JustMarl

hey everyone! haha. ok my 2 days in PD been OKAY.I had tinyyy bitt of fun la jugak even we (me, abah and mama) don’t  really participate in any of the sports event. HAHAHAHA!

mama lagi pandai ngelat dr aku rupenye…we gave our names for the Balingan Kasih? eh. dat doesnt sounds right. em. Jalinan Kasih? lambungan Kasih? or something. ala. game yg mule2 baling telur antare 2 person dekat2. makin lame makin jauh. couple yg still dpt tngkap the eggs menang. haha. tgk2 ramai gile join,  and sume org yg join tu husband and wife. so aku ngn mama pun mcm segan kot nk masok. so ktorang wat2 busy main game kt pantai. hahahaha.

Its my first time main the so called banana boat. or pencil boat? sbb die x mcm banana dis one. haha. oh gmba ade kt mama. and I dont think will upload them sbb trust me. u dun want to see them k! haha. dtang2 acare, mekap tebal kott, dah tgari, da cair, pastu da masuk air, kua air tudung aku da senget2. hahahahaha. ok aku  mmg nampak mcm org gile terencat yg main air but who cares?! I had fun with Abah! haha. mama not the type yg suke mende2 cam tu. like bpusing2 dlm air and kene jatuh dlm laut. haha. mama ckp die takut air. and aku baru taw! aku takut gak. takut jaws :| but heck. Abah mcm excited sgt. because we both spend time with each other kan. I had fun. and thats one of the memories yg I will treasure. well nampak mcm family trip yg biase jee. tp meant something to me. because its been like yearsssssssssss we didnt go for trip mcm tu..

well. my family bukan like kaye. we dont have money kalau nk pegi vacation even stiap sem break. and mama jenis kumpul cuti for extra2 emergency cases. so she definitely takkan amik cuti just untuk trip2 mcm ni.. plus they’re both too busy kerja. mane ade mase..so x pelik la kot. lol.

oh. dem ! aku igt nk cite ikut chronology. hahaha. terlalut2 lak. okay tape. so lets start dr Saturday!

Saturday – 27th November 2010

I didnt get much sleep last nite. spent the whole morning til subuh online je sbb takut tade mase nk online bile smpai kt PD. nanti rindu!! Mama kejut kul 10AM suh kemas2 beg sume. and I had terrible headache! hm.. makin kerap lately.. nk kate stress. ape sgt je aku wat?

and kedit dah abis. taleh nk msg sape2 pun. dem bored. butt then I decided that maybe aku patut bawak lappy sbb mase check email, ade customer nk order barang. which gets me so excited. so aku rase penting ni. mesti kene bawak lappy. So ktorang bertolak around noon. and arrive dah late petang. Bukan lame sgt pun nk smpai PD tu kan. Neway, we stayed in the Regency Hotel? biase jee. yg penting ktorang dpt bilik besaaa gile. die mcm bilik, tp dlm die mcm rumah. ade 2 tingkat. 2 bilik kt ats, 2 blik kt bawah. sbenanye kitorang patut duduk 4 families, tapi lagi 2 x dtg and dah bayar. so ktorang nk duk sorang sblik pun bleh! haha.

My aunt mcm hilang akal kejap. die x biase umah besa2. dlm uma tu pun leh sesat. beg letak tmpt lain, die masuk blik org lain cari beg die. :| pastu toilet ade kt dlm sume blik, tp mlm2 die gi turun bawah sbb cari toilet.. ok malas cite sal die. spoil mood. Now aku dah taw reason sebenar nape sdare2 lain tanak jage die. LOL. and sorry to say, mende yg aku taw tu, membuatkan aku lagi hilang hormat kt die.

anyway!!smpai kt sane. tade plug. dem! so mase Abah gi bandar to get a hair cut. kirim kt Abah extension. pastu Abah balik, dgn segere aku online and settle sume payment kt supplier and yadayadaa. so just tinggal barang sampai :]

ouh I so cant wait for PC Fair! nk beli external andd new printer.

Malam tu dinner kt tepi pantai. I love the smell of the air masin and the sound of ombak.. sejuk sikit hati… just too bad x dpt bawak future DSLR tu skali.. so mcm tade mood nk ambek2 gmba pun.. plus sbb aku gain weight mendadak sgt, aku sindri dah mcm tade smgt nk amek gmba cos I dont feel pretty. hahahaaha.

Sunday – 28th November 2010

Even start at 7AM. tp ktorang pegi breakfast mase pukul 8.30AM dah kot. haha. ala, awal2 tu start dgn game budak dulu.. demm aku suke sgt tgk laki yg like dukung anak, and then tgk muke dorang mase anak dorang lari2 mase game smbil like jerit2 bagi support. haha. Pastu time ptandingan melukis. si bapak yg lebey2 smgt kale2 dr anak die. padahal ley tlg skit2 je. hahahaha. sonok tgk family org :]

and dulu2 penah rase like, I hate my parent because they never understand me. but luckily aku x de la wat mende extreme macam lari dr umah even aku dah penah try buat. and aku endup duk depan pintu the whole nite. brthan 30min je. pastu masuk umah sbb lapa. hahahahahaha! but … I tink Im pretty lucky.. than those yg dah hilang family members. Like, camne aku nk truskan idup without Mama and Abah with me? God.. I cant imagine.. Please please. make mama and abah live forever with me..

oh suke selitkan emo kt mende2 kecik. hahaha. sorry!

anyway. moving onnn! so dah nk dekat tgari tu la aku naik PENCIL BOAT and the other one maybe SOFA BOAT? dunno what its called, tp die bentuk bulat and mcm kerusi sofa. gosh bile die pusing2 tu. haha. thrillllingg!! and yeah. lagi extreme sikit dr banana boat. demm rase tkilan sgt tade gmba :[

oh!! I have awesome news!! Lepas bincang ngn mama and abah. hehehehe. they say they would tlg bayarkan half duit DSLR nanti. yay!!!!!! Im soooooooooo freakinggggggg excited. and dah suh Anees quotekan price DSLR utk aku. so aku da bagi mcm few models kt die. harap2 within budget… *Anees kate bos die leh beli DSLR murah sbb terus beli direct kt dealer, sbb tu aku mcm kirim kt dy

And da lepas penat , kitorang pack2 barang and terus balik! Mama dpt adiah cabutan bertuah, dpt shelf kt dinding yg aku nak sgt2. hehe. x saba nk letak kt blik baru!

