JustMarl

hey everyone! so aku selamat sampai kt Arau semalam. Alhamdulillah. I feel so bad. and yep. stress jugak. ala.. you know la parent kan. mcm dorang takut aku tinggal2 barang, so dorang mcm asek2 tanye macam2 tu ni. but now that aku mcm dah relax skit. mcm teringat balik our last conversation. I feel so bad.. :[

How could I treat them like that. haih. Im a bit dissapointed kt diri sendiri. rase mcm anak tak kenang budi pun ade. Im really sorry Ma, Abah. just that, yep. I have a little of anger issue. aku bukan la that type yg akan scold org balik depan muke org. just that aku mungkin akan tunjuk through my acts. macam aku masamkan muke ke, or jawab sjibik2. OMG.

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they have put up with me like too much. :[

sbyk2 aku tanak mengaku and deny so hard. rasenye its time aku kene terime hakikat yg aku smemangnye anak manje.

Harini mama abah shopping byk bende utk aku. happy mase dpt barang tu. tapi lepas tu rase mcm… ade beban kt bahu aku. barang2 ni. sekecik2 mane pun, PLUS duit banje sume. ade makne yg sgt besar okay. like sgt sgt besa. barang2 aku dpt tu, came with a PRICE yg aku kene bayar balik nanti. I just have to keep remembering that. Not sure bout dekan anymore. sbb ade subject kire2. =[ yes I have a good feeling utk sem yg baru start ni. but tiap2 sem aku rase cmtu :|

so that feeling taleh di applied kan dlm case ni. but I think I just need to maintain my pointer.

This is my first time duk dlm rumah sewe..Im pretty nervous and mcm tataw ape nk expect.

but I heard some of the common conflicts or issues yg biase jadi bile duk dlm rumah sewe ni kan. I just hope I would not have to go through any of that.

Abah and Mama dah odw balik ni.. maybe smpai rumah around 3AM camtu? Ya Allah. Lindungilah mereke dr bahaye and smoge dorang slmt smpai.. Amin..

Aku harap harap sgt. aku bleh jadi sorang yg lebih lebih lebih penyabar and boleh tolerate ngn org without being any less-assertive.

Aku bukan jenis yg boleh tegur org direct, satu sebab aku selalu pk yg, masing2 dah besar. ade otak. some of common sense tu aku rase, sume org leh pk sindri… so… just harap aku mampu la jage diri.

I know he’ll always be there for me :]

Sebenarnye.. mase aku try mintak..aku x expect die akan bagi pinjam.. sbb amount tu kinda BESA jugak..but turn out, die bagi pinjam dgn sukehatinye, and cepat plak tu.. :[

tharu sgt.

mekaseh syg…for trusting me. I paid RM100. but hutang another RM100. ni sume nk cover duit mama bagi utk blanje kt Arau. kene la tunjuk barangnye ade. *sbb incident purse hilang aritu, kene pinjam duit org utk cover duit hilang sbb tanak bgtaw Mama*

haih..hopefully Lolly dpt sambutan byk. I really need the money..:[

harap2 die blajar tul2. sbb tanggungjawab die besa okay. nk kene sare aku nanti. so mestila aku expect dy dpt keje bagus! hm! make me proud baby!!

so sorry gamba tade sbb last2 I decided maybe aku xyah pegang Molly dulu. Sbb kt depan uma sewe ktorang ni mcm ade construction area. ramai indon2 kan. takut barang hilang.. bukan like ade proper almari ke ape.. gune yg almari kanvas je..so maybe aku nk biasekan diri dulu duk sini, then tgk cmne. tape. bulan 2 nanti cuti Tahun Baru Cine :]

Sikit nyesal and rase bsalah ngn Abg bulat. sbb dr cuti sem nk jumpe ak. xterjumpe2. bukan ape.time mcm x kene everytime die ajak kua. okay maybe if I try harder, boleh je jumpe. tp macam malas pun ade. >.< sorry abulat…

couldnt afford to hilang anything for now. GOSH maliza. you need to blajar how to jaga ur stuffs okayyy!!!

besok klas pagi… emm. nt kene mintak duit buku plak lagi kt mama…:[

I have this weird headache bangun je tido petang tadi. demm. blik ni panas gile time tgari sbb matahari mcm depan tingkap ktorang je. haha. kul 8 da tjage sbb panas. harap2 this is a good thing. tade la tlajak tido.

I definitely kene nap now. sbb pening. bye~