JustMarl

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harini aku rase agak tenteram and bahagie. even smlm hari yg tak berape nk baik. BUT BUT!!!!! the major presentation we’ve been anticipating for, dah lepas!! hoooray!

and why Im so happy is that because it went so well, i feel like crying. the satisfaction aku dpt mase habis present tu. thats something different. of course mende tu takkan jadi tanpe commitment from all of the group members. not sure what others think bout me, bout I tink ive gained lil bit of confidence when standing infront of the crowd. AT LAST. lepas 8taun blaja maliza. at last, something good came out of it.

Past few days. some people being really really pushy and sgt menguji kesabaran. argghh

really what ive been asking, is just to have someone yg matang. ok kematangan akan jadi top priority. wait. one of the top priorities. kematangan lps iman. I did few mistakess jugak. well, blom buat lagi. but currently thinking of doing it. yeahh.

I realize that, someone you should be friend-ed  with spatutnye someone yang boleh guide or encourage you to do good deeds. not the other way around . but. since aku pun sgt lah benapsu kuat. susah jugak. ahhaha. Anyway, i will let my guts tell me what to do. sikit2 supported by the thinking brain. kalau aku x gune otak, mmg sume mende aku tibai je.

the FACT is. ade hati yg perlu dijage. and what matters most definitely Mama and Abah je. so yeah. sorry. i changed my mind. AGAIN. kalau aku buat, that would be demmmselfish!!! dah la aku mmg selfish pun, tp pas buat, aku akan jadi like trillions time more selfish. ada paham? so, kadang2 aku rase sgt matang bile berjaye kawal diri utk wat something yg aku sgt2 desire the most nk buat. but yeah. ade bende lagi penting dr kepuasan tu.

just i hope that i wont slipped and fall. mase tu menyesal x gune dah.

ah. didnt i tell u that the reason why aku dpt update blog harini is because no one is at home. sume pi Bukit Ayer? or Bukit Ayaq they called it. haha. aku x pegi. well, tade reason tertentu. just malas. and aku bukan anak org kaye nk bsukerie2 cmtu.

but really. aku harap sgt dpt bawak kete sini. its been hard. btul. sometimes i felt like im losing it.the only thing that kept myself apart is because i just cant let them win. :[

anyway. im having that good feeling, that everything will turn out just fine. just kene saba skitt je lagi okay! its gonna be over soon i hope. :D