Smpai umah around 5PM. and Lalat call few times, ajak kua. So we went to Alamanda, aku dah kate tanak makan. and stiap kali aku ckp cmtu aku taw aku akan beli Chocolate Dip *coklet die like byk gile. smpai menitis2! and guess wat. aku beli 2!!!!!!!!!!! arghhhh. and mesti beli ngn lemonade. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

so arini extremely ramai org. kamon la. ape yg best sgt Alamanda tu? and I hate walking among with the huge crowd. macam rimas. jalan pun sempit. and dahla ade org tu suke duk tgh2 jalan bersembang wat meeting. demm. so si Lalat makan LengCheeKang and Effa beli Cendol yg die mengidam sgt. tp sedap gak cendol tu.

So makan la kitorang kt meje tinggi tepi escalator nk gi GSC tu smbil tgk2 muke org lalu lalang and berangan. haha. so dah bosan kitorang balik aa!

:| camtu je spend mase. tak sihat lansung!!

anyway. nk cover balik 2coklet aku makan tadi. Petang ni InsyaAllah aku akan gi jogging ngn Lat. JOGINGG KEEE??? tp tataw la cmne kan. tgk keadaan. hehehe

Anyway. to my special friend; Farhaneez Ghaffar. Congrats babe!! die dpt UiTM Sri Iskandar rasnye. course Business Eco? hhehe. untung laa nanti jadi marketing assistant/accountant aku k!

and my close facebook friend, Inang Majmin. Harap2 your mom and your grandmom cepat sembuh.. and Sorry to hear bout your Atuk.. Semoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg beriman..Amin..

PS/ hm! Maybe I gotta do some updating on my TO-DO-LIST and wishlist.

As usual. Its a freakiinn 4:30AM and I couldnt shut my eyes just yet. Mulenye aku mmg nantok sgt2… and nk tido dah… ntah cmne la. aku click2 and click. papp! tebace sumting. yg aku x patut bace..

aku geram ngn diri sindri sbb membenarkan diri aku bace. and God knows how I wish I hadnt read it.

because Im hurt.

but hurt in a sense that I think I understand why she did that..

because I penah imagine how would it feels like, to be her. and mestilah xkn bleh imagine. but for sure, I know its not easy to be her. We have our own problems and aku pun same. tp camne aku cube bandingkan masalah aku ngn die pun, aku mcm x penah rase aku mampu wat mcm ape die mampu wat..

maybe I just look up to her tinggi sgt?? So yeah. I know it must be hard for her to try to pleases everyone knowing that you never could. But the endless efforts?? bagi aku, too noble..

but.. Im so sorry…

Im not you.. knowing that Im not supposed to take this personally but I did anyway. and ntah la..Why do I feel so… crushed?? betrayed? torn apart?? remuk?? like it happen justtt the way it did back then all over again??

I cant do this .. not the way you do things. I cant.

Im sorry. I hope you understand that I have to avoid you. I love you. and yes. you are very important to me. I would never never never forget the happy moments, even the sad ones, that we had. Well, Im sure you’d do better without me anyway.. Im sure. Thats why Im so determine to leave..

Its not your fault. Its always my fault…If God give us the chance to  meet again, say 50 years from now? lol. I promise I will explain everything. but till then.. I will always pray for you. You probably wont even notice that I dah tade. but..thats okay. That would be easier for you..

you know that no one can hurt you. unless they’re important……

Someone asked ‘Awak tanak forgive her?’

and I was like. tegamam for awhile. like. why havent I thought of that *seriously enaf* before? like. I just realized that forgiving is an option. I realized it is now but its just that my heart dont want to..

But….well, maybe considering what shes been thru..maybe she deserve to be happy. well who the hell knows that Im the one who gotta pay for tat kan??Someone gotta suffer in order someone else to be happy I guess. Maybe die penah rase this kind of pain. or maybe die penah rase lagi teruk? maybe my problem isnt that bad. maybe Im the one who complicate things. maybe she IS a mangse keadaan like she claimed. I just want to stop thinking..

Dear Allah…I forgive her… and IF Ive ever sinned towards them *dosa yg disengajekan or x*, I hope they would forgive me too. =’[

Ya Allah… can you just.. take away this pain…?? Please open my heart and let me move.

because how much it hurts me for living in the memories of the past, it hurts him more. who have to listen to me who cant move on.

I wish I can be better for you..… Such a big innocent heart, but I couldnt fit in..Im sorry that I keep hurting you. I wanted the pain to go away as much as you do. but they just keep coming back…

had to go to PD this Saturday. and even mama macam excited gile and dah pesan kt aku awal2 supaye aku masuk sume sukan yg dorang wat, aku x rase excited pun. Aku rase malas. sedih. lagi2 sedih. hahah. tp mmg tu la aku rase. aku membayangkan sebosan2 aktivit yg dorang akan anjurkan. OR I might be wrong. tp yg penting aku x rase beminat pun nk join. ntah la. dgn kemere tade nye. dgn taleh bawak lappy. Im not gonna be able to on9 utk couple of days! demm!!

OMG! Im turning to one of those anti social people! welcome to the club.

Anyway… ntah macam mane.. tibe2 I feel like nk ajak someone tgk movie. and surprisingly, aku ajak cousin aku. yg dulu aku even benci sbb… well x perlu la dikenang. hehe. I guess, shes just being little kiddy back then.. and aku pun busy nk membesar, so aku mcm pretty annoyed ngn die. hahaha. one of the TRAGEDY i called it was mase tu dlm kete, and aku period, and mase tu bulan puasa. and aku minum depan die, expecting she would PAHAM.but she go lari2 and tell everyone kt kg yg aku ponteng pose. time tu sume budak2 kottt. malu gile. makcik2 gelak jelaa. sbb dorang taw. demm.

now that die MAYBE da matang? even aku taw die x pied lagi. haha. Well kalau aku yg dah matang patutnye mende2 camtu aku xyah amek ati da ye x? so yeah. aku tringin gak mcm org lain, rapat ngn cuzin2 yg lebih2 kurang same umur, rapat like kawan baik. bukannye jauh sgt beze umur ktorang pun. like 3 years?? So I was thinking, maybe we could be friends. cume dulu2 maybe we didnt have a good start..

