JustMarl

I lovee everything that has anything to do with managing the human resources. well tu sebab la aku amek course HR. hehe. Aku sgt sgt men-underestimated kan most of the reading subject utk sem ni. turn out, IT IS pretty hard. dulu at least bace pun aku paham. ni mcm, spend soo much time on just 1 paragraph pun mcm lame gile nk paham. the terms susah :[

semester ni, ade 1 subject, JUST about staffing and recruiting. tooooo many processes yg steps die nk kene igt. and paling penting, lecturer die hott. tapi, subject ni je yg ktorang x dpt satu group sbb kononnye die nk encourage the diversity. :|

org lain mcm bising2 tanak, tp my feelings mcm all mixed up jugak. maybe its a good opportunity for me to get to know other people. KOT. padahal abit nervous. just harap2 sume jenis buat keje. and kalau leh tanak ade laki. haha. laki taw show off power je. tp keje cacai marbai. hahaha. –> bahse ABG PALI( our PerformanceManagement’s Lecturer – Fazly)

Lifes getting harder and harder. I feel like quitting ALL the time. lol. bukan quit study. tp mcm. nk quit being nice. Im not that nice, I know. But Im trying. nk pleases everyone tu mcm impossible. I really think kite taleh salu sgt spend time dgn org yg kite salu jumpe. Sometimes kite mcm kene ade time for ourselves jugak. At times, aku just rase tanak cakap. better aku diam dr aku sakitkan ati org lain. TOOO bad. other people dont think the same.

Someone just get on my nerves. pretty frequent. tataw smpai bile aku leh saba. aku still taleh trime die cakap “aku buat mcm tu sbb menghormati maliza?'” WTF. honestly. die pk camtu ke?

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Byk sgt seminar ktorang kene handle. and someone told me aku layak jadi the PR. well, aku tade la rase aku layak. tp aku rase the job can be done. mmg la rase mcm takut sgt if x jadi. but thats something yg org normal mmg patut risaukan since Im being accountabled for that.

Aku rase agak bersemangat pegi klas, tp asek demotivated sbb bilik air ade satu yg kene kongsi  7 org and things get nasty bile sume org klas kul 8 :|

bile lambat, biase la kan. rase mcm tade mood dah. sume nk kene cpt sbb nk catch up.

Had a terrible day semalam. Thankful that I survived. but harap2 xyah go through that kind of shit in the future.

when things go bad, mmg mcm SEMUE bende pun x kene.

and sgt susah bile ade sorang ni yg sgt full of negativity. Sume bende perlu dikomplen. aku sindri busy pujuk ati to stay motivated then there she comes, throwing all that negative vibes around. Being an assertive and a friend at the same time. NO EASY task. u have to stay firm and hold on to your own decisions,but u need to say NO to your friend in order to do that. paham x???its not easy taw nak cakap, NO I DONT LIKE THAT, NOT I DONT WANNA GO. sbb biasenye kite akan cube please ur friends, lagi2 yg hari2 bsame tu. maybe aku still mcm x reti sgt nk tolak dgn terpalingggg lembut. but Ill keep learning.

aku nak jadi mcm stgh org, yg senang je tolak pape, tapi with that attitude yg org respect decision die even maybe terase sikit, tp mcm you dont really mind.

and im still learning untuk stand for my thoughts. not really easy sbb lain org lain care pk die, and sume org pun nk org lain ikut die. hmmm

i just hope semester ni cpt2 end..

duduk sini, aku blaja gune mesin basuh manual. and im pretty good at it. haha. 1st time ok! so mcm bangge sikit.

too bad gas still x beli. tataw nk beli katne. *bleh je pegi ronde2 cari or tanye org* tp nk gi bsembang ngn pacik depan uma pun mcm tade mase. haha.

and hari2 aku makan nasik sekali je. tp mcm x gune gak sbb aku amek mcm makan utk 4kali. zzzzzzz

baju da ketat. aku masih melebar. which is a damn bad news. sbb i have this desire to do another thing. tp kene kurus dulu baru leh wat. x saba! Isa is gonna be soo proud of me :]

his birthday coming up. and Im not sure die suke ape. :[

and im not really that type yg suke wat surprise ke ape, and everytime i tried, die jadi xsurprise da. haha.

rindu nk balik ruma. woo. besok eyda ngn tia, my roomates balik KL. sbb si Tia nk wat surprise bf die. eyda mmg suke balik. so i would not comment on that. so, aku sorang je la besok. >.<

kene make use hari tu dgn sgt sgt berfaedah. nanti nyesal !