JustMarl

OMG! today passed reallyyy slowwwllyyyy. Im starving. cos its day 2 of no rice. hmm. Got another 3 papers left. hey! sbenanye kejap je 2 minggu tu.. rase mcm baru smlm mengeluh2 sbb lambat lagi nk balik. hehe. Lately, aku rase mcm mmg aku spend most of my time with myself. Main game. Facebooking. sleeping. er. hafway streaming 17episodes of TheVampireDiaries, and I just couldn’t stop watching. So yeah. lepas penat tgk, aku pun tido. I did everything but touch the book. biase la. sbb gap 4 hari kan. harharhar. tp ade 2 subject yg tade gap. so no comments!

anywayss, makin nk balik makin rase tanak buat shortcourse. tp no turning back. kalau dah baya kene pegi. huu. yeah, I felt reluctant to go, but it felt right. maybe it’s a right decision. and maybe ade hikmah sume ni. positive skit k!

ok. I really have to sleep early harini. tanak hari2 mendatang dengan kemalasan sedemikian, and dah la malas, asek makan roti ngn telo je, pastu tido je. argh. ok goodbye!

*bosannye blog tade pic. saba kk. cuti sem. hehe

yep! that’s today’s exam paper. gosh. harder than I thought! hate remembering all those processes. sume pun kene ade process. well if I were the manager or supervisor, Id be to damn busy to even bother following the processes.

but hati abit lega since org yg pandai2 pun kate susah. ehehehehhe. so tade pape harapan. JUST lulus pls.

kejap je, taw2 je tinggal lagi 3 paper. tehee. tak saba nk balik!

I miss you Mama! and Abah of course. and Patrick! and Mama’s ikan keli asam pedas. *drools*

balik nanti nk cubet2 patrick cmni!

tetibe mcm dilemma, whether I should go on for the shortcourse or tayah. sbb mcm hati ni berat sgt nk dtg Arau balik. sobsob.

I don’t think Im gonna kerja, but nak cepat2 register SSM dulu, then do some seriousss business!!

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people keep using and take my stuffs. yg mintak izin tu okay. yg tak tu. hmmmm.

gotta get my own basket just for my stuff. sbb barang bercampur2. org pun tak prasan sgt barang sape. hmmm

tapelah. anggap sedekah k! jgn bkire sgt! sbb aku kan divaa. divaa mmg suke wat amal2 jariah ni. zzz

bought an AirWick  for my tiny room. tadi nantok sgt sbenanye. bukak2 perfume tu, dah tido like half an hour, bangun with sakit hidung sbb the wangi is too kuat.. tpakse letak kt luar. cheh. tapi tapelah. janji bilik aku bau wangi~ it reflects much on the tuan bilik you know~ huhuh

anyway. harini azam nk tido awal. got 4 days gap before the next paper, tp lepas tu ade like 2 paper bturut2. so yeah. gotta wake up early morn tomorrow and start planning! zz ok bye!

its been awhile now.. that id stay up awake, till dawn. and all the memories keep flashing back..

why do I still care?

I just want to stop remembering them. that’s all

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smoge hari2 lepas ni, aku dpt hidup dgn happy and at peace .

Alhamdulillah. lepas 2 hari aku x makan, aku dpt makan kenduri makcik depan umah sewe kitorang ni. err. biase2 je kot. asal dapat makan nasik cukup la. hehe. dr mlm smlm tunggu nasik.. asalnye aku mcm tanak pegi..tp lepas tu Eyda ajak, aku pun tgh lapa gile. aku gi la. mcm gelojoh gile and x pandang org pun. hehe.

tp aku da beli stock roti and telo byk2.. kalau lapa sgt aku makan roti je. I can survive! so selagi boleh, aku takkan mintak tlg sape2. well its not really about EGO. its just that, I need to prove myself, that I can stand on my own feet. I know it wont probably be ALL THE TIMES. but I want to be able to stand incase, you know. you fall hard and you got no one to lend you their hands.

Been streaming Trauma and TheVampireDiaries last 2 days. haih. tgk cite vamp ni mmg syok gile. Arap2 there are real vampires out there, yg who will come and bite me. I wanna get to know hot vamps and join my own vamp clan. like cool gilaa. boleh lompat tinggi. jalan laju. woww! boleh balik umah cpt than naik bas >.<

I have new semangat. that is, pape pun, okay, maybe aku dah bgitaw or dah renew matlamat ni like 12times, tp just that now, rasenye2 bukan pasal aku determine ke x, tp mmg aku tpakse determine. I promised that I wont return to CP. not if tade pape penting. and smlm posted a status ‘What you don’t know cant hurt you’. Abah plak reply ‘its better to know what could hurt you so you could prepare for the worst’. ARGH. walaupun betul, aku cube men-deny kebetulan itu. haha. dem. truth does hurts! anyway, kalau terpk balik, in case aku kene balik CP. aku nk return with style, and I wanna look good. you know. I don’t want to look OBESSED, and messy. I want to show them, that I AM ABSOLUTELY fine. okay maybe it will start sbagai satu penipuan *which im fine tu*, but I believe that if I keep telling myself THAT im fine, I will soon be. so yeah. positive sikit!

and thank you Allah. aku dpt sorang customer yg sgt2 baik and memahami kewangan aku. its not that aku buat mcm ni selalu. ni exception, and it’s the last time yg aku akan wat pun. sbb aritu since yg rumah kene rompak tu, im like so terribly in need of money. so tpakse gune duit cust. tp aku dah baya tadi didn’t tell MAMA bout it, sbb aku nk rase yg aku bleh solve it myself. and I could! yeay me! cume aku kene starve for a week menggantikan RM100 yg aku ganti tu. haih. tape2. balik nanti makan puas2

duit2 duit2. saba2. I will have all the money in the world one day. ! zzz