Anyway aku saje je ajak die.. x expect  die nk follow pun. but turn out die okayy. since skang cuti skola kan, aku tgk die salu je online. mcm aku la. so aku mcm paham kebosanan dy. ahhaha. So besok aku suggest nk tgk 3days after?? aku dah stream cite tu kemarin! tapi x sempat nk tgk, get so sleepy aku tertarik wire lappy so lappy padam. and aku malas nk stream balik. OR!! maybe nk tgk haunted changi. mcm penah tgk online. tp gitu2 je. creepy ke?? :| takut plak nk gi tgk ngn budak kecik tu. hahaha! tringat last time tgk Death Place ngn Atheo, die takut2 smpai tutup muke gune tudung and aku tarik2 tudung die sbb nk die takut ngn aku gak. hahahahahaha

and she go pukul2 my hand. hahahahaha

Im gonna miss sume ni nanti…

And God please give me the strength..semoge aku x buat sume ni separuh jalan je.. I really want this to work out. and semoge aku dpt petunjuk camne nk solve that problem.. hmmm.

and I really really miss everyone… but I guess dorang sume busy.. so I hope dorang x lupe aku nanti.

oh last time pegi bank, aku rase aku terserempak dgn someone. he looks so familiar.. aku rase time aku skola rendah kot?? and ntah camne, the name Khairul Anwar asik keep popping inside my head. mcm tu name die? mcm btul..tp ntah la. aku mcm busy kot, so mcm tade rase nk tegur ke ape. LOL. its been so long… sume org mcm da besa2. hahaha.

anyway. at the end of the day, at least ade la gak mende yg menghappykan aku. which is smlm aku dpt call from Perangkaan, asking bout duit bonus if aku da dpt ke blom. haha denga cite akan dpt around awl bln 12 nanti? cool!!meaning tinggal mintak wang ehsan abah je spaye aku dpt beli dslr. yay!!

oh men. harap2 result aku okay. seriously aku dah x expect even 3pointer sume sbb Stat ngn B.Arab. gives me the creep. demm!

okay I guess thats all.. semacamane lame pun hari aku harini.. aku harap sume org kt luar sane xde prasaan mcm ak tgh rase skang. sob2. hope yall havin a greatt time aite. :]

past few days been kinda sadd for me. aku pun tataw nape. maybe sbb mengenangkan why all possible things dlm hidup aku ni went wrong. jadi mati kutu lagi. aku tido awl smlm, and bgn pun awl.

x expect any messages dr sape2. sbb aku taw mmg xkn ade.

zzz. so aku tido balik, bangun kul 12 sbb pening tido lame sgt. haha. why cant I just sleep sehari? wats wrong with tat? nape badan aku menolak mende baik tu? penat sgt taleh, tido lame sgt pun taleh. haihh~ mcm tu la hidup. paling terbaik is berade dlm posisi kesederhanaan. which NOTHING is sederhana dlm idup aku. tgk badan da taw. aku besa atas. sooo what so sederhane with tat? hahahahaha. So mintak maaf prinsip tu x dpt di apply dlm hidup aku. ok.

So bleh plak aku bosan sgt, kt tv tade cite best pun. alih2 cite Indon yg aku tgk kejap pun da kua2 air mate. sensitip beno2 ni..

and melihatkan diri aku begitu LAME and PATHETIC, aku pun mcm HEY! baik aku tlg mama masak harini. so aku pun gi dapo ngan smgtnye. tibe2 30min kemudian. aku da masak daging masak kicap. pastu now aku tataw watpe :|

kenape begini hidupku??

syok tgk org lain mcm hari2 gi dating. aih x bosan ke? haha. aku mesti bosan kalau mcm tu. tp sminggu skali would be nice :]

Kadang2 rase dengki and jeles gile x terhingge, even kt kawan sindri.. why? sbb bagi aku die perfect sgt.. die ade mcm2 kot. okay maybe die penah wat beberape kesilapan besar dlm hidup die, tp at least die nampak menyesal, and hey! sape je x buat silap ye x?? Aku da mule paham die.. aku da mule sedar yg die mmg camtu laa.. die bukan mcm yg aku sangke sblum ni. Im so wrong. so sbb tu aku lagi dengki. haha. Shes like.. tooooo nice and toooo kind and toooooo friendly. sbb tu org laki biasenye akan salah paham mcm die bagi harapan, sbenanye die mmg cmtu ngn sume org. haha. laki tu la pasan. well aku pun paham, with a girl that pretty, cudnt help it NOT to notice kan?

So aku jeles. sume org suke die. and I must say dat shes pretty lucky. even org yg aku lalu 240kali depan die pun, die x notice aku, dgn this girl, xyah pun org notice da. bukan takat notice je. almost with sume hot guys, sume suke die. WOW.

jeles sgt..

tapi pape pun, shes a friend of mine. hehe. so aku patutnye bangge ade kawan yg hot gile, tp x sombong..awww. and yep. I love her! and.. aku harap2 sgt.. arap2 die wat keputusan yg betul.. you deserve so much better. like SERIOUSLY.

so yeah. I gotta go mandi :|

kene amik mama jap gi. and kt luar mendung sgt. same mcm perasaan aku skang. just great. lol.

later peeps.

thats one of my all time favorite song from The Sounds. *Awesome band I tell you!!* selain No one sleeps when Im awake.ya guys definitely gotta try listenin to it. And yep. this is one of the song yg aku mesti salu denga kalau tgh emo. HAHAHAHA. As for now. aku tak sedih. tapi lebih pade BENGANGG gile ngn Maxis Broadband!!aku baru baya bill like minggu lepas kot!! takkan dah potong!!! memang la ade baki like RM67 yg blom baya. tp bleh je bawak bulan depan kot. bab potong2 ni cepat aje. Menyampah gile. And aku lagi sakit ati sbb aku aku penat gile arini. mmgla aku bangun kul 2.30PM which literally pagi aku start pade tghari. hahaha. but pelik aku tido awl gile lak. kul 8PM and then terbangun at 1AM!! demm. nape aku taleh tido je smpai Subuh.

MY GOD. what creature I am turning to!!

So here I am, got nothing to do. lagi2 taleh online. so aku macam tgh mati kutu nk wat pe and I could not sleep just yet so tpakse la aku update blog. Luckily Im using WLW, so bleh blog offline.

