JustMarl

hai. mase ni saye rase saye ni sorang yg sgt LAME. the lamest in the whole universe. I just dont feel good. I dont feel right. I feel mean, I feel like im the mosttt jahat person.and maybe because its so fuckin true, sbb tu aku rase sakit hati.

everytime aku pening, i was hoping. literally, i was hoping that aku ade barah otak or sumtin. and bile aku sikat rambut, tgk rambut byk gugur, aku harap aku ade kanser. and tat i wud die very soon. *ignoring the fact im so totally not ready to die.* but its good kot sbb aku sntiase teringat mati.. tp mostly aku imagine aku sempat diselamatkan cos it turn out the cancer blom tahap serious, cume maybe they had to cut half of my brain or sumtin, soo i lost some of the memories, and im so lucky enaf, the memories Ive lost is the one dr dajah 6 till sem 3 *the time yg i DONTTT want to remember the most*. so around 8 or 9 years ago. LOL.

could i be that lucky??

at times when I feel like I want to talk to someone. I wanted to call someone so bad. but I couldnt. cos. well I couldnt just tibe2 out of nowhere call anyone and bother people and blurt everything out with them having no clue what im gonna say.

soo

im just gonna telan it and tido.

zzzzzzz

at times mcm ni, i miss Umpa so much.. maybe die dah buang Umpa…

pnah tpk to get myself a new teddy. gantikan umpa. but who am i foolin? tade teddy yg bleh replace umpa. i miss his smell and his bulu yg berserabot tu. and his sponge yg dah lembik2 sbb lame sgt pakai..

…

hm. i cud really use a hug right now.