JustMarl

woke up around 130PM. gosh. resulted from tido yg teramat lambat semalam. er. lepas subuh precisely. just determined that I wanna be a more responsible creature. well aint just to everyone around me.. but to myself too. I wanna be more responsible on all of my actions. and attitudes. hmm

so aku tetap pegi klas arini even Allah knows how much I do not want to wake up. tp nasib la tgari tu panas kan. lantai pun panas. tilam pun panas. last2 taleh tido da pun even I tried. zzz. Got 2 MMSs from Abah. ngehehehehe.

the most handsome guy!

and im not sure whats his name. tp janji kepale die bulat, I don’t really care. gosh arent this creature just the cutest thang?!!

so anyway, lepas klas gi teman Tia basuh kete die yg da mcm 3taun x basuh tu. *aku x kate cmtu, die yg rase cmtu*. so kalau banding ngn kete aku, nampak mcm aku x pnah basuh since beli thank you. but I don’t really mind pon.  so pegi laa dekat2 arau tu. ade la dlm sejam gak tunggu. pastu tetibe tgh2 tunggu, betul2 depan kedai tu police wat roadblock. and baru tia ckp, die tade lesen slame die drive ni. aku gelak2 je la, x bape risau sbb aku ade lesen so rilek la. BUT TETIBE, aku teringat, yg arini aku x bawak purse. sbbnye just right before that lalu kedai jual cendol pulut and tetibe mcm teringin gile. ade ngn cendol buah skali which aku x pnah try and mase lalu tu terliur gile and mcm da nekad nk beli for bebuke. tp nk gi kedai tu kene lalu roadblock tu since due2 mcm tade lesen, ktorang agak cuak. but luckily ade jalan lagi satu utk balik. so problem solved. okay aku takkan lupe bawak purse lagi. igtkan pompan tu bawak lesen! haha. lupe lak since tragedi rumah kene pecah masuk and purse kitorang kene curi, die x renew2 lagi. ngehngeh. pasal lesen aku xyah risau smpai 3 taun akan dtg k. rilek je lesen aku lame lagi nk expired.

ouh I gotta rase the cendol pulut before balik! generally my afternoon went just okay. Mama call around 9PM and we talked for 16minutes. Alhamdulillah mama da baik demam. Abah pun okay je I guess.rinduuuu~ but still tade pape feedback pasal niat aku nk derma organ tu. haha. so keputusan tergantung cmtu je. aku harapkan they would just give the decision thru sms ke ape sbb id rather not discuss this issue with them in person.

and ntah ape cite tetibe sorang budak ni call aku. tanye klas kul bape. which is rather freaky weird sbb minggu ni da last class kot and the venue and time NEVER change. so ape cite lak tanye sal time. pelik! and he never talk to me dlm class, we never really talk on the phone or msg skalipun, and he didn’t even add me on facebook even die taw profile aku yg mane cos he used to call me Marleey bile dlm class anyway. dpt taw from  a friend  it was his birthday harini. so patut la die call.! free! tp mcm la tade org lain. zzzz so aku msg die like couple of hours after that wishing his birthday and that’s it. I also found out from a friend that, die ni mcm terdesak nk cari girlfriend, and even aku mcm *er, why u telling me this*, aku anggukkan aje cos I don’t really care pasal die. zzz. I hardly know him okk.

kt sini cuci kete liuar dlm RM10 je. kt kl? tak dpttt.

ah. and Ive learn how to make a fishtail braid! and have made it perfeectly pretty. but not on me la.

I made this.