Oh ya. Spent time with Lalat and Effa today and I must say that I had a great time even ktorang pegi Karok je. HAHAH! My god. ktorang start with 10 lagu, then pegi baya utk karok lagi sejam. So I literally spent RM50 (plus baya utang Lalat, beli Pretzel, 2 plak tu, beli lemonade, beli rotiboy+ duit karok sume) andddddddd aku dah sakit tekak.

So ade la baki dlm RM10? tp tu pun abis sbb gi Pasa Malam. aku beli paru sambal (due lidi!!!), pastu beli sup daging+perut (yucks!-mama kirim). So skang tade wit dah.

I guess, besok aku kene setel sume bende, kene gi wat kad Maybank, pastu gi baya bil Maxis. Malas gile.

At least satu bende bergune yg aku dah wat minggu ni is setelkan bil konvo. HAHAHAHAH.

and maybe aku kene start organizing sume aku nye resit2 and bil2. bile jadi camni, dah susah la. kot2 la aku ade pluang nk saman max** ke kan, tade bukti susah. now aku dah mule nampak kepentingan mama dok susun and simpan baik2 sume resit. even resit mama beli vacum time aku blum lahir lagi pun ade. hahahaha. I wish I can be more like her – more organize and neat.

tooo badd. ni salah satu sifat peribadi yg sgttttt sgtttt susah nk diubah. haha. aku bleh jadi neat. tp usually bleh tahan paling lame pun sejam. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Oh tibe2 bleh on9 lak. haha. ok aku tarik balik ape aku cakap pasal maxis. hahahahahaha!

Actually, I have something to do. so I guess thats all for now. Later peeps!

Hello everyone!! hope ya guys doin great!

So I woke up at around 12.30PM? with light headache. as usual. rase macam hangover. even x penah rase. haha. but yeah. felt dizzy for awhile right after bangun. Tu pun sbb terase the phone vibrate. Luckily sedar sbb dah promise ngn Atheo nk keluar harini. She texted me saying die baru kuar umah and lagi 15mins smpai. so aku trus cpt2 gi mandi. and aku siap lambat gak. sume pasal tudung and sbb smlm x plan nk pakai pe. hahaha.and aku salah pakai baju cos the butang keep terbukak. kalau badan aku sexy tape gak. dr jauh org leh nampak kott lemah aku yg bergumpalan tu. but its okay. pengajaran is next time jgn pakai baju tu lagi.

So kt GSC Alamanda yg agak lame gile tu, mcm biase, tade cite best pun. ade like 5/6 cite je kot tadi.. sume cite tak best.. so rasenye Ath macam teringin nk tgk cite Death Place because she has been asking dr smlm pasal nk tgk Skyline or Death Place and since I watched Skyline already, soooo decided, ala why not la kan. even I knew cite tu gonna be suckk. but it turn out just okay. klaka gile yg penting. hehe. I personally think that kalau Thai punye cite, dorang mmg bab saspen2 ni terer la kot. lagi2 bunyi ngn tkejut2.. tp jln cite biase je kott.. yg penting yg cite 1st aku x paham lansung. hahahahaha.

zzzzzz

oh! before that ktorang gi makan kt Nandos. puas hati aku… sbb smlm tu mmg da tekad nk gi makan gak kt Nandos sbb aku rindu ayam extra hot peri2 die tu.. nyum2. tekecur2 air lio everytime pk..So I spent almost RM30!! utk makan je!!! tp berbaloi2 la gak sbb mmg ktorang kenyang gile. I literally ate like a pig. maunye x kenyang? LOL

and mase tu la rindu kt kmere aku… :[

akan adekah keajaiban utk result sem ni?? hahaha. pls pls. jgn fail pape dah. thats all im asking… byk kot 4 jam kredit. hmm

neway pape pun.. aku wish sume org all the best in watever yg dorang buat.. and smoge sume org baik2 je k :]

arini tade pape sgt jadi. sooooooooooooooooooo. tats all! bye!

oh ya!!! ter came across this mase cari poster Death Place.

mcm best! and confirm xkn kua kt Malaysia. so aku x saba nk tgk nt. arap2 kt on9 da ade. hmm

later peeps!!

okay smlm x berdumbel sbb tgh sakit urat. so baru lepas berdumbel 150 kali. ala. sikit je tu. tp stamina x kuat so aku x mampu nk wat byk2 plus aku rase urat bahu blah kiri tgiliat. sakit. tp baring jap dah okay. yep. aku berdumbel pukul 4am. HAHAHAHAHA

Neway, tried on banana and white egg mask. Campur stitis vanilla essence. and. I EFFIN LOVEEEE THEE SMEELLLL~~~~

so aku officially berbau vanilla. yumm. haha. nape aku x tepk nk letak vanila tu slame ni? zzz.

okay tapi aku tataw apekah effect essence tu pade muke. tp rasennye ok kot, sbb kite makan jugak rightt?? :|

aku patut tunggu die kering. tp dgn kehadiran banana yg dah dipenyek2. susah nk tunggu die keras. so lepas 40minit pakai = muke rase mcm dah kembang, aku pun gi cuci. rase best~~

nape aku sebok2 pakai mask ni? tu sbb aku beli compressed mask dekat watson. mcam teruje sikit. so dlm plastic tu ade like a dozen mask?? sume kecik2 bentuk bulat like 5cents coin. and bile letak dlm air, die KEMBANG~~~

ok aku mmg jenis cpt teruje.

okay aku baru lepas mandi. xpenah mandi kul 5am :| decided to mandi sbb aku rase bau vanilla tu kuat sgt. afraid I will bangun the next day botak sbb semut da makan sume rambut ak. dem freaky!!

okay ini sgt lame sbb aku kene btaw sebab utk sume tindakan aku. :|

and minggu ni akan menjadi agak memeritkan sbb aku period. so sape2 buat aku marah, aku makan korang k

GOD!! aku akan sentiase nangis bile dengar lagu theme song jacob…

dah tu da taw emo, dok mlayan lagi kan. well sometimes kite just kene nanges ok! sbb lepas penat, rase lege even the problem/perasaan blum selesai/fades.

anyway. at least aku happy sikit sbb rambut aku da pnjang :] yay! I kinda like my natural kerinting. maybe sbb mase kecik aku x potong style yg kene ngn aku, so aku x suke and panggg!!! terus gi rebonding tiap2 taun. hahahahaha. now dat aku mcm da nampak the wave~~ kinda sexy wat!! at least diri aku tergoda ngn diri aku. hahahahaahahah

