JustMarl

Introducing my other half; Molly Jr!!

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shes gonna be my new bestfriend. *bestfriend2 yg lain jgn risau, korang tetap dihatiku~*

emm. thanks to mama and abah for this special gift..

hey hope everyones doing fine and welllfed~ haha.

em. Still couldnt sleep. So semalam Anis dtg rumah tido sini. Kelmarin rehearsal utk convo. ntah la. not so much preparation actually. Im not even that excited macam org lain. Im not sure why. Maybe because I dont really feel happy macam tu. Oh god Im so desperate and lonely! LOL! Well at least Mama and Abah are still healthy and they’re always there for me..

Em. pasal Dslr. maybe I have to put that desire aside for a while.. I dont really have the money to get THE ONE that Ive been wanting. well, dulu aku tade la check2 price die ke ape because aku taw la mahal, and tanak macam nanti harge die wat aku ilang smgt nk kumpul. And even skang pun. Aku rase aku takkan mampu nak beli lansung. maybe bukan dlm 10 tahun pertame ni. wahahhaa.maybe it wasnt meant for me at all. or maybe someday je kot :]

So Im just gonna keep the money. maybe utk bile2 emergency in the future. or bile tibe2 aku rase nk gi bcuti kt Sri Lanka or sumting.

AH! Ive met my longggggggggggglostttttttchildhoooooooodbestie!! Afiqah Zahidi! Omg. shes so freakin talll and prettyyyy. I miss her. okay sbenanye pretty mcm kalut2 skit time jumpe tu but I really hope the next time things went well! haha. we hugged like lama jugak and she muah2 me. hahaha. oh my. Kasih syg trus masuk dlm my veins. haha.

There are people in my humble and so not interesting life that I wanted to meet again someday but I just never does tapi the people that Id rather die than meeting? mesti salu je tsrempak kt mane2 dgn senang gile babai. and the more that I wanted certain people to stay in my life, the things yg dorang buat is alwayssss leave. Haha. lifes just cruel sometimes but thats okay. Life couldnt kill me. cos I died few times already. hmmmm

The last time I meet Najat, she said someones been texting her asking bout me. and shes like. HA. Remy been asking bout you. i was like.

Remy who? :| and tgk number tu mmg familiar. well yeah. aku sorang yg pelupe. but utk org yg aku penah sakitkan hati die, org sinned towards them, I wont forget their names. so yeah. I never kenal anyone with the name Remy. but my heart keep telling that its Nuar. Just like weekss ago aku mcm tertanye2 die watpela skang sume. of course aku takkan kcau idup die lagi. after all the things Ive done to him. men. gotta have guts to show up balik dlm hidup die.. and Najat buat bende btul by x layan and wat2 x kenal sape maliza. hahaha. nice one naguto! u bab2 wat2 x kenal i mmg terer :P jk.

okay. pastu since Im like eager myself nk taw skit2 pasal cmne idup die skang. well kalau sape2 taw ape aku penah wat kt die, mesti paham kot nape aku still kesah.. of course aku kesah. ktorang kawan lame kot. like almost same lame ngn the relationship I had with that person the name I refuse to mention. and he neverrrrrrrrrrrr take advantage kt aku bile2 pun. hes like. the real man kot. just too bad, hes more like a protector to me. like abang you know? and that wouldnt change.

So aku nyama jadi another bestfriend of maliza. *oh aku sedang melibatkan diri dgn drama*, and ckp najat cite pasal the text messages and that aku just cautious nak taw nape die tnye sal maliza sume. korek korek korek. so Nuar ckp die still nk kawan ngn MALIZA tu kalau bleh. mesti la x. demm nuar. I couldnt forgive myself if I ever hurt you again. So better macam ni je. so aku*yg nyama jadi bestfriend maliza tu* cakap kt die yg baik xyah kawan kot sbb maliza dah nk tunang pas die abes study.

i was like. WATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT am i doing! okay sgt ketare yg aku sgt bosan kt umah and got nothing better to do. :| and so he said. okay kalau camtu die tade pape nk ckp. harap aku happy ngn hidup aku. and babai.

:|

I really hope he finds someone yg btul2 ikhlas ngn die. and xkn sakitkan ati dy. hes really a nice guy. yep! i think im pretty lucky jugak sbb even ade la like few dumbasses yg aku jumpe, ade sikit2 tu yg memang bleh diharap and baikkkk gilerrr. just too bad. I dont deserve good guys. :|

still couldnt make up my mind what I want with who.

it touches me, like tgk the boyfriend dtg kt konvo the girlfriend, took pictures together, amek gmba with family dorang. tgk macam dorang tu dah mmg macam satu family pun, and the boyfriend sit next to the girlfriend, looking lebey2 lak excited than the girlfriend *which is cute gila* and tgk the girlfriend faces sbb dpt bunge and teddy bear..macam comel gile. yeah Im pretty jealous…

as happy as I am pun sbb Alhamdulillah. macam2 drama time kt college, tp sume tu bjaye dilalui same2 ngn member2 lain an.. cume this feeling.. not the feeling I expected I would feel..