I had 4 telor harini. which is crazy. besok definitely no telur ok. bukan besok je. for ths whole week! ok bye. nyte

learn it from her tutorial. just google FISHTAIL BRAID. ;P

Alhamdulillah. hujan je 2 harini ni. which is great sbb kalau tak ujan, panasnye la haii. tikar buluh dalam blik tpakse buang sbb bawah die ade kulat. which aku x sure mane dtg air tu first place. ade kulat and ade semut. yekk. da la bau tikar tu busuk

and and, bangun tadi, terliur je terpk kan pasal ayam. da lame x mkn ayam.. so dgn tekad dan penuh harapan walaupun tunggu si tiarun tu nk siap haih! sejam jugak la. bgn kul 2, kul 3 camtu baru kua umah. kt sini mmg da taw la kalau kul 3 tu susah nk cari makanan lauk siang2 tu sbb salu sume abes da..gi cocok duit jap. pastu singgah SriWang, beli telo (byk sgt da mkn telo ni), pastu beli bawang and cili kering. sbb makaroni aritu x abes lagi. singgah kt gerai kecik tepi jalan on the way balik umah sewe. aku beli 2 ketul ayam, RM4. amek ko. tp x kesah la. mcm x saba nk lahap ayam tu time tu gak. haha. balik uma siap sempat gi rebus cili kering sume, tumbuk2 bawang and cili tu, (sume manual k!), perut da bunyi2 sbb da nk kul 5 tp x mkn2 agi. baik aku pose weh!

anyway, siap la akhirnye makaroni. makan ngn ayam kari and ayam masak cili api aku beli tadi. tp aku abeskan ayam kari je la. mlm baru mkn ayam lagi sketul tu. lapa nye pasal. x cukup ayam, mentang2 beli spapan telo tadi, terus goreng telo. so lauk aku agak mewah arini. makan ngn lajunye, tp sadly sungguh pedas.

tp kene abeskan gak. so sambil2 makan, tetibe teringat Mama. since the last text ngn Abah pasal nk donate organ, Abah kate nt nk call, tp tak call2 pung. so aku call Mama. tp line x clear. teruk betul line sini. putus2 je. pastu msg2, mama tanye la, ade duit tak, mcm da lame je tak mintak. hihihii. aku pun rase cmtu, nampaknye mmg jimat gile kot. sehari mkn skali je. puase la so tade la rase rugi sgt kan. even ade sikit je, rm30 je dlm bank. tp cukup la tu kot. aku takkan withdraw da. great plan, minggu depan baru suh mama bank in, mase nk balik tu. hehehehe.

x saba! rindu rendang. nt aku nk blaja wat rendang.  byk mende nk wat balik kang. hopefully tak lupe buat snarai. aku nk buang sume barang2 lame. adiah2, kenangan2 yg bagi sakit tu. eerr. tp nt aku nyesal tak agak2? hmm. tp dah niat aku mmg nk buang terus sume tu dr idup ak. kene buang la kot… cos theres nothing left. not even sikittttt skelumit syg. on behalf of him la. hmmm

pastu nk setel ZheMarleey cpt2. and back on business scpt yg bleh!yeah!! aku minat masak. maybe aku leh blaja mase cuti ni. pastu mane la taw kan kan, melebar sayap wat cake plak ke. pergh.

ok angan2 sume tu. diam x diam, minggu depan je dah nk final da. rase mcm kejap sgt plak. hahaha. siyes. aku mcm lost track of time. taw2 je da 12 june. wow. gile ah. test will be on the 20th. tp tak bgtaw mama lagi, sbb nk wat seprais balik

hopefully everything went well. Amin..

Done! aku ngn Tia (my housemate) tak study lansung the whole nite. just facebook, movie, download lagu, and facebook lagi. seriously. terlampau bersukerie. Now die dah tido, baru leh update blog. teehee. its Day 4 of heart-aching, and Im still surviving. Alhamdulillah. So the test went great I think. we actually held the test at the library. OPEN LIBRARY my lecturer called it. haha. thank god boleh bincang sume. so rasenye sume soklan dpt jawab kot. kalau aku salah, sume yg tiru aku salah gak. haha.

harini tak puase. cos its Friday. and aku pk mcm nk rest kejap sbb at least aku dah habiskan puase nazar aku. tinggal 6 hari lagi pose ganti. which maybe aku akan pose arini  

It’s a pretty weird thought. rasenye aku terlampau caught up with those vampire thingy. I kinda like the feeling of hunger. Sbb buat aku rase mcm aku ni vampire. and since aku tableh feed on people, aku tepakse mkn bende lain, err, definitely not blood. more like a synthetic one. haha. KONONNN. so nasik tu mcm blood. and bende lain is mcm sintetik blood. hhahaha. tableh jadi, bleh brangan jadi pun jadiii laaa. I actually feel alott sexier bile lapar. maybe sbb konon2 terase kurus time tu kot. hahaha. tataw berat da turun ke tak. rasenye tak, sbb aku still mkn mlm.susa nk quitt. balik nanti lagi la. tp aku nekad. aku nk live healthy, I wanna feel pretty and sihat okay. I want my confidence back. most importantly, my happy life back.