Selain sbb hati aku tak tenang.. and sbb mate aku pedih. Headache ni tade tande2 akan meninggalkan kepale aku any soon. I tink maybe aku mmg teroverdose caffeine tadi. Well, tade sape ajak aku kua. and cite yg best kt tv arini just cite industan which aku tgk kejap je, then cite Hell’s Kitchen yg aku kejap2 kalih ngn cite American Chopper. TV ade satu. nk tgk, due2. soooooo. Last2 aku x paham cite Hell’s Kitchen and agak bengang sbb aku igt arini la finale. rupe2nye nextttt series baru yg finale punye. penat je nk taw sape menang :|

okay. So I choosed to watch the movie ‘A Killer Inside Me’. Not sure if its any good. tp at least tu cite baru laaa.

and saje2 nk tgk cite Lake Placid 3. kene ade mood saspen skit

nampak LUNCH2 ni mcm lapa plak. but Im too lazy, my eyes to pedih and my butt to heavy to move. so……

…

Hey! hows everyone doin?

Im having slight headache. and strain eye. maybe sbb spend wayy too much time infront of the lappy. My day is okay. Just okay. Nothing special. Mama cooked Ayam Kurma for dinner. Dah lame x makan.. Theres this week, almost hari2 mama masak Ayam Kari. I feel like puking everytime tgk kuah tu. HAHA. *tp makan licin jugak*. So anyway.. Im just saying.. Bile kt Arau, or even kt rumah. but bile mama dah lame x masak Kari.. rase rindu sgt. and like tibe2 ade that sudden crave nak makan ayam kari jugak aritu..

I’m trying to imagine what it would be like.. tibe2 I dont have her around anymore.. Like tibe2 tade org nk marah kalau aku tinggalkn pinggan koto kt atas meje lame2 pas makan. Sape nk tegur kalau aku asek duk ngangkang tgk tb like a dude and sape nk pukul2 pintu tu kejut aku bgn bile aku membute smpai ke ptg..well. I couldnt imagine that at all..

em.. Mama..Im sorry that I raised up my voice earlier..:[

Im really sorry. and I love you so much..

Well. Im just pretty sad and lonely today. I know Ill be fine, just that I hope the time passes by cepat sikit harini.. cos I cant wait to find out wats waiting for me tomorrow… part of me mcm eager lah jugak to find out kan,tp part of me, macam malasnye aku nk amek kesah. biar jela pape jadi…

Im still wondering, how come. Some people just so luckyy and bleh happy je?? and how come some people kene suffer utk org lain punye happiness?? Kalau aku nk pakse gak diri aku teruskan. aku akan cakap, ‘there’s always reasons why shits happen’ tp WHEENNNN actually aku dpt jawapannye??

WHEN???

and theres this time jugak, when aku suddenly rase penat sgt..and I feel so alone. because tu lah fact. I AM alone afterall. mase tu la rase kerdil sgt kt bumi Allah ni. and mase tu baru nk tringat kt Dia. Yep.. Just like now..

Why cant everyone…EVERYONE just be happy? like.. kenape kene ade jeles2 antare kite, nape kene ade benci, nape kene ade dengki2?

I started to hate those love stories with happy ending. because slame yg aku tgk, theres no such thing as happy ending. maybe that just applied to me alone. Who the hell knows?

Sometimes I just hate everything. And most of the time, I ended up hating myself, knowing that, IF ONLY I could turn back time and did things differently. Id probably doesnt have to go through this shit, or probably its not gonna be this painful. but tu lah. the POSSIBILITIES and the WHAT IFS… GOD!. its eating me inside out!! whats worst, Im not even a good daughter. not a good friend. not a good listener. I suck in giving advices where people turn out jadi lagi sakit hati or even hated me or menyesal gile that they asked..Im just basically, everything that everyone doesnt want to be.

If you cut and bleed. the pain. thats NOTHING compare to the heartache..or a broken heart..Sometimes I feel like its gonna take forever to heal….and when you’re too busy or too distracted, you’ll be just fine. Tp when tibe2 you terbau something.. Say macam bau biskutt mase lalu kt depan Famos Amos dlm Alamnda tu kan. haaaaa. then you tringat all the memories flashing back bangbanggboomm in ur head and mase tu you feel like nk bakar the whole kedai.

You feel so terrible. at least I felt that way. and I was hoping, sepanjang jalan balik tu, Id be in a car accident, or got hit by a private jet yg Will Smith naik.. and sbb die rase bersalah sgt, die amek aku jadi anak angkat. or even better, die turn out suke gilee kt my sense of humor that die kate, aku patut kawen ngn Jayden. YAY!!!

BUTTTT~~

life wud never turn out that way. they just wudnt. WHY? I dont have the answer. sbb tu mmg mcm hukum die or sumting. things salunye never gonna work out mcm yg kite nak bile kite betul2 nak. Sometimes mende kite nak just akan dtg bile kite paling least expecting it.

okay my vocab sume berterabor. It doesnt really matter now. Im just..I dunno. I dont feel good. and worst, I dont have anyone’s shoulder to cry on.. not even Umpa’s…

WELL, life still treating me gooodddd, like very goooddd. life literally spoilsss me, with all that yummy foods. biskot Marie yg terbaik bile cicah ngn tea o panas.. and as long as stock nescafe and milo ade kt umah,and as long as Sardine x luput dr dunie ni, I’ll be fine.. Alhamdulillah..

Im just goin nuts kejap. because. I realized now (just), that I dont really have something strong to hold on to. my will?? NAHHHHHH. Confidence? lagila….. Passion?? lost that long long time ago.

So literally. Whats left is just FATTT. nape fat susah sgt nk hilang bebanding dengan semangat or kekentalan? (amek kauuu).

dlm sume mende kt dunie ni. nape mesti FAT?????????????????????

It would be easier kalau aku kurus, sbb bile aku sedih, aku bleh spend time makan everything yg ade dlm almari tu. tp ni dah la tgh sedey gile babiss, tgh sakit hatii, pastu gemok plak.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

you cant do anything at all!!!! xkn la nk nanges je 24/7?? and let alone EKSESAIS. aku gile ape nk eksesais smbil nanges2 tu. aku tnk mati lemas dlm hingus sindri k.

well at least I feel better tgk emoticon itik comel ni. LOL. okay. thank you for listening.. whoever you are.. thank you.

