probably wondering waddehell is dat program all about. sooo, its my plan to tone up all this extra baggage and meniti hari2 convo aku on early December nanti. I wanna look great. probably I wont, tapi at least, I wanna FEEL great about myself. I know its not gonna tone up that cepat, but Im being positive about it :]
and yeah. I LOVE YOUTUBE!!!
OMG! the experiences i had for the last 2 weeks in Arau sgt berharge. So bagi yg tgk brite tu mestila taw yg kt sane banjir. paling teruk Kangar. aku tade transport, so aku tataw yg Arau pun teruk. Luckily UiTM tu kt atas bukit so org yg rumah dekat2 situ pun sume tumpang kt Arau. Siap kene catu2 makanan. Tade la catu sgt sbb ade je org amek roti smpai sekotak sorang 
little bit frustrated sbb aku x dpt roti tu pun. HAHA
anyway mama call hari2. you see, hikmah di sebalik sume ni is that aku dpt bonding2 ngn mama. we are pretty close lately. dulu x macam tu. I always feel like I cant talk to her about everything. well sbb tu la adenye blog ni. So mama risau aku x makan. HAHA. die x taw btape mewahnye makanan. aku beli byk stok. tp last2 abes jugak especially maggie. bape byk peket meggi aku makan. so kalau rambut gugur smpai segenggam jgn wat2 x bsalah la k maliza!!
lepas ni nk wat timetable utk makan. Im just gonna eat tempe,roti, ikan and gonna cut down my caffeine intake dr 3 mugs sehari to 2mugs?? aku taleh trus tinggal. nanti tekejut. haha. but I’ll try okay!! mase Form 1, aku ade diet maut. aku hanye akan makan roti 3 keping with milo kosong. kosong like really kosong. no gula or susu. and just ratah ikan and makan pisang sbb pisang wat aku cpt kenyang. and i drink alottt of orange juice (sbb lapa sgt I need sumting sweet so bad) that my palm changed color to orange and aku smpai kene wat bloodtest. haha. doctor ckp aku byk sgt vitamin C. I dont mind hearing that rather than die ckp, oh awk terlalu byk lemak. demm!
tapi the result?? susah nk digambarkan. I miss the feeling I had back then. about my body. Loving every part of it. hmmm
and sometimes I have that weirddtinglish crave for daging ayam. especially my moms ayam masak marah. OMG. irresistable. so aku akan makan. BUT BUT, aku just kunyah and amik the rase and juice. I throw away the daging. pelik x pelik? tp mmg extreme la.
but aku x rushing. so Im just gonna take it slow this time sbb aku bukan nk lose weight je. aku nk tone up balik. and Im excited!!
tp Im gonna pamper myself with fastfood sekali sminggu kalau aku bjaye ikut routine yg aku akan design kejap lagi. and besok probably aku kua ngn Kiki makan BK. Its been so long k! esok dikecualikan sbb Im just being normal. rindu sgt nk mkn BK. da bape bulan. so besok xyah diet.
mama bought 2 leggings kt Padang Besar which I HEART SOO MUCH!! then mase busy tumblr-ing, aku ter came across this one post pasal legging. bende tu haram, same goes to skinny jeans. and even aku plan nk pakai pun dengan baju yg panjang, tp legging tu sindri dah haram, maknenye haram la. oh man. da la aku byk gile legging…mungkin aku blum bleh terime perubahan ni but im gonna start slowly la.. I cant change drastic gile mcm tu..
Past few days, ade seorang JERK ni keep adding me kt facebook. He breaks one of my bestfriends’ heart and Im not gonna forgive him smpai die sindri dah maafkan. which gonna took forever I guess. Seriously. that guy is stupid enaff to leave this amazing girl. Im not sure if ade normal people yg dumber than dat. Dah tu die bukan add aku je. He added Isa which I find rather strange. Isa pun x kenal die. I dunno whats his plan but im not interested with his game. so aku harap die berambus dr idup ktorang. I hope she wont take him back. Please remember the pain he gave.. you dont deserve that at all..I understand the feelings. well how could I forget!! tapi tell you wat, watpe nk waste time reminiscing on the past..you have a bright brightttt future ahead..focus taw. you’re strong. aku strong pun sebab die..really. because aku pandang tinggi kt die. shes a greattt girl. just its a shame dat the stupid jerk didnt see her that way. but anyways, aku akan sentiase support pape pun decision die cos I have faith in you babe! I do.
So anyway. gotta get back to my dumbell exercise. Later!!
ps/ bear with me. taleh upload gmba for quite awhile sbb tpakse tunggu budget cukup utk new DSLR. so saba k!