Well, ksimpulannye, aku just harap everything went well with the event.. InsyaAllah.

and bile ntah. tgk cite the Buried Life. generally pasal a group of friends yg travel across Europe?? kot. sbb nk laksanekan sume to do things before they die. dorang like ade this list, and dorang try utk buat sume yg ade dlm list tu, at the same time, help people along the journey. bestnye jadi mcm tu.. So aku pun mcm inspired gile nk buat jugak my own to do things before I die and maybe ade beberape je buat mase ni, but Ill keep adding :] and let see brape yg aku mampu*or sempat buat. haha.

found my old diaries. HAHAH. x bace sume. bace sikit2. tp malu sgt dgn gaye penulisan bm aku tu. so aku mcm tanak bace and tanak igt. wahahahah!!

06.02.03

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okay goodnight!!

hey everyone! mcm biase la. aku tido lambat again. despite the fact yg im pretty sleepy and tired. So harini kitorang ade rehearsal untuk convocation Isnin ni kt UiTM Shah Alam. Well, aku x pegi sgt pun rehearsal? just denga half of the briefing and then trus ckp kt Naguto nk balik!! sbb nantok!! it was like pukul 530PM mase tu.

Neway rasenye sume bjalan lancar, jubah dah dapat yay!! and and duit bantuan aka bonus time aku keje kt prangkaan dulu pun da masuk! yay!!

but no. thats not for shopping. aku da janji nk beli dslr. tapi… rasenye mcm xkan tercapai any soon lagi..sbb turn out cmere aku nak tu mahal gile. like triple the budgeted amount. :[

tp maybe ade harapan, sbb cami kate xkn la mahal sgt. so die nk teman aku gi survey nanti. tataw bile!!

org lain sume bgamba sakan ngn jubah. tp aku tade mood sgt sbb tade kmere…

em oh! Ive met Iqa!! and shes sooo talllll and prettyyy!! lame sgt tak jumpe. shes like my besttchildhood friend since dekat BTHO lagi. (bandar tun hussein onn)

tapi syg jumpe kejap je, because ktorang jumpe like jauh from najat, and I was like rushing lari2 ke Iqa, x btaw najat pun nk gi mane, and takut najat ilang. aku mane la penah masuk dlm UiTM s.a tu kan.

so sembang2, amek gmba jap. then die pun balik! but we kinda macam made a deal dat we gonna meet again soon. maybe mase pas abes convo nanti lepak2 jap :]

and I till the plan with lalat konvo skali ngn aku macam bjalan lancar even x jalan lagi pun. :|

and hopefully SyahmiSuhaimi yg gorgeoussss tuuu dpt tlg amek gmba kitorang time konvo nanti. please please!! hehehehe

and ok. i need to sleep. sorry la x detail and macam cincai2 je update. really dont have the time now >.<

maybe later k! bye!

Tuesday Morning.

Naguto kejut around 630AM? okay. sbenanye die kejut lagi awal. tp time tu aku baru like 2 jam tido and halfway lene. and mcm dengar x dengar je the phone rings.Tp luckily aku tsedar! terus gi mandi. around 730AM kuar dr uma. and smpai UiTM Shah Alam at 8.40AM? LOL. my first time masuk sane. demm patut amek gamba! pastu tgk org konvo. rase mcm happy sgt! I dunno why. Kete kene park like jauh gile and then kene naik bas gi Business Fac. which is seblah Law Fac? and tibe2 tringat wani. hehe. and naik bas ngn sume mak bapak org which muke sume happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy je. ntah. I just feel good and mcm abit contemplated. Especially bile tgh the faces of their moms and dads. yeah. true what they say. precious!!

Harap2 everything went well with all my friends yg tgh mengharung konvo or da dpt scroll. Congrats!!

Aku tibe2 dpt idea, why nott Lalat ikut aku gi konvo? Gosh. Die kene gak ade gmba konvo no matter what. Tu mcm sekali seumur hidup! mesti kene ade! So aku ckp, you can borrow my jubah. pretend like ur in Dungun ke ape. or just pegi kt studio. x kesah la. then maybe aku borrow jubah sape2, and amek gmba same2! LOL! aku dpt rasekan tat day is gonna be fun !

and problem solved! sbbnye, budak business punye convo’s date mcm paling last skali. and probably yg lain bleh dtg? haha. sape2 yg sudi laa. Its gonna be antare hari bermakne yg aku dah x kongsi ngn sape2. but I tink aku dah halfway over it sbb aku bejaye lalui  my 1st birthday sorang je. and it wasnt that bad. hey aku patut bersyukur still dpt bgn pagi2 *or tgari* ari2 tu. part of me mcm rase, maybe its better macam ni, I mean, lagi less someone tu involved dlm hidup aku, the better. but bukan utk friends la kay! I love all my friends!