So I just hope that, sume org sihat, and happy and smoge org2 yg clueless mcm aku on what to hold on to, in order to move on..diberi petunjuk. Amin..

amende ntah aku ckp. zzzzzzz

A person who intentionally avoids you , and hurts you might sometimes be an indication that he is so damn scared to fall in love with you ♥

A quote I stole from someone on facebook.

Okay I guess this is the reason to most of the things. Mybe betul, maybe tak. Well as for me, its not really bout being afraid of falling in love, but more to like damn scared that I might hurt you because… thats just what I do. I hurt people especially those whom I care so dearly muchos. Definitely not a ciri2 peribadi that Im proud of.. but entah la. besides that, aku ni extremely hard headed and degil. So I was wondering jugak. Adekah manusie di luar sane tu yg sebegitu tabah to be with me? jgn ckp sminit due. To spend the rest of their life with this hardheaded, lazy and smelly creature? kamon laa. Even ade org yg mmg RARE skali pun blum tentu mampu.

I guess IT IS true that if you dont have anything nice to say, then don’t say anything at all. –(NFatin, 2010)

hehehe. okay she doesnt know I stole this one. I know its one of your bubbly-ous punye personality yg mcm random and you always one of the kind that doesn’t hide your true feelings. tapi come on la.. we’ve been friends for how long? I dont expect you to jage my hati like bodek every secs or watsoever.. tp is it necessary for you to say bad things bout me, depan me? and even depan everyone. I know Im not as pretty as you are. YOU ARE PRETTY. tp I tink you’re prettier with that humbleness inside you.. Or is it me yg baru taw that your perangai memang macam tu? Is it me yg have to tolerate that? You see, Im not that kind yg have the courage untuk tegur baik2, or berbudi bahasa ni. Its just not me.. The last time aku tegur org, that person end up terasa hati and ktorang gaduh for quite a while. I dont want that to happen ever. I want to be honest. tp susahnye nk tegur sorang kawan baik kite at the same time, try not to hurt their feelings. And then, I would just say, Ala, die x sengaje.. jgn la sensitip sgt. Let it go, and aku pun akan teruskan je idup mcm biase. But then, smakin kerap die wat macam tu. Lame2 mestila pendam prasaan kan. and see whats happening now. aku dgn sengaje avoid utk jumpe die..so yeah. pendekatan yg aku amek skang, kalau tanak gaduh, avoid jelaa.

…

okay yg penting I gotta go watch Skyline! I dont care if I have to go alone, I will. Bleh add another one to my ‘First times’ punye tag utk 1st time tgk movie sorang2. HAHA. tp tanak weekends. Maybe monday? please please. harap2 cite tu ade lagi ;[

Now that he consider himself as a tool.. Is he? HAHA. Im not sure sbb as the matter of fact, aku yg patut rase camtu. Die da puas ckp mcm2 die nak, nanti die bosan die akan cari aku. so bukan aku ke yg patutnye dikategorikan sbg tool? FUNNY STUFF life is. Ive told you long time before. I cant please you. tp disebabkan yg you ni kononnye taleh putus ase ke ape, you stick around jugak. I wont change for you. I wont change for anyone. For watever reason it is, kalau nk kekal lame, mesti dtg dari dlm diri sindri. take the closest example, kalau you tanak ubah prangai you yg malas smayang, mcm I jugak, susah nk tibe2 brubah jadi org yg x tinggal smyg 5 hari skali right?? I cant change you either. When I tell you something serious, you always laugh at me like aku tgh jadi clown. You are NEVER serious. aku tanak pun kalau ko tu stiap mase serious manjang. tp please la.Ade mase aku nk someone yg hormat aku. yep, dah tawar hati nk cite pape. everytime I wanted to, not like you want to listen anyway, so xyah buang mase k?

you’re so full of excuses I cant bear to listen lagi dah. Kejap cakap macam ni, bile x dpt, kemainnyeee pujuk rayu. bile da dpt??? pk sindri.

time aku, sume taleh. tu la laki. nk tunjuk sgt kononnye pemilikan die tu. Im not your wife. please remember that. cube time die? ‘ala.. kejap je.. sblum kul 12 balik’

time aku, sume kene SKARANG! NOW!!

arghh. pegi mampos ngn sume tu. kan senang kalau tade pape. ha, ko tanak balik pun suke ati ko. xyah aku nk risau2 ke ape tak tentu pasal.

aku x suke k. aku x suke org tade pape hubungan bile kt public mcm dah laki bini. aku taw prasaan tu sbb aku penah wat cmtu. aku igt sume dose2 yg penah aku wat.  Sebenarnye laki mcm tu, x bertanggungjawab. Kalau aku pun laki, takkan la aku nk kawen ngn pompan yg senang2 nk bagi aku pgg2 ke ape? nanti dah kawen,die bagi gak laki len pgg2 gak, sape taw? Im thankful that sume still under control. and aku takkan let things turn out that way.

maybe aku patut lagi tegas this time. like 130% lagi tegas than before. so we will see. Hopefully He will give me the strength and the Guidance to overcome this. Im sure its for ‘something’ yg aku x nampak lagi kepentinganye. Maybe He have better plans for me someday. sape taw kan?

Aku mintak maap utk sume kepoyoan aku or watever dlm post ni. aku mmg tgh marah,and dissapointed that mende same mesti nk jadi byk2 kali. WHY THE HELLL, aku da malas pk. so yeah. jom tgk online movies!!!

Thats why I refuse to trust you. Pleaseee go to hell with all your lies and bullshits. Xyah nk blakon drama air mate with being so innocent and naive k. You disgust me. Really.

Im sure you gonna come and beg like ape you cakap? like org bodoh you said kan. yeah you will. tp xyah la blakon rase pathetic sgt sbb u da biase sgt wat bende tu. mase 1st time. maybe la aku nk tharu ape jadah. but not anymore.

ko pelakon yg paling terhebatt. really! I fall for ur lies like everytime. dont blame me for being so hati keras or watever. I wonder dr mane la sume tu? LOL

cakap lain buat lain.

aku da lame sedar. tp asik terpedaye dgn janji2 manis die nk brubah. HAHA me for being dat stupid.

its time for you to sedar that you wont change. why dont you find dat someone yg bleh accept that? cos Im sorry. I cant. I refuse to accept that.

you know what, I think Im alottt happier alone. Sbb mmg penat and leceh and malas la nk pk mende2 x penting mcm ni kan? Buang mase you, buang mase I. You’re not that bad sbenanyer. you’re a greattt person. cume I dont have that high tolerance when it comes to this. I HATE ALL THE SWEET CANDY TALK. aku membesar dgn mendengar sume janji2 tu tp no one actually buat ape die ckp. same la mcm you. so until then .

