JustMarl

havent really slept. sebab nervous kene balik Arau balik.

semalam sempat berjimba dgn SyahmiSuhaimi, Syazana Yahaya, adik die, and Syafiqah Zamri. hehe. Asalnye dtg ngn si momot tu. Had McD! well to be exact MEGA MAC. loikee. I lovee meatt~

 

kene letak LOTS of pepper and sauce. I like it that way. pedas smpai berhingushingusan.

Lepas tu ktorang pegi Karok. oh. cam biase, ktorang lepak2 ni kt Alamanda ler. and baru notice TGI da bukak kt situ. untung laa pasni momot tu gi lepak situ je. aku x mampu deer. haha.

So beli sejam then karok2 smpai la Syhmi ngn Lalat yg menyusul kmudiannye tu. Campo agi karok stgh jam then amek2 gmba skit. gonna miss them all >.<

alamek. lupe plak nk ckp. sblum tu ktorang gi Maybank sbb nk deposit duit Iffa ngn Lalat. *even akan jumpe lalat gak pastu. zz sometimes certain bende I just don’t have the explanation so don’t ask why!!

*muke nk seri je. ofcourse la. diva kan??

siblings :’)

we’ve been together for soo long. so hopefully that wouldn’t change.

the girlfriends =3

Lalat ade masalah hormon. so mnyebabkan die suke amek gmba smbil pgg2 tmpt x spatutnye

MY FAVORITE! tp sygnye gmba time ni blur. salah sape?

Shaggy the Momot or MariahCurry

Jelopez~ more like mcm tgh makan icecream. oh lucahnye lalat ni!

okay tu kaki aku. sile abaikan.

dapat ni bile beli sejam. like wth? xpenting kot sume ni! lepas tu charge rm23. patutnye rm18 je. *bak kate Momot

okay. so lepas tu ktorang shopping2 jap. aku dapat teeshirt free from Watson sbb dpt point tinggi. thanks to Syahmi. hehehe. dah try baju tu. okey ketat skit tp luckily kain die stretch . harharhar. jalan2 sume smpai umah just before Maghrib.

so harini hari terakhir aku kt rumah. gonna miss home so much. tp sikit2 excited dengan ape nk jadi mase depan. oh. please let me pass Eco. and the rest of the papers. mcm biase la, bile da nk ujung2 sem tu, tetibe x yakin nk dpt Dean. tape tape. niat tu murni dah. tp usehe tade susah gak. OUCH. ok bye!

okay so I didn’t spend the last what, 5days? that wisely. haha. starting to regret it. Neway its gonna be a quick post cos Im off to bed now. and im meeting Syahmi and Shaggy tomorrow morn. Haven’t plan what we we’re gonna be up to. But generally Im just pretty excited and am having mild headache. probably caused by my frequent daily dosage of caffeine these past few days. well, honestly, I’ve stopped drinking Neslo like for a month?? Never actually thought im able to do so, but I did. Yay me! well I guess it didn’t feel that bad cos I didn’t really give much thoughts on it. Err. but I drink Iced Coffee almost everyday I guess that doesn’t really count cos coffee mcm tade as much caffeine as the Nescafe has? ok bye!

what else could have possibly went wrong..?

living without him..is too hard. so hard that sometimes..well, most of the time.I wished that I could re-live the past..correct things..and just keep loving him.. the way that I always do…

There are few people in my life..those I called ‘friends’ before, whom I can’t ever forgive. I tried. but I can’t.

This is really something I never expected. to have this feeling affects me so bad that I keep having that nightmares pretty frequent lately. Im not sure why. Its not like I always had my mind on it. Not always.

Today is just one of another day..where I feel so lonely. and missing that person I mistreated, so bad that its hard for me to breathe.

But I believe that this is nothing compares to the life Jane Bingum. or. Deb in Jane. Sgt menghayati hidup Jane Bingum tu smpai.. I wish I could be more like her. *or her character.yeah..biaselah tu..everything just seems so easy with someone’s else punye life.

I know..I know that you probably hate me so much right now, so much that maybe even YOU couldn’t describe? I know cos I hate myself to. really..I do. I mean. I hate myself for letting this to happen AGAIN. Im really sorry. you don’t have to believe that I AM sorry, cos its okay. I understand.

But I guess. you know what they say ….You only realize how important that person to you, when they’re gone..

For now, I just need more time for myself. Focus on watever selain bende2 ni. Im really penat..please don’t look for me. that’s the best. trust me. It would be better when Im gone. Just hang in there..

I always doakan you yg terbaik..cos that’s what u deserve..

I mean it..

Im sorry that I cant be the person..

Because till now that I only realize, Im just not the same person anymore…

Until I figure out who I reallyyy am now. just please leave me. Ill be okay

I don’t love you ‘that’ way, but I DO love you. If you know what I mean.

Goodbye..

Waking up with a terrible dream… again..

just brought me to tears. to be able to remember the past. in details.

…

Haih..

Semalam teman lalat jumpe kawan die. His name is Daus. pretty baik jugak. caring gile babi. well he seems like it la. pastu mcm sgt matured. and die blanje aku makan skali. overall. Had a great 1st impression on him. haha. I mean, its good that u try to win ur girl’s friendss punye hati  once awhile. if u mampu la. just saying. it’s a good gesture. he totally have my vote. haha. senang x?

some people just are that lucky. *jealous!*

well, I guess Im pretty lucky too. sbb arini Mama masak ikan pari asam pedas. *drools*

Couldn’t stop eating cos Im afraid Im gonna forget the taste ;[

Misses my Molly. snapped few pictures with her, but seems like I don’t have any skills even for an amateur. yeah. pretty lame. Id definitely try some of the youtube tutorials someday. Soon!

Sorry that I didn’t do much updating on MarlAhmad. Just don’t have the mood for it. I know I know. I used to love blogging back then. Because I had so much fun and just too many things going on around. but things are just pretty different lately. since I gained like 15Kg’s. It makes me so lazy. I don’t like the feeling. But yet doesn’t have much motivation and courage. You know. to take that veryyy first STEP.

been wondering lately on how things went with Nagutoto. cancelled our last sleepover sbb she could not make it. Not sure if we ever gonna meet this cuti. Im missing you Nagutoto!!

I know Im different now. I don’t talk that much anymore. Not that bubbly and fun nemore. because they took everything away from me.

:’[

How I wish everything should just end. But then, Im sure Im gonna miss all those moments I had. the unforgettable ones. the ones that gave hugeee impact on me. hmmmm

PS/ I just love holidays