Its been raining almost everyday now. best! cume aku tade slimut.. slimut aku balut skali ngn toto sbb my toto is too nipis… slame ni kan panas, so bile die ujan mcm time pagi2. aku akan tbgn sbb sejuk sgt.

Im still trying to fix things with some people. aku tanak cari dorang, or in my other word, kacau dorang. if anything, they’ll know where to find me. aku tanak came out of the blue uninvited bak kate Adele.

cuti 2 bulan nanti, aku rase mcm tak saba sgt. sbb aku nk try to realllllyyyy make sure this time, aku takkan spend dgn sia2. hahaha. nampak sgt niat murni tu tak pernah direalisasikan. zzz. nk visit rumah baru tu. x saba nk pindah! live a new life. I know. it felt macam, dah lambat sgt2. tp ntah la..maybe ade kot nanti dat someone yg dtg n dpt bukak hati bla3242. who noes. and most importantly. who cares

almost 4AM. I should be off to bed. so later

baru abis kelas! tpakse gi kelas petang sbb pagi tadi x terbangun. tido mati suda. rupe2nye bgn2 tgari tu tgk kt luar jalan sume basah. oo. so smlm ujan. patutla tido sejuk je!

Adele–Someone Like You

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you're
Married now
I heard
That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you
Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over
Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

suits everything perfectly.

trying to take a nap. tbangun balik cos dpt call from a friend. haih. tapelah, maybe aku bukan ditakdirkan utk tido. hehe. tgh basuh baju anyway. plus bgn2 tgk da 6.30PM. like, WOAH, cpt gile! mcm baru tadi tgk jam kul 530PM!

clueless nk berbuke pe arini. ade roti, telo and cucur bilis! tadi singgah stall tepi jalan jual CoconutShake. Sedapp sbb air gula die wangi air gula die letak daun pandan. nyummm. so float die rase mcm lagi sedappp. sume air die singgit k. aritu pegi bazar dekat ngn umahh tu, coconut shake die RM2, kecik half dr yg jual kt sini. takla sedap mane pun . aku sedut skali je abes da!!

anyway. sblom smpai kelas tadi, aku text Abah. aku ckp '

‘Slm, abah, tadi Liz baru register organ transplant. Not sure hows the best way to inform Mama and Abah, but family gotta be informed. what do you think?’

Abah replied.

‘Well, you should have discussed before you register.. >.< it’s a new thing which ulama’ is having pros and cons about it, mama may not like it, Abah can accept in protest, but overall it may be okay ‘

Abah always know the right thing to say. Almost shed me into tears. hehe. Abah cakap die bincang ngn mama, nanti die call. bdebar2 ala2 mcm nk gi wat Mock Interview time sem 3. haha

anyway. I have a good feeling about this. tak terpk lagi ape next decision aku kalau Abah and Mama x bagi. tp rasenye, they will support. cos that’s just what they do slame ni. kalau tak, ntah. lets just wait and see.

my hair sgt sgt in kronik condition. gotta go rebond. tp takkan nk mintak duit mama? waaaa. so aku pk, maybe nanti mase cuti kot nk keje. havent decided where. but surely ade je rezeki kt mane2 kan? kalau malas tataw la. atau pun last2 mintak duit mama gak. hehehehe

tapi kene wat kt Perlis sbb murahhhhh. so tade choice, tunggu balik sini nt je kot? untung la yg dpt PT tuuu. tiap2 bulan tuka enponnn.

besok test 2! tp x risau lansung sbb boleh open book. AGAIN. haha. final aku nanti tataw la cmne..manje sgtt ni. assignment sume lecturer suap je markah.

jap gi nk bebuke da. slmt berbuka