Goodbyee~ ;]

Got my old signature back!

yay!

*okay telampau teruje ni*

hah? mestila bukan aku gi amek kt blog lame aku tu. gile ape. nt parut bdarah kembali k!!

so i asked someone to copypaste it for me. haha.mekaseh sbb sudi dipergunekan sy… tharu.. =’]

tpakse gune yg biase2 je. since aku tade photoshop agi. haih..

sume mende nk buat. but I need money to make it done. so slagi tade money. I guess sume pun kene postpone dulu la!

ok later!

thanks Jake :]

harini bgn lambat even smlm tido mcm lame gile. even kt kampung, aku leh layan tido kt couch depan tmpt org lalu lalang smpai 5/6 jam. Tak tolong sape2 masak. haha. Abah suh drive but aku tpakse tolak sbb aku mmg x cukup tido the night before. Time nk lene je mama kejut suh Subuh and pack2 barang. arrrrgggh. and aku headache and mama x bawak minyak cekapak *minyak angin turun tmurun*

minyak tu aku kene bawak gi mane2 lagi2 kalau nk balik kg. sbb aku pening bile dlm kete. I dunno why. Gi KL ok je. hahaha

So aku rase its normal I have this MALAS feeling of nk bergaul mesre dgn sedare mare. Generasi Y (kot?) mcm kite mmg da hilang skit that sense of pentingkan sillaturrahim ngn sedare mare. Kecuali la dari kecik mmg da dididik mcm tu. In my case. Abah jenis mcm tu, tp aku mcm reluctant to ikut the perangai. HAHA

I dont like to remember names, like hafal name makcik2, name laki die, name anak2 die. pastu nk kene taw plak anak die blaja mane, sape yg da kawen, sape yg blom, siap taw yg mane dah cerai, mcm gossip2 ape sume. I dont find the kepentingan aku kene wat cmtu?

okay maybe mende tu akan jadi sgt penting bile sume kawan backstabb kite and we dont have anyone else left utk mintak tlg. last2, kite ttp akan turn back to our family kan? BUTTTTTT, I still like things how they are right now.. so biar la. aku rase kalau aku taw name singkat die like MAKCIK ADOM, cukup la kott. :|

Smlm my friend called. Which aku tgh busy bedengkur mase tu. so aku biar je. Die nk gtaw pasal da dpt umah sewe somewhere in Pauh? RM500. nt nk btaw mama. yeay!

Oh! and Atheo aja aku wat maggie goreng aritu. hey aku rase wat megi goreng susa ape. mmg x sesusah rendang. tp everytime aku wat, turn out masin sgtttttt. so aspek ketelitian dlm letak perise tu penting k!

so yeah. now aku reti wat megi goreng !!

Hello! its 3:33AM. Watched The Reef just now. surprisingly laju plak die stream, so membuatkan niat aku nk pakse tido terbantut. ok laa cite tu. ade gak part2 aku saspen susah nk napas, plus tgh baring kt this bloodycold lantai wat jantung ak lagi sakit.

and aku baru taw org igt ade this one onlineshop tu aku. sbb name die mcm name aku. zzzzzzz

and aku tpakse ckp da yg aku bniat nk jual lense! patutnye tunggu established dlu! da la blom start lak tu! arghh. ni keje aja la ni. haha

and baju aku x smpai2 agi. aku nk pakai tu kua nanti…

da tnye org tu die ckp minggu ke2 bulan Dec baru smpai..demm. aku patut beli je kt tmpt aku da biase beli tu.. hmm

Anyway. besok kene balik Perak. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Cant wait to get back home even belum gi . bleh x?

:|

and spent like 3hours kemas bilik je!! yep its datttt bsepah k. tp puas ati that now i can see my feet ats lantai. kalau x kaki tsrok ngn baju merate2. hahaha

ok. dah pening. bye. later la aku update btul2.

malas.

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bye!

Woke up at 12pm. which is considered demmm earllayyy!! because I slept after Subuh. :| But I had to bangun anyway cos Mama da bising lapa nk gi beli lauk. SO off we go to Alamanda. …

OKAY! aku makan nasik. da 2 hari bturut. HAHAHAHA. and bukan nasik je. aku makan AYAM!!! 3 hari bturut2. ZZZZZZZZZ

there goes my diet. I know people will definitely takkan trust aku bile aku ckp nk diet. haha.

OH.DAMN! my secrets are almost out. Gotta do something about it. I cant let people know just yet. Not now.

Ordered few baju which im not sure bile nk arrive. maybe lagi a week or so?? x saba. seriously. x saba sgt!

Besok nk pegi KL ngn Atheo. ade urusan yg perlu dibuat. And aku belum pegi bank. blum baya duit konvo. blom kemas bilik. :|blom lipat baju. belum susun buku. arghh

Smlm log in blogger. ade tambah lagi sorang follower. But I couldnt follow her because she didnt leave her link. >.< ah. thank you for following. trust me. My blog isnt dat interesting pun. maybe kalau nk elak mati kebosanan, bleh la gak layan. mwahahahaha

and personal thanks to Farhaneez kerane menyokong sy. Haritu dorang pi bsukerie kt Sunway,ice skating sume. too bad I couldnt follow. OH!

Semalam aku tlg Abg Lalat bniage kt Parcel C. Jual cake. laku kot. sume abes. LIKE! aku da ckp awl2 kt die. kalau nk aku tlg, next time call, dr aku x wat pape kt uma kan..bukan susa pun jual cake. tapi I was so freakin nervous sbb turn out aku kene jage gerai tu sorang2! aku igt kene dtg tlg je.. So i called wanie to teman me but she arrive bile tinggal lagi 2 slice je nk abes. hahaha. :P but nvm. Die anta aku balik then. thanks wanie for coming! Relieved ade org la jugak sbla aku kalau x aku bdiri sorang and sengih2 kt org lalu lalang like kerang busuk.

AH!! and i saw this flats and heels kt Alamanda. I want them so bad. that marieclaire heels took my breath away!! next month gotta get them!