maybe ade some yg ade certain habit yg taleh change and it just drives u nuttsss at times kan. tp sape je yg perfect? next time, maybe you might want to remember dorangnye kebaikan, or kelebihan rather than pinpointing dekat flawless. mane ade org yg tade flaws..

well overall. aku happy harini. sbb aku rase mcm aku x menghampe kan sape2. *well i tried not to let anyone down* tp sorry x dpt jumpe wani mlm tadi…

Afternoon.

berdasarkan ape yg Najat cite, die mcm satisfied and happy pasal interview tu. aku rase die mesti dpatnye! hehe. kap khron kapp la pasni naguto! and Im happy that I was there. kalau x ntah bile nk jumpe die? like this cuti sem baru skali tu la jumpe die!

oh and thanks for that BigMac! hehe. aku sbenanye nantok gile2, pakai lense, pastu mate dah brair2. badddd combination. haha tp what to do. i hate wearing glasses! so sanggup smpai mate pedih2 pakai lense sbb tanak pakai spek. pastu pening2. lege smpai umah tgari tu. Balik trus mandi sbb it was prettyyy hot harini. and then terus tido!!

Evening.

I cant remember aku bgn kul bape. oh. maybe around 530PM?? sbb Kiki text. and sbb aku mcm terjage sbb denga bunyi hujan kt luar. Sejuk~ best tido! mcm tanak bgn tadi because aku tido like sooo damn lene. haha. tp teringat janji nk aja die bawak kete. so aku kuatkan kudrat aku. hahahahaa. kul 6 something baru aku kua and da smpai kt uma die. nk try jumpstart. tp guess what? I left the car key dlm kete. sempat amek the jumper*lalat called it-tp aku x igt ape org panggil. oh! aku rase tu cable. bukan jumper. :|

die byk tgk movie ni… okay!! sooooo, aku mcm. DEM!! rase dissapointed ngn diri aku. because I kinda know how important today is – aja die bawak kete, because he wanted it like so bad jugak. sbb hes someone with plans. solid plans. and die kate kene reti bawak kete before pegi Melake sbb sambung study. so.. I was like. man. I dont want to be the person yg ruin kan sume tu. so call la lalat. and she came to the rescue!!thank god! lepas magrib, mama dtg uma lalat anta kunci kete spare, and ktorang gi pasa malam dulu. dinner aku is paru sambal 2 batang. then pegi Alamanda sbb Kiki nk beli pasir kucing dy. then aku beli Lemonade *tibe2 mcm dah jadi favorite*, then ktorang pegi kt P11, tempat bukit org gi jogging. situ x byk kete lalu.  so prektis la kt bukit tu sbb rasenye Kiki da reti bawak kete kalau kt jalan. cume gotta polish sikit dekat bukit. hehehe.  At first mcm time aku dulu. nervous and mcm lame gile baru nk paham camne nk balance clutch ngn minyak. but rasenye die dah paham. just kene prektis lagi few times, mesti okay. I have faith in you!

oh! dah like bape minit kt sane practicing. Ade 2 guards tibe2 dtg ke kete and ktorang mcm. hmmmmmmmmm. taleh duk sini ke? haha. rupe2nye guard tu igt ktorang wat pape x snonoh. and better!!!, lalat kenal plak sala sorang guard tu, sbb guard tu dulu keje cashier. haha. untung laa lalat cable besaa. so die pun, oo tape la. then ktorang pun sambung la bawak kete. pk2 balik. thank god aku bukan like berdue je. x pasal2. org mesti xkn caye pun kan even mmg x wat pape.

Then pegi mapley sbb Abg lalat kirim roticanai, then ktorang lepak2 jap. tserempak Wanie ngn Epa. hahaha. pastu tegur2 jap. pastu gi kt kete aku yg tdampar kt uma Kiki. pastu try jumpstart. Abah mesti proud. sbb aku bjaye jumpstartkan kete. ehhehehe. around kul 11.30PM baru aku sampai umah.

lapa gile. pas mandi aku trus geledah dapo. cnfirm la tade beli pape makanan utk aku even mama kua tadi. sbb dorang expect aku da makan. nasib baik ade Maggie. hmmm. tpakse mkn meggie. tu je ade…

oh thanks Kiki banje kopi O ais! tadi x lapa lak mase kt mapley.

I notice dat my hair makin teruk plak condition dy. hmm. nk gi wat treatment ke? aku rase akan lagi rosak kalau tibe2 aku stop doing the treatment. kene find other ways. but good thing is my scar makin hilang :] ade sikit lagi. but Its gonna hilang bile aku da nk masuk study kot. hehe. oh nervous tibe2 pasal result. hmm.

moving on!!

besok SyahmiSuhaimi aka abg kacak nk konvo dah. Congrats!!

maybe aku x dpt nk pegi sane tgk die. pagi busy gi gym ngn lalat and epa and tgari maybe aku busy bedengkur kt uma. hehe. so yeah. dats all for today. I had a gooddd time :]

later peeps!