PS'/ current mood= no enthusiasm utk update blog cos I miss my camera. Sorry.

hai! okay. 1st of all. its kinda susah actually to update everyday. sbb kalau aku spend most of the day kt luar, balik2 mesti penat and I just end up tido. :|

neway. sblom aku lupe. aku dpt award! my 1st award from shaggy the moy. haha. thanks so much shaggy! so Im gonna reke a tag called ‘award’ khas utk shaggy!

Hey everyone! this is gonna be a quick update on what have been goin on for the past 2 weeks. So, lepas balik Arau tu. finals menanti. sem ni ade 5 papers and aku cume confident utk 2 papers je. the other 3? DEM!!! I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT.

mule2 aku sgt bsemangat even 1st paper tu mcm ape ntah. tp mungkin bleh la takat lulus kott. WAAA. so there goes impian aku nk dpt 3.5~~ byebye~

okay i know i probably dont deserve it because usehe tade pun. haha. neway!!! skipping the sad heart throbbing drama, the best part is now im HOME!!! yepp. back to my smellyyy messy bedroom that I miss so muchh.

Abah and Mama dah arrived kt Perlis 2 hari dah but they stayed at the Hotel dulu. So sementare aku bergelut ngn last papers tu, dorang pegi bercuti2. amboi2. mule2 aku excited that they came. tp then aku baru taw yg makcik aku ade jugak. spoil gila.

I never have the chance to actually spend time with my FAMILY sahaje. excluded her. yea, shes part of the family. tp not for me. maybe Im being paranoid sbb slame ni kasih syg hanye dilempar2 kt aku je. tibe2 terase mcm kene kongsi. even im pretty sure die xkn dpt kasih syg mama. WAHAHAHA. ok im being extra mean harini sbb aku penat. Harini pretty bussy with my TONING UP PROGRAM. so yall probably wondering waddehell is dat program all about. sooo, its my plan to tone up all this extra baggage and meniti hari2 convo aku on early December nanti. I wanna look great. probably I wont, tapi at least, I wanna FEEL great about myself. I know its not gonna tone up that cepat, but Im being positive about it :]

and yeah. I LOVE YOUTUBE!!!

OMG! the experiences i had for the last 2 weeks in Arau sgt berharge. So bagi yg tgk brite tu mestila taw yg kt sane banjir. paling teruk Kangar. aku tade transport, so aku tataw yg Arau pun teruk. Luckily UiTM tu kt atas bukit so org yg rumah dekat2 situ pun sume tumpang kt Arau. Siap kene catu2 makanan. Tade la catu sgt sbb ade je org amek roti smpai sekotak sorang

little bit frustrated sbb aku x dpt roti tu pun. HAHA

anyway mama call hari2. you see, hikmah di sebalik sume ni is that aku dpt bonding2 ngn mama. we are pretty close lately. dulu x macam tu. I always feel like I cant talk to her about everything. well sbb tu la adenye blog ni. So mama risau aku x makan. HAHA. die x taw btape mewahnye makanan. aku beli byk stok. tp last2 abes jugak especially maggie. bape byk peket meggi aku makan. so kalau rambut gugur smpai segenggam jgn wat2 x bsalah la k maliza!!

lepas ni nk wat timetable utk makan. Im just gonna eat tempe,roti, ikan and gonna cut down my caffeine intake dr 3 mugs sehari to 2mugs?? aku taleh trus tinggal. nanti tekejut. haha. but I’ll try okay!! mase Form 1, aku ade diet maut. aku hanye akan makan roti 3 keping with milo kosong. kosong like really kosong. no gula or susu. and just ratah ikan and makan pisang sbb pisang wat aku cpt kenyang. and i drink alottt of orange juice (sbb lapa sgt I need sumting sweet so bad) that my palm changed color to orange and aku smpai kene wat bloodtest. haha. doctor ckp aku byk sgt vitamin C. I dont mind hearing that rather than die ckp, oh awk terlalu byk lemak. demm!

tapi the result?? susah nk digambarkan. I miss the feeling I had back then. about my body. Loving every part of it. hmmm

and sometimes I have that weirddtinglish crave for daging ayam. especially my moms ayam masak marah. OMG. irresistable. so aku akan makan. BUT BUT, aku just kunyah and amik the rase and juice. I throw away the daging. pelik x pelik? tp mmg extreme la.

but aku x rushing. so Im just gonna take it slow this time sbb aku bukan nk lose weight je. aku nk tone up balik. and Im excited!!

tp Im gonna pamper myself with fastfood sekali sminggu kalau aku bjaye ikut routine yg aku akan design kejap lagi. and besok probably aku kua ngn Kiki makan BK. Its been so long k! esok dikecualikan sbb Im just being normal. rindu sgt nk mkn BK. da bape bulan. so besok xyah diet.

mama bought 2 leggings kt Padang Besar which I HEART SOO MUCH!! then mase busy tumblr-ing, aku ter came across this one post pasal legging. bende tu haram, same goes to skinny jeans. and even aku plan nk pakai pun dengan baju yg panjang, tp legging tu sindri dah haram, maknenye haram la. oh man. da la aku byk gile legging…mungkin aku blum bleh terime perubahan ni but im gonna start slowly la.. I cant change drastic gile mcm tu..

Past few days, ade seorang JERK ni keep adding me kt facebook. He breaks one of my bestfriends’ heart and Im not gonna forgive him smpai die sindri dah maafkan. which gonna took forever I guess. Seriously. that guy is stupid enaff to leave this amazing girl. Im not sure if ade normal people yg dumber than dat. Dah tu die bukan add aku je. He added Isa which I find rather strange. Isa pun x kenal die. I dunno whats his plan but im not interested with his game. so aku harap die berambus dr idup ktorang. I hope she wont take him back. Please remember the pain he gave.. you dont deserve that at all..I understand the feelings. well how could I forget!! tapi tell you wat, watpe nk waste time reminiscing on the past..you have a bright brightttt future ahead..focus taw. you’re strong. aku strong pun sebab die..really. because aku pandang tinggi kt die. shes a greattt girl. just its a shame dat the stupid jerk didnt see her that way. but anyways, aku akan sentiase support pape pun decision die cos I have faith in you babe! I do.

So anyway. gotta get back to my dumbell exercise. Later!!

ps/ bear with me. taleh upload gmba for quite awhile sbb tpakse tunggu budget cukup utk new DSLR. so saba k!